Seeing this breaks my heart. No woman should ever be forced to marry and threatened with suicide out of sadness because they said no. Let alone being done by their own mother.
I'm not sure if this is the correct flair again, mods. I'm so sorry.
I know it's a community-contributed caption based on the photo Story from an account that I follow. I added the song out of referential memory, and fuck me dead, it fits so goddamn well.
I did find the humor in it, but my head also agrees that my entire body and existence is just a living, walking, talking, breathing, fragile, useless, insufferable, stupid, dumb, tackless, whiny, crybaby of a bitch burden ticking timebomb, loaded weapon and torture chamber that won't shut the fuck up. I'm just a curse to both family and society and a childish piece of fuckshit that deserves to be removed from the existence of this planet before I end up getting somebody hurt, maimed, disabled, or worse - killed.
Existing as a cursed jinx of a failure of a being is goddamn fucking exhausting. I hope I'll be able to find a way to a peaceful and painless permanent freedom soon.
A recent reel I saw talked about the caller's memory of her father burning their house and mother's motorcycle out of drunken rage and false jealousy. Even after the incident, the abuse and violence never stopped until the parents divorced a decade after.
She also explained that they understand and acknowledge that it wasn't easy for her mother to leave the marriage because of cultural and societal expectations of having a father as a sign of a complete family and the difficulty of leaving an abusive relationship while being a parent the family can come to for comfort and guidance. Making her conflicted and having a strained relationship with their mother, which is understandable.
The parts at the end sealed it for me out of relatability. I am still in a household full of dysfunction, anger, stress, anxiety, exhaustion and fear. And I see relationships of every single kind to be a very dangerous thing I could do that may potentially harm other people. I've fucked up so many times and I do not want to repeat the same morasocietally mortal sins ever again. Hence I swore to never ever be like my family and relatives by staying permanently single, alone, childfree and to hopefully run away to a far away place to live a solitary reclusive life in my own terms.
I wish the caller and her family peace and freedom through their own terms and paces.
Mods, I'm so sorry this is litaniously long. Please do tell if I need to remove this if it is against the rules.
I also like that it's shaped like an onigiri 🍙. I'm good with having two Labubus for now (and a gifted Lafufu that I remembered recently).
I was hoping for either of the D, E, G, I or K colors, but this'll do just fine. 🤎
Saw this on Instagram. It is humorous, but it also shows a dark and heartbreakingly exhausting side of staunch childfreedom. Mods, if this is the wrong flair, please tell me so I can change it as I do not know which appropriate one to use.
As someone both exploring and slowly identifying more as 7b4t, the constant bingoes of life partnership and child-raising are exhausting and pissing me off. No means no and that's final. Never no means yes or maybe means yes or with the right partner means yes.
Partriarchial people who are severely and heavily rosetinted don't know the genuine fear and disturbia of being trapped, partnered, living and parenting in a domestically abusive and violent setting. You can either be abused by a partner, relative and/or family member and/or abuse your own child, family member, relative and/or pet at the same time. Even be a parent to your own parents and siblings.
I've seen it firsthand and vowed to never ever go on the same path. That and along with the worsening state of the world, religiopoliticotechnoimperiofascism, loss of human rights, misinformation, disinformation, celebrity and idol culture, my poor-to-failing physical/mental/psychological health, traumas and my negative fucked-up social/societal history.
Divorce isn't legal where I live and annulment is absolute fucking hell, which makes my decision to remain permanently single final. It all ends with me. May decentering and rejecting bring me freedom someday, be it in life or afterlife.
That infamous AI chatbot now in their system? FUCK! 🤬
I can't switch to Signal because of my overall work primarily using Viber aside email for communication and being on the fence 🥲
For my stuff currently in Photos and Drive, I am moving them back to physical (USB, SSD, HDD, ExHD) and saved Contacts to SIM. I can't trust myself to store them on phone storage without the risk of losing them permanently to a future brick (I've learned my lesson the hardest way back in 2017 🤦♀️).
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Is this a good idea? I'm still skeptical with cloud after news and posts of Google using emails to train their AI. Even if it's by other companies. I don't want to compromise and put a lot of things at risk just by making one or more stupid mistakes.
A lot of Alphabet and Microsoft services still in use, but I'm a massive wimp to alter with codes, hardware and software without risking destroying and losing things (long story). I'm still on the fence with Proton, but either I stick with them or use a better alt that's reliable geolocation and usage-wise.
Originally a reel by Roy Mong that I posted as a Story to change the audio to the intro of Somebody That I Used to Know.
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Sadly, my family think I'm overreacting when I'm easily startled at home. It never ends. 💔
I don't deserve a family. My existence and voice just causes severe harm, suffering, anger, misery and stress to people. I deserve to disappear from the face of this godawful forsaken planet. I'm done being a burden to everyone. I'm done being the failure. The lazy fuck. The too much. The dumb one. The overreacting. The headache. The reason for their early demise. The nuisance.
I just want to be eternally free. 💔