This is finally something that works for me!

50yr old male. I’ve lived with GAD and panic disorder for the last 30 years. I’ve definitely fought depression but I guess I just never really labeled it as that. Never noticed that I was absolutely unhappy with life, I shouldn’t be, but I definitely was. I thought it was just the constant exhaustion from the unrelenting anxiety and panic that is a part of every day life.

I’ve been prescribed many of the old reliable meds over the years, Effexor, Celexa, Wellbutrin, Buspar, lexepro, etc. I’ve been on daily dose Xanax for almost 20 years now, buspar was the last thing I tried along side it. Buspar seemed like the answer when I first took it, brain zaps being the only side effect and not every day. Quickly within the second month or so it did nothing and I was back to baseline actually increasing my Xanax dosage.

I’m now on trintellix and I can’t believe the relief I feel for the first time in 3 decades. I started at 5mg after a quick taper off the buspar. The first couple of weeks sucked, but I blame the crossover period while the buspar was leaving the system and the trin was moving in. My anxiety was super high the first couple of weeks. I almost gave up. I’m now on 10mg and honestly side effect free. I’ve had no sexual side effects, no stomach or bathroom issues, no suicidal thoughts, I’m not numb to emotions. I’m me again. My thoughts that started the minute I opened my eyes in the morning don’t send me into a spiral anymore. I notice them but they just pass, no anxiety no panic. Same with my health related anxiety. I guess all of this to say after searching for 30 years there is still hope!

TLDR: I really like trintellix, no side effects and after 3 decades of suffering extreme anxiety and panic attacks daily I can finally breathe.

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u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 days ago

Turned 50 today!

6 months ago I set a goal to walk into 50 sharper, stronger and leaner than I was at 30. I started at 182 and weighed in this morning at 161.5. Waist started at 36” and 31.5” today. Here’s my journey.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 2 months ago
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A missed 3 weeks in the gym

Missed three weeks in the gym due to back spasm.. diet fell off a little too. Feeling soft and it sucks.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 2 months ago
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From 182-166

Both pics are same weight, one is just first thing in the morning am before a shower and other is after work carrying maintenance calories, water and glycogen.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 months ago

4month transformation

Started at 182lbs this am 166. Waist started at 36.5. Today 31”. 2 months to 50 yrs old. This is just the beginning! Caloric deficit for 4 months and 4 days a week in the gym.

Edit- here is how I accomplished this as it’s being asked a lot. I ran a deficit of 1850 calories a day for 4 months.
Whole Foods, clean diet, protein 165ish at least grams a day. Gym 4 days a week, Monday upper body push, Tues upper body pull, wed rest, thurs legs/core, Fri polish muscle groups day. Sat rest Sunday Airsoft with my teen son.
Repeat. That’s it. It’s boring and it’s simple but it takes dedication. If you stay dedicated to the plan and don’t cheat yourself this is absolutely simple math and obtainable for most anyone.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 months ago
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Big changes in 4 months

Four months transition so far. Started at 182 down to 166. Waist from 36.5 to 31”.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 months ago

About a year old, little less

Lot of symbolism in the hand tattoo that is personal. But the DAD on my fingers is each one of my son’s first initials in chronological order. Also means a lot to me as I never had a dad but I get to be the best one! The clock symbolizes my stress about time left in life and is also set to my wedding date. The wording be present above it is a reminder to enjoy all the moments and be in them. Above that not pictured is my sobriety date from my last drink almost 10 years ago.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 months ago
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2.5 months till 50!

Down 20lbs of fat and gaining my old muscle back! Can’t wait to see where I end up at 50 from where I started. Just the beginning..

u/jonnydemonic420 — 4 months ago

Getting close to end of cut.

Down from 182 to 168lbs. Keep cutting or call it and go to maintenance? Lift 4 days a week for the past 3.5 months when this all began. 1800 cal a day, 2500 is my maintenance.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 5 months ago
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Cut is working

Down from 182 -169lbs back is building and v taper is starting! 49 years old and back in the gym 3.5 months. Average 1650 calories a day, 170g protein.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 5 months ago

Here’s an AFF review, I know but check it out.

So after seeing many bad posts about AFF I had steered clear of them. Never had given them a try. One day while scrolling I saw a list of new concentrates they had put out, they actually looked pretty decent live resins. I reached out to one of the owners who had posted it and asked some blunt questions, terpsolate, fake Terps, heavy crc flavor etc? Honestly wasn’t planning on ordering but had a decent back and forth with him. Price was cheap enough so a few days later I put in an order for 3.5gs of orange slushie. I sent him a message telling him I had placed an order and he asked if I wanted to try a new product or on the website, and offered to include a g of Key Lime Pie diamonds in sauce. Cool.

I received the package a few days later and there was a puck of the orange slushie but no key lime. I sent him a pic of the package still in shrink wrap and let him know. Soon enough he responded that his partner must’ve sent it out and he put the puck in the mail that day.

Now the important part. Orange slushie- It was a decent budget live resin, very sugary consistency though, and unfortunately had none of the orange terp flavor I had hoped for. Not harsh, burned clean and effects were there, terp flavors and nose was not.

KEY LIME PIE- This was free but in no way influenced my opinion on it. This was definitely heads and shoulders above the orange slushie. The puck had a nice lime aroma but not a fake one when I opened the jar. It was wet and saucy without being just a puddle with a couple small chunks in it. I have grown this strain and made rosin with it, this product is in line with the plants true profile.

So in conclusion, the live resin left a little to be desired, not unlike a lot of vendors in this space though. Whatever qc issues they had before I didn’t experience, I had two clean products. I’m not going to shill for anyone, but I will be honest about my experience. I’ve tried most of the bigger names in this space and this definitely isn’t the worst by any stretch that I’ve had. In fact I enjoyed the key lime and price dependent I’d likely buy more when it goes live. I would however pass on the live resin line.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 5 months ago

Back and arm work is coming along at 49.

3 months of work, and cal deficit. Third pic was my start on feb1.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 5 months ago

Started lifting again feb 2nd and eating a clean diet in a deficit. So far have lost 12lbs, gained some muscle and definition. Not sure if I should stay in a deficit and continue to cut or if I should focus on muscle growth now. Also 49 years old.

u/jonnydemonic420 — 5 months ago