u/iamneebu

Okay so I'm 17 and it's been almost 8 months now since I started feeling lonely and started to crave relationships....I'm too avoidant for someone who desperately wanna fall in love....it all started after she left me but even after I have moved on from her(she's my ex-bestie) I still feel alone and crave relationships.

It's not just relationships, my best friends blocked me on instagram and humiliated me a couple of times and yet they come back and talk to me and we pretend that nothing happened.

Last night, i was crying because I felt like there's no one in my life that i can call yeah he's there or she's there. It's like there's no one I can text whenever I want and tell whatever I have in my mind.

Idk what to do and last night i saw posts of a girl in my school i know her and it was her birthday posts...so I saw that and idk I started to feel bad for myself like she has a lot of friends and she went to a good expensive place with them. Idk what to do guys

Pls help me😭

Also it's not like I feel like this everyday but i feel like this every once in a while because i am getting used to it.

"Pata hai aaj kya hua"

So first you guys need some preliminaries :)

• Back in oct 2025, my girl bestie left me and she also got a boyfriend and that gave me a heartbreak and i cried hard for 2 months and begged her to come back and she always turned the Convo into how shitty and trashy I am and how she's a goddess(she might be😭)

• my friends, ughh they made this girl we call 'thappad🫶🏻👠💌' my crush...we gave her that name because one of my friends said that thappad maregi voh and i said khalunga yaawr agar voh maaregi toh🥰...and they teased me alot because i just once talked to her asking about a test and that teasing made me think about her more and more and I tried to talking to her and declared her my crush but every time and I gathered confidence and talked to her i felt like I am forcing myself for this and the last time we talked was a 1 or 2 months ago and I never initiated a Convo after that because ughh first my girl bestie and i texted again and this time she ughh constantly compared me to her boyfriend and said agar voh Mera Banda nhi hota naa toh bhi tere se badiya hota and his boyfriend once punched my balls earlier like before my bestie started dating her...and he punched my balls and I punched harder and then he came back with 3 guys two holded me and he yk made omelette 😭...so it hit me even more and I didn't talk to this new crush thappad again...and second reason was that I asked about her brother and he kinda looked gangsta type and i didn't say it I just said aapka Bhai tohda vaisa and she completed the sentence and got angry.....

Now today my bsf he ughh accidentally used real name instead of 'thappad' and guys in front of me heard and laughed at me voh h teri and now they all have started teasing me....and ughh so they also told me that she got a boyfriend and it set my heart on fire and I was like WTH😭 why did i step back 😭....and I don't know the name of the guy yet but when I said 'arjun' lokesh who knows who is it went quiet and then said no😭..

And if its arjun then " meri gaand jalegi" because he's academically ahead he always stays 1st while I am 2nd and she stays 3 or 4 and now he got thappad too😭 and not only that now I'm the loser here and I was the loser earlier too

And now hardik(another friend of mine) said lokesh was just kidding and i thought yeah he might be doing it and also he said 'no' for arjun so I can't know for sure!

But idk If hardik is saying the truth and she's still single I want the rumours to get to her and I want it to break the awkward distance between us😭