u/kaalakapala

Short title, yes
Unfortunately life has broken me down into nothing.
1 year ago i had everything. A great job, comfortable life, luxury car, houses. I had recently remarried after a decade of torture with the wrong life partner. I was in a foreign country living it up. My wife had just joined me after getting her visa.

Maybe something inside me was too happy, maybe almost proud.

My recent life shift had kept me busy, i had not performed a Sadhana for almost a year. Last year around dussera i completed a homa, then a puja during Diwali, that’s it.

November 2025, everything changed. I had severe bad luck in an incident and since then i have been praying for some hope and respite. But instead all i have received is punishment. Every time a decision point comes, i pray that I’m making the right choice but in the end if i want for it, it turns out to be wrong. Weirdly enough, i even got a minor venereal disease even though I have only been physical with my wife.

I feel like someone has cursed me. First I lost my visa, then I lost access to the country that i called home for 13 years, then my job, now my car. All remotely, I couldn’t even say goodbye to anything, no closure. I promised my wife so many nice things and now I’m struggling for money, have to live off her until I find a job.

Now i don’t know if i can even pay for the house i have there and might have to use my retirement savings. I’m 40 and have to start over in another country where i have never worked before for 1/4th of the salary. All my pride and confidence , broken.
I have definitely been punished too severely for whatever mistakes i have made. The most cruel part is, i was given little rays of hope by the universe every now and then which made the bad news even more devastating. Instead of a year of torture, if i had received every bad news just once and done, i’d have been grateful

I distinctly recall my ex cursing me thus: you will lose everything, your house, your job, everything you love. This is my curse and it will happen.

Maybe it is her curse, maybe it’s just prarabdha karma. Maybe god is angry with me. A close expert said i have double ketu happening in my kundali. This will last until end of November 2026. But I’m broken nonetheless. All year i have done sadhanas and anushthans religiously: mahashivratri, navratri, purushottam maas, etc etc. They had zero effect on the outcome. Maybe it was destined to happen

I have lost hope now. I still pray, but without expectation, i just want someone to feel bad for me and throw me a raindrop in this scorching desert that I’ve been thrown into. All I’m lucky to be is alive and healthy and I’ll continue fighting.

Why am i posting this here? Because I’ve been posting here for some time. I’ve been genuine, sharing myself with you all. I will take a pause in life as i reflect inwards now. I pray to maa bhagwati to have karuna on me as she is all forgiving. I don’t want anything else anymore.

So i have three options to focus on starting today:
- batuk bhairav jayanti: do the Sadhana recommended by rajarshi nandy
- maa lalita Sadhana: since it’s also ambubachi festival
- guru mantra

My goal is to mainly get some Kripa from Bhagwan. Also to remove obstacles in my life. I am struggling with financial impact and career problems. They are very serious, almost about to lose my assets: houses etc.

So we have all seen texts that glorify the different types of japas:

- Vaikhari (spoken out)

- Madhyama (whispered chanting)

- Upanshu (moving lips without sound)

- Manasik (purely mental with no movement, this should involve mentally reading the words as they are written, not saying them in your mind)

- Ajapa (when you become one with the mantra and the japa comes naturally without trying)

While the texts are different, generally they at least mention Vaikhari, upanshu and manasik in that order. Each type of japa has 10x more benefits that the previous type. Some places it mentions that 100 japa of first type = 1000 japa of second type.

So when I'm doing a purushcharana and I do purely manasik japa, does that mean I can chant lesser number of times? Generally what are your thoughts regarding these?

I want to know which of the three Hanuman strotram are the best to do a Sadhana: chalisa, bajrang baan or Hanuman bahuk.
I intend to do a week long Sadhana but lack knowledge.
For example, chalisa says that reciting it 100 times removes obstacles and brings happiness. But are there any steps involved? Does it have to be 100 times in 1 sitting or spread over 5-7 days?
Similarly, in terms of getting a sankalp resolved (need fulfillment of a desire, which is to get a visa approved) which one of the above three i should recite for best results? What are the steps involved in the same?

Please no jokes, i really need some genuine help and very quick result (hopefully)

Might sound like a funny question, but I do desperately need this visa approved, and that too as soon as possible.

What is the fastest working prayoga/anushthan/sadhana I can do for this purpose? My request can be considered a 'karya siddhi' prayoga. What are the steps? Please suggest.

Also, I understand I should not do sadhanas without a guru, but I need this urgently so finding a guru at this time is out of the question.

They have added a lot of security now wherein the applicant has to wait in the waiting room for each page before entering the login page, security page or even the home page. wait time is typically several minutes.

Then when clicking on manage applications, it doesn't show anything at all. If I try to go back and forth a few times, it blocks me out for 24 hours for logging in 'excessive' number of times.

This is ridiculous. I'm using firefox and my system and browser etc are updated, but I don't think that matters as much.

I have an iPhone 16 pro max. Want to sync media from iPhone to windows laptop using the usb C cable. Photos/videos are about 230 gb on my phone, want to back up all of them. I have tried using the import feature on Windows photos. Just showing me how many photos/videos i have takes over 1 hour. Copying always gets stuck in less than 30 mins. My laptop is my company’s which doesn’t allow installing iCloud or iTunes. Only Apple devices is allowed but it doesn’t let me sync from iPhone to pc, only the either way around

Any help would be appreciated. Thanks!

I see conflicting ideas from everyone: higher testosterone men have a full head of hair, more beard, more body hair etc. etc.

But at the same time, research says that testosterone causes hair fall and male pattern baldness in men. There are products out there like finasteride which block testosterone in your scalp to prevent hair-loss.

What exactly is the role of testosterone in male hair growth/loss?

Hello,

I want to do proper sadhana of maa bagalamukhi's mool mantra (36 letter mantra). Is there a proper procedure somewhere with nyasa and avahan steps etc.? Please share the link

I understand the necessity for government collecting taxes. But here's my recent experience with paying taxes upon buying a home, under construction. The home was valued at 1.41 CR when buying last year:

- Pay stamp duty and registration taxes amounting to almost 5 lakh (3.18%)

- For each demand note from the builder, we pay GST (about 5%) and TDS (1%) on top

- Then we decided to take a bank loan, there is a government charge for getting a loan, which is 0.3% for franking and 0.5% tax.

- To pay the above tax, there is an additional Rs 1700 government fee to pay the tax we're paying to get a loan.

over 10% in taxes for buying a single primary residence house when prices are already so high!? It's also ridiculous that they can't combine multiple charges and make it easier for people than to stand in line at the registrar's office and spend half a day there.