u/karnzter

I was hoping for either of the D, E, G, I or K colors, but this'll do just fine. 🤎

Saw this on Instagram. It is humorous, but it also shows a dark and heartbreakingly exhausting side of staunch childfreedom. Mods, if this is the wrong flair, please tell me so I can change it as I do not know which appropriate one to use.

As someone both exploring and slowly identifying more as 7b4t, the constant bingoes of life partnership and child-raising are exhausting and pissing me off. No means no and that's final. Never no means yes or maybe means yes or with the right partner means yes.

Partriarchial people who are severely and heavily rosetinted don't know the genuine fear and disturbia of being trapped, partnered, living and parenting in a domestically abusive and violent setting. You can either be abused by a partner, relative and/or family member and/or abuse your own child, family member, relative and/or pet at the same time. Even be a parent to your own parents and siblings.

I've seen it firsthand and vowed to never ever go on the same path. That and along with the worsening state of the world, religiopoliticotechnoimperiofascism, loss of human rights, misinformation, disinformation, celebrity and idol culture, my poor-to-failing physical/mental/psychological health, traumas and my negative fucked-up social/societal history.

Divorce isn't legal where I live and annulment is absolute fucking hell, which makes my decision to remain permanently single final. It all ends with me. May decentering and rejecting bring me freedom someday, be it in life or afterlife.

That infamous AI chatbot now in their system? FUCK! 🤬

I can't switch to Signal because of my overall work primarily using Viber aside email for communication and being on the fence 🥲

A lot of Alphabet and Microsoft services still in use, but I'm a massive wimp to alter with codes, hardware and software without risking destroying and losing things (long story). I'm still on the fence with Proton, but either I stick with them or use a better alt that's reliable geolocation and usage-wise.

Originally a reel by Roy Mong that I posted as a Story to change the audio to the intro of Somebody That I Used to Know.

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Sadly, my family think I'm overreacting when I'm easily startled at home. It never ends. 💔

I don't deserve a family. My existence and voice just causes severe harm, suffering, anger, misery and stress to people. I deserve to disappear from the face of this godawful forsaken planet. I'm done being a burden to everyone. I'm done being the failure. The lazy fuck. The too much. The dumb one. The overreacting. The headache. The reason for their early demise. The nuisance.

I just want to be eternally free. 💔