I don't think I can do it anymore. I love my boy more than life itself and I feel like my presence especially when I'm going through it is going to cause more damage than me being gone. I'm pretty sure my marriage is over and I'm just at the point that I feel like I should walk away from everything for everyone else's sake. I can't make excuses for myself anymore. I'm spiraling.
My son says my eyes are green (top) and his are blue (bottom). I think his are straight silver and mine... Yeah I don't know. What do you think?
Anyone need/want this haul? These plants are going crazy! Remote for scale.
My soon to be 4yo son has had an imaginary Grandpa for a while now. He has two grandfathers who he sees regularly, but he has different names for them. Grandpa is always on his mind. This guy owns giraffes, takes him on crazy trips, has super cool jobs and honestly sounds like the life of the party. Problem is my son wants us to invite him places, pick him up for movies, have him at his parties. We always have to say he's busy because well as far as we know he isn't real.
It started after I showed my son a picture of my father who passed long before my son was born. Then Grandpa started to be on every story.
Has anyone else had similar experiences with an imaginary family member? I don't want my son to feel like Grandpa is ditching him because I honestly think he believes he's real.
I just need someone to hear me and maybe understand this pain. I was diagnosed with PMDD when I was a teenager (37 now) and by my late 20s and early 30s it was a lot more manageable. I had my son 3 years ago and had a stroke in my pituitary during his birth that caused me to stop making estrogen and FSH. I'm on HRT and Lexapro, but the symptoms are coming back with a vengeance.
I don't know what to do. My periods are super irregular and come once every 3 months or randomly in between and last about 2 weeks. I start feeling the heaviness of life about 2 weeks before bleeding and I'm currently 4 days in and it's not letting up. I feel like the worst mom, I know my husband is fed up with me and I really just have no will to live right now. I'm trying to be strong and wait it out, but, man, I am really not doing well.
I'm trying to find a therapist and I'm having a hard time finding someone who is covered by my insurance. To be honest, therapy has never really helped me to begin with. I messaged my Endo to try to figure out a plan with my hormones, but I'm afraid answers aren't going to come in time to save me from myself. I've thought about checking myself in somewhere, but those resources are short too and I'm afraid (contradictory I know).
I just feel like I'm fading away and I'm all alone in it.