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To clarify, by counterparts I mean every letter’s the same except their second. So ISTJ’s and INTJ’s. I was just thinking about how similar I feel that ENTP’s and ESTP’s can be when socializing, to the point that trying to decipher which one someone is can be kinda difficult.

But then ESFP’s and ENFP’s I feel like are a bit more different, and it’ll be more obvious which one somebody is. My buddy’s an ESFP and there’s no mistaking it with how much energy he puts into the world around him. Maybe I’m wrong though I suck at typing people as I’m too much in my own head usually lol.

I’d say just from how they’d come off, INTJ’s and ISTJ’s would act the most similar and go about a goal in very similar ways, but their goals are probably pretty different. Maybe ENFJ’s and ESFJ’s since they lead with Fe.

As I’m writing this I’m realizing it’s probably a type that leads with a judging function, except INTP’s and ISTP’s who I find very different. Curious what yall think

Not even sure where else to put this post, so ig here will do. I moved out around 10 months ago and since then have stopped doing basically any good habit. No longer journal, go to the gym, anything. The only thing I’ve kept up is trying to eat healthy. The past month or so I’ve been drinking nearly every night and taking this stuff called “Feel Free” from the smoke shop that’s basically an opioid. I went to rehab/sober living like 2 years ago and since moving out have been basically completely disregarding everything I learned there.

I just almost don’t feel like there’s any point in NOT continuing going down this hole, but some glimmer of hope always keeps me from going back into the full addiction I was in before going to rehab. I know that I can do better and live a better life. Yet everyday I choose not to, and it makes me wonder if I’m ever gonna have a better life or just keep fucking it all up. I basically go into cycles of trying for a couple days to a week, to self destructing and keeping that lifestyle going for a week or two. Usually it’s just laying on my couch and doing nothing to get a girlfriend, new job, or anything else but lately it’s been doing drugs/drinking instead.

I just don’t even know what to do because if I quit the feel frees and drinking and get back on my good habits I probably won’t feel much better anyways, I’ve tried to self improvement/working out stuff many times. I’m really not sure what else to do but just straight up move to a different country or quit my job and travel, but how much could that really help when it’s over or the fun ends?

I know everyone posts about something new they’ve been trying, so I’ll keep it short haha. Started taking it last Sunday thinking it wouldn’t do a thing since 5HTP I don’t really like (makes me tired) but this shit genuinely may be a long lasting great addition to my life.

I notice myself talking to strangers without second guessing myself. It doesn’t hit me until after the interaction that I was actually pretty confident, usually I obsess about how I look. Traffic hasn’t been pissing me off. I went to a bar last night and had a way easier time putting myself out there. It was actually enjoyable. That’s all, maybe in another week I’ll see it was all a placebo, who knows.

Also, I cleaned my apartment this week and put off deep cleaning for floors for so long. I’m trying to be skeptical, maybe I would’ve either way.

It’s played at graduations or ceremonies.

It goes “na nanaNA nanaNA nanaNA nAnanananA na nanaNA nanaNA…”

In a major scale for sure, upbeat good feeling sound. Sorry for my horrible explanation I have no clue what note it’s in or who it’s by.

So I was using lithium ororate for a couple weeks and it was weird. It helped a good amount with my depression/energy, focus, and stress but it also made me less social and almost lifeless. At least compared to how I am normally. It also put me into my head and thoughts a bit more to the point that I think it caused me to have some sort of anxiety episode that made me go to urgent care thinking ny throat was closing lol. I was convinced lithium ruined my thyroid even at the lowest dose and caused it to get so large I could barely swallow, looking back I think I ate too fast and got some bad sort of reflux or really do have some issue but it definitely wasn’t bad enough to leave work and go to a clinic. Probably health anxiety.

Anyways, it did some bad but also in that 2 week period I made my most fleshed out song I’ve ever produced which is hard for me with my focus and made things like getting a haircut magically easy. Like it doesn’t make sense how I could just without a second thought go and do a chore that costs money, while not minding the waiting and enjoying the socializing with random people. It really had so many upsides when I was alone with my thoughts, but at work or with friends I couldn’t get out of that space so I wonder if there’s anything that can do the same sort of thing just maybe to a lesser extent? I’ve tried magnesium and l-theanine extensively and they just kinda make everything more bleh without really helping.

I wonder if perhaps I need something that provides energy/motivation without the cracked feeling of caffeine cause I can’t do that shit anymore. I appreciate any insight/suggestions. Also vitamin D, C, and zinc didn’t do really anything for me. They’re good additions I suppose though of course.

As the title says whenever I get to like day 6-8 and it’s a Friday or weekend night, it gets so hard to just enjoy doing anything that requires some focus/patience. My mind just starts racing and at some point I end up spending half of the day just fighting urges. That or I get a sort of analysis paralysis from all the things I think of doing but being so damn in my head that nothing is actually done. I assume it’s kinda normal since it’s your true emotions coming out , but what do I do about it? I’ve never made it past like day 21 probably because of the angst.

It makes it harder to do things I enjoy (or maybe just slightly numbed out me enjoys them) like making music. I get so wired feeling that I lose all creativity trying to make a song, or it’s just too irritating to keep at it lol. I meditate nearly everyday for 10-20 minutes and I suppose the next step has to be becoming fully conscious at all times of the day. Maybe that’s the answer, but I’d like to hear other people’s experiences.

Also, does anyone else get killer headaches on sr? Every time by day 3 when I’m at work I get mean fucking headaches and have to take ibuprofen daily. Could be part of that angst it gives, but I imagine people back then who just didn’t have porn and would easily go for much longer strides than I didn’t have the same anxious energy/side effects from it.

As the title says whenever I get to like day 6-8 and it’s a Friday or weekend night, it gets so hard to just enjoy doing anything that requires some focus/patience. My mind just starts racing and at some point I end up spending half of the day just fighting urges. That or I get a sort of analysis paralysis from all the things I think of doing but being so damn in my head that nothing is actually done. I assume it’s kinda normal since it’s your true emotions coming out , but what do I do about it? I’ve never made it past like day 21 probably because of the angst.

It makes it harder to do things I enjoy (or maybe just slightly numbed out me enjoys them) like making music. I get so wired feeling that I lose all creativity trying to make a song, or it’s just too irritating to keep at it lol. I meditate nearly everyday for 10-20 minutes and I suppose the next step has to be becoming fully conscious at all times of the day. Maybe that’s the answer, but I’d like to hear other people’s experiences.

Also, does anyone else get killer headaches on sr? Every time by day 3 when I’m at work I get mean fucking headaches and have to take ibuprofen daily. Could be part of that angst it gives, but I imagine people back then who just didn’t have porn and would easily go for much longer strides than I didn’t have the same anxious energy/side effects from it.

I have a theory that may be very incorrect, but I think where your family originates or reproduced for a while makes your current personality. My family comes from Italy and Poland on my dad’s side and definitely impacts my thinking/behaviors more than my mom’s side. Italians are stereotypically ESTP/ENTP, and polish probably pretty ISTP/INTP with either place having respective J types as well.

Just curious where to see if there’s any correlation between MBTI types and family origin, for certain it affects your temperament.

I only talked about western countries because that’s all I can personally go off of, I feel North Africa could have more ENTPs than the rest of Africa and maybe Southern Asia.