u/just-me_still

I don’t think I’m depressed but I don’t like being alive. It’s so boring. I’m unable to get a job, I’m broke, my parents don’t like me. My life is so miserable and boring and unproductive and unexciting. I sit around doing nothing. The only thing that makes me happy is my boyfriend. I think I’m wasting my time and I feel like I’m holding everybody back. If I never existed I wouldn’t be miserable. And no one would have to deal with my problems. I need a reason to live.

I’m an adolescent. I’ve never been to therapy before. I’ve had mental health struggles in the past and my dad and I decided it was a good idea to try therapy. What is the first session going to be like? Are we immediately going to be talking about heavy stuff? Is it going to be uncomfortable? What questions is she gonna ask me? What does a therapy office look like? Do I call them dr? Do I call them their last name? I’m really anxious about it. If someone could give me a step by step process of what’s gonna happen by the time I pull into the office that’d be great.