▲ 157 r/Obsessive_Love
Like, i dont wanna hear no "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU", lowk stfu
I'm literally Edward now, join me guys
u/just-Envy — 11 hours ago
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r/kittens r/heartbreak r/Guitar r/CrushesSayAboutMe r/Obsessive_Love r/MalaysianExMuslim r/OkeyRakanMalaysia r/BeginnerArtists
▲ 12 r/heartbreak
Your words, not mine
"Promise we'll forever stay together?" Of course I said yes. Of course I promised. Of course I did. Though, it was clear I was the only one that meant it.
Why make such big and grand promises if you can't even keep it? Why make me believe, even for one second, that you could actually keep it.
It hurts, you know. Even now, I'm hoping you'd still remember the promise. To love each other even when we've broken up. I hate that I'm still holding onto it.
Maybe when we're older, when we're not so inexperienced and immature, we could try again.
Probably not, since you'd have forgotten me by now.
u/just-Envy — 16 hours ago
▲ 33 r/MalaysianExMuslim
The misunderstood insect
Everyone knows the famous Novella of Kafka, The Metamorphosis. I like reading those type of books. I also like to keep an open mind on how I and other people absorb and understand the message conveyed in a story (or none at all, since that's also a possibility). But today, I just can't wrap my head around how my father understands it in his way.
I was rereading The Metamorphosis again while taking a break from some homework. My dad came in my room to see me reading that book. He already knows my book preference, and the plots of the said book.
He looked me dead in the eyes and said "Jangan baca lagi lah buku macam tu". I was deadass confused, as a bookworm, that felt like he was ordering me to just die of boredom. I asked him why.
"Sebab, buku tu macam nak cakap yang laki tu nak jadi pompuan". Bro. The dude turns into an insect and you're saying he's having a mid-life crisis on being trans? Not that I mind, no, if Gregor's turning of that insect was him wanting to be a woman, in fact I'd fully be okay with it. IF that were the actual written words in the book.
But seriously? How tf did my dad even made that conclusion? How in fuck's sake did you read a man turning into a monstrous vermin, and thought it was connected to being trans?
And for the ending, when Gregor died, and my dad commented "Nampak, dalam buku kau tu pun cakap orang macam tu memang patut mati". Um. What? And he proceeded in telling me to read more religious books, yada yada.
Anyways, tu je lah nak rant. Sometimes I feel so dumbfounded at how they twists the words of a book around just for their benefit. Belajar daripada cherry picking hadiths and quran kot..
u/just-Envy — 3 days ago
bro aku fumbled bad
(This is lowk just a rant, so skip klu x nk baca)
Masa sekolah rendah, darjah 6, sorang mamat tinggi ni (same grade) ngan aku berkawan masa camp. Senang cite, mmg rapat gile la.. Always together, aku view dia mcm kawan laki biasa je.
On last day, dia ckp "Aku sebernanya ada suka someone. Kau mungkin kenal dia, kenal dia sangat, sangat". Aku ingatkan kawan pompuan aku sbb dulu aku rasa aku chop gile nk mampus.
Skip satu tahun, kitorang form 1, kelas sama. Aku suka kt classmate aku yg lain, down bad, and mamat tu tanya klu aku betul2 suka classmate aku tu tk. Sikit2 je mesti tanya. Aku deny la, malu kot.
Setiap kali aku pass2 surat cinta kt crush, dia ada kt tepi, tengok je. Muka mmg shot sikit la.
LEPAS TIGA TAHUN. PAGI NI. BARU AKU REALISE.
Dia suka aku ke sebernanya??
u/just-Envy — 5 days ago
▲ 2 r/heartbreak
Empty promises
I still remember him promising to forever stay with me.
Till the end of time, right?
And yet, we, as flawed individuals, could never keep such a perfect promise.
I can only dream of a love that could last. A love that would surpass eternity. Forever and beyond.
I'm blasting How You Remind Me on my amp right now.
I wish he could hear me beg.
Maybe I'll walk past his class just to peek on him.
Such a masochistic lion I am.
u/just-Envy — 5 days ago
Kinda miss him
It's been a two years since the break up.
I still wish it could have ended differently.
I knew he was strict and dedicated about his studies, and he knew I was sincere and passionate about music. He was smart, I was dumb. Looking back, we really were an oddball of a couple. We weren't matured at all, still in high school, we were childish but we felt the rush of whatever 'romance' existed between us.
I'm a hopeless romantic, to long for him this way, it's pathetic. But shit happens, and intense emotions resurface in the most random times.
(Probably won't feel this way tomorrow, but who knows)
u/just-Envy — 2 days ago
▲ 29 r/MalaysianExMuslim
Weird vent (TW : SA)
For some context, this cousin of mine is a few years younger than me. Let's call her Z. So Z comes from a very religious family, and mine is more chill. (I was a problematic kid back then, stole some stuff, is a 'bad' influence and all that)
A few years back, there was a topic in school about rape. I asked my grandmother on what it was bcz I was dumb af. She told me and Z some details that aren't really kid friendly. Z already knows about those type of things though, so Z explained what it was to me, which kinda made me disgusted.
So.. (this boutta escalate a bit) Z and I went to our room after a shower together (we were young so there wasn't really anything wrong at that time). Z then.. kinda.. uh, 'forced' herself on me? I, being a naive kid back then, let her.
So it went on for a couple of years. But now, she completely stops doing that and acts oblivious around me. (We don't really see each other that much now anyways)
Basically, that shit kinda fucked me up a bit and I can't tell anyone since no ones gonna believe me since she comes from a religious ass family. (Ofc she has once or twice threaten me to not tell anyone else using quran verses and shit)
(Also, yoo, been a while since I've posted here lol)
EDIT : LET ME BE CLEAR, THIS IS A SERIOUS VENT. And yes, it fits this subreddit since Z is a Muslim, and she's one of the reasons why I heavily dislike and left the religion)
u/just-Envy — 17 days ago
▲ 16 r/Obsessive_Love
Losing my shit lowk lowk
Is it normal if I just wanna keep him? Locked up in my closet?
I wanna get inside his mind. And replace every thought with me.
I wanna get rid of everyone else around him. So he can only be with me.
Is it that fucking much to ask for? Can't I be his world and his mine?
(Mind you, I don't really have 'him' right now, so I might really be losing it)
u/just-Envy — 17 days ago
▲ 12 r/Obsessive_Love
Feeling when you stalked too hard and found shit you don't wanna know
Mm, I'd always get disappointed when I'm doing my stalking rounds (not even that deep in btw) and found 'displeasing' stuff..
Like.. I'm just staring at the screen and wishing I haven't done that.
Bcz now I gotta talk to them and act like nothing's going on. Fml bro, fml.
u/just-Envy — 20 days ago
▲ 64 r/Obsessive_Love
He blocked me.
We were getting to know each other.. I kinda liked him and all..
Hmm, I went and stalked his profile.. It's all gone..
Anyone going through heartbreak too rn? :[
u/just-Envy — 1 month ago
Cartoonist art style
Trying to make a mini comic and using this style.. erm.. still don't know if I really wanna make it or not :(
u/just-Envy — 1 month ago
▲ 1 r/Obsessive_Love
Weird feeling?
You guys ever feel a deep sense of obsession/infatuation to 'someone' that's not even in your life? Like 'someone' that's just sitting in a part of your mind, just a blank.
It's not like a fictional someone, a real someone or a future someone. And you never know who that 'someone' really is, they might exist, and they might not.
You just wanna keep a part of that 'someone' close and near, in your mind, only for you. But you lowkey don't even know them good enough since they're just there, like mannequins. Faceless, but you can bend them in anyway you want.
Is it just me projecting my unused obsession into some sort of temporary made up projection?
Or am I lowkey losing it because of my CS homework?
whatever, System.out.println("I probably need sleep");
u/just-Envy — 2 months ago
▲ 50 r/MalaysianExMuslim
Y'all are loved (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧
Random reminder!
Y'all are worth it.
Your beliefs shouldn't affect how other people view and love you.
You deserve to be treated with respect and kindness.
Jadi, jangan lah kisah sangat pasal apa orang lain fikir. Korang just hidup cara korang nak. Jangan feel pressured nak fit in sangat dalam religion ni. And everything you feel, doubts and hesitancy, is totally normal! Take is slow, explore your own feelings.
Kalau rasa lonely and rejected by everyone else, just know kitorang (yes, WE) are here for you! ( ꈍᴗꈍ)
Love y'all!
u/just-Envy — 2 months ago
Drew this in chem class
Istg, whenever its chem or addmath class, I just wanna draw 🚬
u/just-Envy — 2 months ago
▲ 115 r/kittens
Cute lil kitty I met at a cafe
Met this cute lil guy and now I can't forget him.. /ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\
u/just-Envy — 2 months ago
▲ 60 r/MalaysianExMuslim
My friend pissing me off
My friend lowkey said "Aku tak faham lah orang yang nak keluar Islam ni. Ataupun orang yang masuk ajaran sesat macam Atheists, Christians, Hindus and religion lain yang bodoh tu.."
Bro. I lowkey was about to crash out then and there. (Also, atheism isn't even a religion) 🙏
I don't care if you wanna say that Islam is the most amazing, peaceful, and truthful religion there is because that's your choice and I don't care and mind it unless you try and change my own views.
But if you're about to mock other people's religion and belief, kau boleh gi mampus la.
Why does SOME people act like this? 💔
u/just-Envy — 2 months ago
▲ 35 r/MalaysianExMuslim
Dogs bark bark
I just heard one of my cousin (he's a pretty young kid) say "Ew! Anjing! Bunuh, bunuh! Diorang jahat dan haram!" at a neighbour's dog.
Wtf is wrong with him. The upsetting part is the fact that no one in our family even said anything about it. They seemed pretty chill about it even.
Yuck. How can people be fine with this. It's just a dog, not some evil ass monster bro
u/just-Envy — 3 months ago