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So I’m in this for 4 years but now over one year clean

And ofcourse especially the beginning of getting clean was really hard and there were always some days were it was harder than others

But now since few weeks the urges getting really bad (it’s way worse than others times) and I don’t think I can handle them much longer
Especially cause I don’t really have a reason to stay clean

I know the society thinks it’s bad but I really don’t care

And idk what I’m expecting here but anything like nice words or advice could help

So I’m in this for 4 years but now over one year clean

And ofcourse especially the beginning of getting clean was really hard and there were always some days were it was harder than others

But now since few weeks the urges getting really bad (it’s way worse than others times) and I don’t think I can handle them much longer
Especially cause I don’t really have a reason to stay clean

I know the society thinks it’s bad but I really don’t care

And idk what I’m expecting here but anything like nice words or advice could help

I’m over one year clean but dk what to do

Any kind of help would be great

So I’ve been depressed for a while and showering was very hard for me.
But I’ve doing so much better with my mental health over the last 2 years and I’m sober since a year.
Of course I have bad days and phases but all in all it’s so much better.

But showering is still so hard for me that it happenes often that I don’t shower for a week or so.
Even though I’m doing much better and going to work every day.
Also I don’t think the people around me notice cause I don’t really smell and I make my hair look good.

But idk everytime I know I have to shower it’s such a big step for me and I just kind feel like I didn’t make any progress.

But am I just lazy and using it for an excuse?
Can anyone relate? I’m feeling so alone with that

So I’ve been depressed for a while and showering was very hard for me.
But I’ve doing so much better with my mental health over the last 2 years and I’m sober since a year.
Of course I have bad days and phases but all in all it’s so much better.

But showering is still so hard for me that it happenes often that I don’t shower for a week or so.
Even though I’m doing much better and going to work every day.
Also I don’t think the people around me notice cause I don’t really smell and I make my hair look good.

But idk everytime I know I have to shower it’s such a big step for me and I just kind feel like I didn’t make any progress.

But am I just lazy and using it for an excuse?
Can anyone relate? I’m feeling so alone with that

Ich wollte nur mal wissen wie viel/ ob man von was von diesem Drama außerhalb der Bubble mitbekommt.

Weil für mich ist das eins der größten Skandale die ich auf YouTube Deutschland bis jetzt mit bekommen hab. Aber viele von den Influencern, die dort miteinbezogen sind kommen auch aus meiner Bubble, deswegen kann ich das nicht wirklich beurteilen.

Today I just hit on year sober which is a really big step for me after doing it for years.
But I can’t share it with anyone I know so I’m here :)

Today I just hit on year sh free which is a really big step for me after doing it for years.
But I can’t share it with anyone I know so I’m here :)