20% of the fireworks went IN the river and I can get more chest vibrations out of my car's stock bass speakers. Too long of interludes and too short of a show. Last year was better than this.
Not like my opinion is going to change anything, just thought I'd voice my disappointment and see who agrees.
They warned everyone about this, but a lot of people clearly didn't read the patch notes at the beginning of season 40.
End of season glory payout are over. You earn glory match by match. You're not going to get a big payout at the end of the season. It's not a mistake. And don't get mad that you're just finding out, because they told you this in March. Pic related.
Can't hold down a job more than three months. Can't get a job now that I've been fired for the fifth time. Can't make enough money on door dash to pay all the bills. Can't even find a job paying more than 16 an hour. Can't get into jobs paying more than 12 an hour. Can't make my car payment on time. Can't give up because my fiance depends on me and I am NOT sending her back to the hell I pulled her out of. Can't go back to my parents because the last thing I said to them was "your God is dead and I wish you were too." Can't go to her family because they're already on the verge of losing a grandfather and (separately) a grandmother - not to mention the fact that I can't spend any extended period of time around them without being at risk of hospitalization because of how unstable they all are and how physically violent they all tend to be. Can't keep living like this because for the past three days straight my inability to contain the rage, stress, and depression has driven her to uncontrollable tears of fear, anger, despair, and (mental) pain.
I don't want to have to sell everything I own to be able to afford to stay alive. I just want to live. I want to be happy. I want to have the ability to do something I want to do without being worried that I won't be able to afford needs.
But I have 11.5k to pay on this totaled car, 1100 a month in housing expenses, and gas, groceries, and insurance on top of that. My lease is coming to an end and I don't want to renew it, but I can't get another one because I don't have enough money for a deposit on a different rental. I have nowhere to go. There is no one who can help me. I am going to break through rock bottom before I can make a single move to even START getting back up.
I can't keep going.
I can't give up.
I just. Can't.
There is no way for me to move forward. There is no way for me to slide backward. I have to break to repair.
I'm not suicidal. Suicide is for people whose spite is not strong enough to keep them alive. But I have zero desire to keep living.
Printed a 50% scale solid to see how the printer does, printing a 100% scale hollow to get accustomed to the feeling of the new controller before my reservation comes up in the queue.
Ain't cut out for this, DSP doesn't care, won't be back, fun while it lasted, time to find better.