this book feels like a cognitohazard. everytime I try to pick it up again, boom, headache. Anyways I don’t even know where to start reading here and I think it goes on like this for more pages, so. Damn.
i was going to just unlock every character I could and then go back and brute-force this and other secrets (like a normal person playing this game, probably), but my curiosity got the better of me.
im assuming its some kind of terminal (?) and that i need a character with a “code” or ability to hack (that mechanic’s in the sequel, not this one) to access it?? either that or certain guard characters (who presumably have keycards, although when checking I didn’t see that mentioned under their abilities, so perhaps not. Then again, I DID say “certain”.)
..anyways other than this I’m playing this pretty much completely blind which is fun. feels good to solve some of the “puzzles“ by myself (in quotations because they aren’t puzzles at all, it’s all just “bring a character with X ability into this level”. the only puzzles in these games are objects like this terminal, which I’ll have to brute force or give up on and look it up/ask online, neither of which feels like a solution to me, like how the “solution“ to getting Batman over the acid in the DS version of the Arkham maze in the sequel was to just.. have him jump around it and NOT have Robin find water and spray away the acid, which I THOUGHT was the intended solution as the game TELLS you that Robin’s Hazard Suit can carry liquids and that water can wash away acid, but oh well. Sorry, I’m kind of yapping. That maze level just pisses me off. why the hell is there a maze in the asylum??)
(Sorry, didn’t know what name he prefers, want to be respectful. also, for further context, I have some kind of anxiety disorder, genuinely forgot which one, but it’s one of them. it’s bad.)
when I’m stressed I either A: clam up entirely, or B: say WHATEVER it is that’s on my mind, no in between. both of these are bad depending on the situation, but it’s not like I’m insulting people to their faces if B turns out to be the stress response (from the bits that I can remember and from other’s perspectives it’s mostly just me apologizing 200 times or saying some stupid shit).
im worried that if i get unlucky if i were to meet the guy, i would just like. blurt out various jokes. and not know when to stop, because like. that’s what I DO sometimes when I’m stressed/nervous, yknow?? like, at what point would I have to force myself to stop talking (if even possible to do so) before I get shot? (what if he finds me SO annoying that he doesn’t even do the coin flip or ask his other half, he’s just collectively like, “damn, this mf HAS to go”????)
[ooc: I do actually have an anxiety disorder irl, and it is relatively bad. Also, sorry if i fucked up in describing two-face. I have “The Batman (2004)“ animated series in recent memory, so I stuck to that interpretation for lack of knowledge/remembrance of another one.]
All I’m doing is just stagnating. I’m almost 19 and I haven’t had a single job. I don’t know how to drive. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. 19 is practically 20 which is practically 1/4 of my life gone by already. there isn’t a life after this one. all I’ve EVER done is learn and I can’t use that knowledge anywhere. it’s all just useless. I need to go back to therapy, but I’m not good at talking over the phone to schedule an appointment. I think I’m just being over dramatic. I dunno.
yeah I know that binders and tape and stuff exist and I’ve HAD some binders before, but (and idk if ive told this story here before) by the time I work myself up to being able to put them on, they usually become too tight. (and tbh I think putting tape on would HURT, especially upon taking it off. would I have to like?? shave there beforehand and lotion up and shit?? i actually don’t know.) (tldr I’m too much of a coward* to bind or tape)
its way too hot out where I am to warrant wearing a big jacket all the time, although I guess I could just buy baggy shirts or something? idk im prolly overthinking it again. sorgy I was juts uhh thinking
gave up halfway through because it looks like buns.
im sure SOMEONE out there can use it, though. one man’s trash is another man’s treasure or whatever
tbh I just wanted to fuck around and try something new. originally I was gonna put worchestershire sauce on the crackers but i wanted extra salt (both have salt but yknow what I mean)
I don’t have a CLUE how I could search for something like this so if anyone has any more or knows of any more like this I’ll appreciate it (it’s just so funny)
Also all of those unnamed warrior peeps he brought back look WAY over 20 tbh but if Tsukasa’s a high schooler (unless he got held back or something idk how it works in Japan) then anything’s allowed I guess. is there a lore reason?
first Jak.
don’t think it’s hateful and incomprehensible enough but I didnt know what else to add so.
I assume it’s at or around the point where you start keeping trash around (the kind that you can’t re-use like dirty napkins or something) but idk
I’ve had the same fly 🪰(I think❔) circle me and keep landing on me are we chill now???🫂❔ like I move the arm its on and it doesn’t immediately fly away and it’s even let me touch the back of it and put my pinky next to one of its legs. 👀 🤜🤛🪰???
“Do Not You” on the last image was on purpose.