u/kaniso

i wish there was a flair for vent and advice wanted but there’s not so i put it in the title lol. my college experience so far has just been… awful. classes haven’t started. all i do is sit alone in my dorm all day and think about how lonely i am. my mom and i explored the city together before she left (i’m oos) and all i think about is the places we went together. i’ve tried talking to people, believe me i have, but there’s a sinking feeling in my chest even when i feel happy. me and the people i met took a photo together and i was smiling in that photo. it was just yesterday, but it feels like it’s so far away because i can’t remember being happy here once since i was alone. i want to leave college and go home and take a gap semester but my mom says i have to stay. i know i’m 18 and i can literally withdraw from classes and can buy a ticket home by myself, but it feels like i need permission and i’ve always been obedient my whole life and it feels like i can’t go against her. i’ve shared my story before and people say i have to be grateful because people don’t get this opportunity and that i should grow some balls because i’m 18. i know all of that. i do. i still feel this way. and i’m from an asian culture so it’s basically taboo to go against my mom. i talk to people from home, but they say it’ll get better. it’s not getting better. i’ve gotten to the point where the day is so unbearable that when i cross the street i imagine a bus or a car hitting me so i don’t have to live like this. all day i wait for people to text me back, but they have their own lives and can’t talk to me all day. those small moments where they’re texting me are the only times that my mind relaxes, but even then i’m crying while i text or call them. none of my friends from home that are in college are feeling the way i feel at this level. i honestly don’t know what to do. i feel this way all the time and my hygiene is failing. i don’t shower. i don’t wash my hair. i don’t brush my teeth. i don’t eat. i know i sound spoiled as hell and i know how incredibly privileged i am to be able to go to college. it’s not that i don’t want to go to college. i just want to go home. everybody i talk to tells me the same thing: it’ll get better. talk to people. go outside. talk to a counselor. give it time. i’ve done all of that. i don’t want someone to tell me it’ll all be okay. i just want someone to tell me that they understand how i feel, that my feelings are valid. every day is so hard to get through. help?

i didn’t know how to put more than one flair so i added it in the title. my college experience so far has just been… awful. classes haven’t started. all i do is sit alone in my dorm all day and think about how lonely i am. my mom and i explored the city together before she left (i’m oos) and all i think about is the places we went together. i’ve tried talking to people, believe me i have, but there’s a sinking feeling in my chest even when i feel happy. me and the people i met took a photo together and i was smiling in that photo. it was just yesterday, but it feels like it’s so far away because i can’t remember being happy here once since i was alone. i want to leave college and go home and take a gap semester but my mom says i have to stay. i know i’m 18 and i can literally withdraw from classes and can buy a ticket home by myself, but it feels like i need permission and i’ve always been obedient my whole life and it feels like i can’t go against her. i’ve shared my story before and people say i have to be grateful because people don’t get this opportunity and that i should grow some balls because i’m 18. i know all of that. i do. i still feel this way. and i’m from an asian culture so it’s basically taboo to go against my mom. i talk to people from home, but they say it’ll get better. it’s not getting better. i’ve gotten to the point where the day is so unbearable that when i cross the street i imagine a bus or a car hitting me so i don’t have to live like this. all day i wait for people to text me back, but they have their own lives and can’t talk to me all day. those small moments where they’re texting me are the only times that my mind relaxes, but even then i’m crying while i text or call them. none of my friends from home that are in college are feeling the way i feel at this level. i honestly don’t know what to do. i feel this way all the time and my hygiene is failing. i don’t shower. i don’t wash my hair. i don’t brush my teeth. i don’t eat. i know i sound spoiled as hell and i know how incredibly privileged i am to be able to go to college. it’s not that i don’t want to go to college. i just want to go home. everybody i talk to tells me the same thing: it’ll get better. talk to people. go outside. talk to a counselor. give it time. i’ve done all of that. i don’t want someone to tell me it’ll all be okay. i just want someone to tell me that they understand how i feel, that my feelings are valid. every day is so hard to get through. help?

(sorry if i misused flair idk what to put) soooo sudden circumstances have occured and i no longer have funding for this school. i have no idea what to do. i know fs im gonna go back home where my financial aid does cover school (dumb to go oos, i know, but by god the nursing program here is phenomenal---also please don't insult me mental health is already low and i got insulted last post for asking a simple question 💔). i just don't know who to contact. i already moved in and i'm signed up for classes. any advice on who to talk to about dropping classes and moving out would be appreciated.

my mom dropped me off at college and i just feel so alone. i’m out of state and i have no friends. i miss my mom so much. i spent 4 days with her in my college town and she helped me move in and we went sight seeing. she’s leaving tomorrow. we’re still in the same stare, i can’t stop crying whenever i’m in my dorm and all i want to do is call her and tell her to come back to my dorm and take me home and i’ll go to the local community college or something. i have no friends here. i’m in a single dorm and everybody on my floor are just best chums. i miss my friends and my mom and i just wanna go home. idk what to do. every time i try to sleep i just end up crying even harder.

wasn’t sure which flare to use. anyway, freshman here—-do i have to go to the required events for welcome week? i know it literally says required, but i’m still on vacation and can’t make it. are they gonna force me to do it or something? the residence hall meetings look kinda important, but idk. thoughts??

so i have my ap chem credit that lets me go straight into chem 2 but i also want to go to PA school. i know pitt's PA school allows that ap credit to be used as a prereq for gen chem 1, but there is no way in hell im paying 130k to go to there. problem is, rarely any PA school takes that ap credit as a prereq. my advisor recommended i take chem 1 but i totally ignored her and now im thinking it through sooo i'm thinking about sucking it up and just taking gen chem 1. though i hear that chem 1 is just the basics like stoich and properties of matter. also, it kinda rearranges my entire schedule fml because we built it around chem 2 but i did find a way to get around it, it's just a little annoying. im super conflicted about this... id be grateful for any advice from people who have been in my situation or similar!!

i passed the CCMA test in my junior year of high school (done through the school) and had the choice in senior year to practice as an MA and eventually earn the PCT cert or practice as a pharmacy tech trainee and eventually earn the tech cert (again thru school). i chose tech before doing any research and realized halfway through that i needed PCE to become a physician's assistant. i'm going to college out of state and i'm wondering if it's realistic or possible to even get a job as an MA with no experience and a 1 year gap btwn getting a cert and applying for a job. also, would the tech experience help? should i wait til i graduate college to become an MA?

i might just be missing something here but i was wondering how we’re supposed to create labels with our dorm room address in the july 7-14 timeline when i’ve been told that dorm assignments come out mid-late july?

We live in the same house. My mom's his caretaker but I (18f) do a few things like feed him and monitor him while my mom's at work. He can't do a lot of things himself, but most significantly, he can't speak (tongue removal due to cancer) or communicate by writing. We have his life360 but he doesn't even know he has a phone most of the times, so he leaves his phone at home most of the time. He got out a few months ago and injured himself riding the bike down the highway. We locked the bikes up and got him a medical bracely, but he still gets out. It hasn't been terrible lately, mostly he just goes out and walks around the neighborhood. There's been a few scares, but he usually comes back 5-10 minutes later (like I said he's mostly just walking around the neighborhood). Then today, he got out again and was missing for an hour before my mom found him walking along the highway. Since I'm going out of state for college in a few months, my mom won't have me to help look for him if something like this happens again. Not to mention I'm home alone with my dad a lot and I can't stop him from going outside. He only listens to my mom half the time when she tells him not to wander, and he doesn't listen to me at all, so I'm pretty much helpless if he gets out again while it's just me alone (that was the case today). My mom's already looking into alert systems, but 4 people live in the house and it's impossible to tell who's leaving. What I'm wondering is if there's some kind of fingerprint lock or password lock or phone controlled lock on the inside so the rest of us can figure out but not him so he can't get out. This sounds like imprisonment omg but knowing that he has a track record of going out onto the highway and he's unsteady on his feet (no cane or wheelchair yet), I really don't want something like this to happen again. Next time, he might go to the woods instead of out in the open, because the last two times, we only found him because he was in such an open area. If there's anything out there, please lmk, it'd be greatly appreciated.