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Nine months ago, my ex broke up with me, and I've been trying my best to move on ever since. But today, while I was just playing video games, she suddenly popped into my mind. Out of nowhere, I felt this deep pain in my chest that hurt so much I started tearing up and my nose started running. I went to the bathroom to wipe my face, but as soon as I thought about our memories together—and her in general—it felt like I got punched straight in the heart. I completely broke down and cried for about 40 minutes.
I honestly can't believe that even after nine months, I'm still this heartbroken. I never realized love could hurt this much. I've tried so many different pieces of advice and methods to move on, but it feels like the wound is still just as open as the day she left. I don't understand why it still hurts so much after all this time.

Hey, 17M, I graduated alone and I guess I’m just sharing this because I don’t have anyone to celebrate with, but yea congrats to me I guess ^^

Something inside me died the day I went through that breakup 9 months ago. I'm still trying to move on, but ever since she left, I've felt hopeless, empty, and like a part of me is missing. I've done everything people usually recommend—blocked her, deleted our pictures, threw away everything that reminded me of us, picked up hobbies, focused on myself, and even tried to become the bubbly person I used to be. But none of it feels right anymore.
I'm currently in therapy and have started taking SSRIs for Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), but I still don't feel like the person I used to be. People tell me I barely talk anymore, that I'm quieter, more reserved, and straight to the point. Some even call me nonchalant. Maybe I didn't become cold—I just stopped being naive.
Before all of this, I genuinely believed that if you loved someone enough and treated them well, they'd stay. Now I realize that even the people you love the most can leave. I've had close friends betray me, family abuse me, and people walk out of my life before. Those things hurt, but nothing has ever compared to this. Losing someone I truly loved a lot feels like it killed something inside me, and I don't know if I'll ever get that part of myself back.
Maybe it really was my naivety that died, but honestly, I wish I still had it because I felt more alive back then. I've accepted that life doesn't always go the way we want and that we can't control everything and we can’t always keep the things we genuinely wanted to keep forever, but accepting it hasn't made the pain disappear and its a brutal truth I really had to accept.
I'm not looking to get her back anymore. More than anything, I just miss the person I used to be. I miss feeling hopeful, expressive, and genuinely happy. Right now, I'm just trying to keep moving forward and hoping that one day I'll finally feel alive again.

Hey, 17M here. I just want to feel happy again, but I can't anymore. Hobbies, interests, music, and even socializing don't seem to make me happy. It feels like I'm forcing myself to enjoy them, and in the end it just leaves me feeling even more frustrated.
I try listening to the songs I used to love, and I even try to be bubbly again since I've always had a pretty goofy and expressive personality, but it just doesn't hit the same anymore. Instead, I find myself listening to sad music because, for some reason, it feels more real to how I feel. People have even started saying I'm really nonchalant now, which is the complete opposite of how I used to be.
I'm tired of feeling empty and numb all the time. Honestly, it even physically hurts sometimes. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), so I know that probably doesn't help. I'm currently in therapy, and I'll be starting medication soon as well.
The reason I think I can't feel happy anymore is because I went through something really painful about 9 months ago. I don't really want to think about it anymore because I'm still trying to move on, but ever since then, it's felt like I lost the ability to genuinely enjoy things.
I've really been trying. I keep doing hobbies, going out, spending time with people, and listening to happier music, hoping something will click. But no matter what I do, I end up feeling that same emptiness and frustration that's been with me every day since everything happened.
All I want is to feel genuinely happy again. I want to be cheerful, enjoy my hobbies, get excited about music, have fun going out, and feel like myself again. Most of all, I just want this constant emptiness to go away because it's exhausting living like this every single day.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? Did you eventually start feeling happy again? I'd really appreciate any advice or hearing your experience.

Hey, 17M here. I just want to feel happy again, but I can't anymore. Hobbies, interests, music, and even socializing don't seem to make me happy. It feels like I'm forcing myself to enjoy them, and in the end it just leaves me feeling even more frustrated.
I try listening to the songs I used to love, and I even try to be bubbly again since I've always had a pretty goofy and expressive personality, but it just doesn't hit the same anymore. Instead, I find myself listening to sad music because, for some reason, it feels more real to how I feel. People have even started saying I'm really nonchalant now, which is the complete opposite of how I used to be.
I'm tired of feeling empty and numb all the time. Honestly, it even physically hurts sometimes. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), so I know that probably doesn't help. I'm currently in therapy, and I'll be starting medication soon as well.
The reason I think I can't feel happy anymore is because I went through something really painful about 9 months ago. I don't really want to think about it anymore because I'm still trying to move on, but ever since then, it's felt like I lost the ability to genuinely enjoy things.
I've really been trying. I keep doing hobbies, going out, spending time with people, and listening to happier music, hoping something will click. But no matter what I do, I end up feeling that same emptiness and frustration that's been with me every day since everything happened.
All I want is to feel genuinely happy again. I want to be cheerful, enjoy my hobbies, get excited about music, have fun going out, and feel like myself again. Most of all, I just want this constant emptiness to go away because it's exhausting living like this every single day.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? Did you eventually start feeling happy again? I'd really appreciate any advice or hearing your experience.

It's been 9 months since my ex and I broke up, and I feel like I've done everything people say you're supposed to do to move on. I've deleted all our pictures, thrown away the things that reminded me of her, stopped checking up on her, picked up hobbies, and have been focusing on improving myself and rebuilding my own life.
Yet I still miss her every single day.
I know she's most likely never coming back, but I still have this stupid false hope that one day she'll text me or somehow come back into my life. I hate feeling this way because my mind knows it's over, but my heart just won't accept it. The constant aching feeling of missing her hasn't gone away, and some days it feels just as painful as it did months ago. I'm honestly exhausted from carrying this around and just want to be at peace.
Everyone keeps telling me that "it just takes time," but honestly, I don't even know if time is healing me anymore. It's been 9 months, and yet the pain of missing her is still there. I genuinely don't know what else I'm supposed to do.
Is it normal to still feel this way after 9 months? And also, why do I still miss her so much even after doing everything I can to move on? Any advice would really be appreciated.