u/jam1239911

Like what if we genuinely just die and don’t remember anything and are never conscious again? That’s so insanely depressing. I do believe in heaven and I try to keep my faith but even the priests when I was younger said it’s ok to question things as it could just deepen ur faith. The thing is I am like soo terrified of that. I don’t want to lose my memories and who I am and everything :/. I genuinely can’t wrap my head around it and it causes me constant stress and anxiety. Even seeing my grandparents have health issues rn I’ve seen my grandpa seem genuinely so scared and confused and like that realization that you’re never really going to be ok with dying it’s always going to be scary. Imagine completely never existing again like ? Will it just be darkness forever ? Writing this out is just scaring me more and it truly makes me cry like I don’t know what to do. I know I’m still young and this shouldn’t worry me but even when I first considered this as a child I remember feeling so scared I started crying.

Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance if you even read it. Hopefully I’m not too crazy

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For context I’ve been talking to this girl for about 2 months. We hang like 2-3 times a week and she’s always like making sure to say ok it’s a date or stuff like that whenever we make plans and like really build it up. My question is like after a long day of work I’m not always wanting to just go to some dinner just to do it. I’d rather her just come hangout with me and like relax together and order food or something. She has done that before but then she’s like slightly complaining that I didn’t “take her out”. Does she rlly enjoy just going out to eat constantly ?

Currently have 1175 to win 1k on this after looking into it.

To be clear I’m not saying I can’t get any girls cause of my height as I think at 5”10 ur not in a bad spot and I do pretty well with girls but would always be better if I was taller. So anyways here are 2 examples the past month or two that stuck out to me from some girls I have been seeing.

First girl is prob like 5”4-5”5 herself and had a guy best friend who she said was “tiny” who was 5”6. She joked that If she was a 5”6 guy she would kill herself…..I then reminded her that’s only a 4 inch difference from me and it feels kinda depressing she wud think so lowly of me had I been slightly shorter.

Then this other girl I’ve been seeing is like 5 foot flat Spanish girl who’s ex was 5”7 and she described as “tall” all this girl does is comment on my height like this must be how 6”2 dudes feel on the regular lol. She texts me like “omg I love ur hugs I love how tall you are” and constantly bringing up my height lol. It’s definitely odd but like I don’t rlly care I’ll take the hookup and not gonna complain but deff feels odd.

I just really do think height is more important then ever these days where even I feel shitty about it sometimes. I still manage to do pretty good on the dating apps at 5”10 but I can’t help but feel like if my profile was 6”1 or 6”2 I would have even more options and have even hotter girls wanting me. Also side note I genuinely feel bad for shorter dudes as I have a rlly good friend who’s prob 5”5-5”6 and he makes a ton of money and is a super nice respectful guy but girls basically avoid him/friend zone him constantly cause of his height.