u/honeydewmoss

So I'm 19f, and I've only had 1 sexual partner, my current bf.

I had always pictured my first time in a room filled with lit candles, on a soft bed. I wanted my first time to be slow and romantic.

But my first time was in the wooded part of a park, bent over a log. I hadn't wanted to at first, because i was scared of getting caught, but he kept asking and hinting so I agreed. The bark dug into my skin and kind of hurt. I wasn't wet enough because there was almost no foreplay, so the entry stung. It hurt so much that I was limping after he had finished. He laughed and said that he must have done a good job, and I agreed because I thought something was wrong with me. I bleed for 2 days after that, and it took me awhile to warm up to sex again.

Looking back at it now, I deeply regret my first time and wish I had held my ground. Our sex life has gotten better, but I wish I had gotten my dream first time.

Ok, so I quit this job awhile ago but just thinking about the conditions I had to work in just pissed me off so I'm gonna vent about it.

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I worked as a floater/custodian, and then promoted to a toddler teacher.

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So the pay was a big problem for me. I found out that I was being paid the least out of all the employees, despite having been there longer than some of them. I was being paid a dollar above minimum wage, so 8.75 an hour. And when I got promoted, guess what my raise was..... 1 dollar.

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The lack of support was another big thing. As a floater and custodian, I was always on my feet running around trying to help teachers. Whether it was the teachers needing a bathroom break, needing cleaning supplies, needing new equipment, needing assistance with activities, i was always there whenever they called. But when I became a teacher, no one returned the support I had given them. My texts requesting for bathroom breaks always went unanswered and I would be forced to break the rules and use the toilet in the classroom.

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Getting written up for the most STUPID reasons. My first time getting written up was for accidentally leaving crumbs in the kids highchairs. And it was another teacher that snitched on me. And what's funny about this is that as a custodian, I would find disgusting residue in the other teachers classrooms all the time, but i never snitched because I knew how much they stressed everyday.

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80 percent of my time off requests would be denied, including preplanned vacation trips and medical visits. While nearly every tequest i put in was denied, the "favorites" got to take off as much as they wanted and whenever they wanted.

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I stayed at that job for 2 years... I should have left a lot sooner.

So for starters, I get even more turned on while I'm on my period. The pleasure helps with the pain. The problem is that my bf is grossed out my period blood, but not other kinds of blood. He only wants bjs from me while I'm on my period. I want him to touch me back so i can feel good too, but I don't want to gross him out.

How do other women handle it?

Hey yall. I'm 19f and I need friends. I like hiking, swimming, baking, and cosplaying. I love going on shopping sprees (even tho I'm broke lmao). Anyway, hmu if you wanna be friends.