u/imducksterig

there's some periods in time where i would daydream about having a relationship and then a few days later i would completely hate the thought entirely. there's also some times where i would think or maybe did have slight attraction to someone but the thought would fly away immediately in like under a week. admittedly i did force myself to continue onwards with said attraction too

if there maybe is a label for this can you guys tell me? i already think i'm aegorose if that's just what it is.

edit: okay maybe i should’ve made it clear. i myself am a demigirl that’s not really affected by this but the fact that my parents keep thinking this is an exclusively girls interest is bugging me because it’s not and also they need to stop being closed minded

tl;dr: my parents only think that girls/gays can only listen to vocaloid, not a straight cis male. help me come up with a way to convince them that anyone could listen to vocaloid

what a title to write… anyways, i myself i’m afab so my parents don’t have an issue with me collecting miku figures or blasting vocaloid music. my uncle on the other hand? my parents asked him if he was gay for it and i saw him questioning if he should even like miku because of it. additionally, my mom questioned me if i was addressing a kid at my school’s gender correctly because he’s a guy with a miku sweater.

i tried telling my mom that miku is just some instument that people use for songs, meaning she could be for EVERYONE. she didn’t even come up with a rebuttal for it. also her rebuttal for that guy with the miku sweater not being gay was her asking my brothers if they would wear a miku sweater themselves, which i find incredibly stupid because of course they won’t want one. they’re not interested in miku as i am.

my parents also just have an issue with this overall. they easily classify interests as only for boys and girls and can’t wrap their head around the idea that anyone could be interested in it no matter their gender/sexual identity.

also off topic but kinda in topic. i feel like this issue occurs more with men rather than women. i could easily get interested in something “manly” and no one would bat an eye. if a man gets into something “girly” they would be shamed and called gay in a negative way. double standards and fragile masculinity beliefs, eh? it’s crazy how people confine themselves to certain interests and bash of others when people don’t fit that box because of the sex we were born in.

thanks for reading my rant and please tell me if i worded anything wrong or idk. don’t let ppl shame you for liking vocaloid because you don’t seem like the type for it.

admittedly i’ve been caving in after starving myself for a bit and ate tons of food. one of them ended up being hot cheetos, a snack that i’ve always ate throughout the years. when i ate some after a while of not having it, i realized how bumpy and red my skin instantly gets and it’s not fun. GOD I HATE THIS THAT WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHIPS TO MUNCH ON.