u/gayhamster01

TW: mentions suicide
I was having suicidal thoughts & had to call suicide hotline because of losing my grandmother that raised me and also having to deal with my girlfriend, kicking me out over every argument. on top of my cousin that I have no contact with trying to text me. (my life is a joke rn)

So I called my bio mom that I have partial contact with and she acted like she didn’t care. i texted her and said my girlfriend is getting therapy, but I can’t do it again because it’s driving me over the edge on top of losing my grandmother that raised me and all she sent me was a funny TikTok. She later said that it seemed like everything was fine and that’s why she ignored it.

the next day I vent about it online because I have no one to talk to and I guess someone sent her a screenshot of the post and she started a huge argument with me mainly because I called her my bio mom, even though she gave me up to my grandmother at five years old so she can be with men and do drugs. every time I would tell her about how I felt she would talk about how she felt instead, or she would just simply say I love you, have a nice day, and she can’t have a relationship with me anymore because she’s essentially walking on eggshells. (but when i stopped texting her she would text me again) she was ignoring everything I said. She’s also enabling my cousin that won’t leave me alone and I’ve told her multiple times to leave me alone. she said “she’s family” and she wasn’t harassing me she’s just checking in on me. like wtf ever 😭

When she said she was walking on eggshells and that she’s doing everything wrong I told her she was doing everything wrong because she doesn’t care about me. She mocks me when I take up for myself, she screamed at me once for having my door locked all the time when i was going through something. and whenever I reminded her of those moments, she said it was silly to bring up little things and that she was a punching bag to me. Am I in hell? Is the universe trying to push me to die or something? I feel like the world is against me right now and I have no one to trust.

i am not in the best headspace rn so maybe I’m in the wrong. but i didn’t insult her or anything. this all just feels like she’s trying to get a rise out of me to make me look crazy.

we’ve been together for a year and a half and she gets into moods where she tries to bait me into an argument and when i don’t engage, she tells me she’s miserable, that we’re not right for each other, and to call my mom to come get me or she’s gonna call her for me. i don’t have the best relationship with my mom but i know that she would let me live with her.

my gf will ignore me when i want to talk about our issues and will literally walk out of the room but when she’s clearly trying to bait me into an argument and i do the same as her and i tell her to leave me alone, she tells me to get out. i stay respectful when i try to communicate because i really want her to listen to me.

some examples of her trying to bait me is saying the same thing over and over and when i say “please stop” she has to say it one last time to show me who’s boss i guess lol

what’s strange is she will go about a week or two without arguing and is super close with me, and she’s so loving. then she’ll become distant, and then about 3-4 times weve been together will tell me to leave. she knows i don’t want to live with my mother. the day after threatening to kick me out she will apologize and tell me she’s not actually miserable.

i also have bpd and she does these things just to get some entertainment out of my emotions or something which is something i’ve dealt with with many people including my family which is why idk what to do.
when i argue back, she wants me here. when i don’t she wants me to leave.

idk what to do 😭😭 do i go to a homeless shelter? do i stay with my mom and deal with the same shit? do i stay and see if she will get therapy? HELP

TLDR: my gf tries to bait me into an argument/get a rise out of me and when i tell her to stop she says she’s miserable with me and she tells me to call my mom to come get me or she will. the next day she acts like nothing happened.

this might be tmi but i’m having gas pains/cramps BAD 😭 worse than my period cramps. after doing some research i now know for a fact it’s because of all of the fiber im eating now that i’m vegan. any tips and does this last for a while?

for more info: i’ve been vegetarian for around 6 months and ate mostly fast food and pizza and now i eat morning star chicken sandwiches and beans & rice

it’s all worth it because i know the animals go through worse <3

it’s just pettiness 😭 i’m 24/F my gf is 22/F

My Gfs mom has said some petty things to me but it’s only over the phone because she’s too much of a coward to say it to my face lmao

today i asked if my Gf could get me some fries after she got off work and her mom is her only transportation. on the way home my gf forgot and asked if she could turn around and she said no (understandable) but what’s not understandable is when my gf got home her mom facetimed her and was like “did you get in trouble for not getting what you were asked to get?” i straight up said “why would she get in trouble?” and i said it over and over again but it was nothing but silence lol so i texted her and told her “i don’t have an issue with you not getting me fries and she’s not gonna get in trouble. thought i should let you know that haha” still haven’t gotten a response of course! she’s so bold over the phone.
my first interaction/impression with her mom, i was facetiming my gf and her mom was next to her. she said “IS SHE ON DRUGS?” after we hung up my gf told her that i heard her and she said she didn’t care. (i have piercings and i wasn’t wearing makeup or anything that’s prob why she said that)
there was also a time i was on facetime with my gf and i over heard her mom telling my gfs brother to go look at my page and to look at my pictures and was laughing being like “go look! go look!” i can’t stand her and it makes me feel worse when my gf just sits there and says nothing to her. do i confront her in person? do i trust that my gf will eventually take up for me or am i on my own?

also: i never see her mom in person only a handful of times and she’s always nice to my face

My Gfs mom has said some petty things to me but it’s only over the phone because she’s too much of a coward to say it to my face lmao

today i asked if my Gf could get me some fries after she got off work and her mom is her only transportation. on the way home my gf forgot and asked if she could turn around and she said no (understandable) but what’s not understandable is when my gf got home her mom facetimed her and was like “did you get in trouble for not getting what you were asked to get?” i straight up said “why would she get in trouble?” and i said it over and over again but it was nothing but silence lol so i texted her and told her “i don’t have an issue with you not getting me fries and she’s not gonna get in trouble. thought i should let you know that haha” still haven’t gotten a response of course! she’s so bold over the phone.
my first interaction/impression with her mom, i was facetiming my gf and her mom was next to her. she said “IS SHE ON DRUGS?” after we hung up my gf told her that i heard her and she said she didn’t care. (i have piercings and i wasn’t wearing makeup or anything that’s prob why she said that)
there was also a time i was on facetime with my gf and i over heard her mom telling my gfs brother to go look at my page and to look at my pictures and was laughing being like “go look! go look!” i can’t stand her and it makes me feel worse when my gf just sits there and says nothing to her. i’ve never said anything to her before but i did today. i feel accomplished, i used to never take up for myself when i was younger.