u/kuegon08

I pirated it because my friend was playing it and i actually think its fun but unfortunately I now have to turn in my Marxist license, where do I turn it in is there like a department for this. To be honest larpers can't even larp anymore they can't even wear balaclavas and berets and wave rifles around, all modern larpers can do is just post retardation on the internet and play 4X games this sucks. I am now legally barred from reading theory it says so in the rulebook. I might have to immigrate to a different jurisdiction.

I have very real material problems both with my personal life and in society at large, but whenever I try to talk to anybody about these things with anyone it just devolves into them telling me that's a mere problem of individual psychology or outlook. These problems objectively exist regardless if I don't believe in them or acknowledge them.

I'm miserable and sad/angry all the time but what else am I supposed to do, lie and pretend that nothings wrong when deep down I know that something is very very wrong.

I was on call with my friends two nights ago, I don't have any IRL friends. They essentially told me that I'm horrible to be on call with because I'm constantly miserable and negative all the time. My life is kind of horrible and the world around me is also horrible so I don't know how can really be positive about anything outside of relatively minor things. Despite having like 3-4 friends I don't actually know how to make friends, I definitely can't IRL since there's no real places where people like me would go to meet people, almost everyone I went to school with bullied me. I haven't said anything to them since the call. What am I supposed to do, I can't just change my outlook or make more friends on demand who tolerate my misery.

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Nothing ever happens

I am aware of the Frankfurt School, The SI, Walter Benjamin, and of two works the first that compiles Marx/Engels and a second one with Trotsky's thoughts on aesthetics, but outside of that any recommendations on the matter. Also if any anarchist specific texts are mentioned that would be a plus since I am not aware of any anarchist text dedicated to the matter and most anarchists I am aware of usually just defer to SI or a modified form of Marxist aesthetics. Not really asking for a specific tendency I just would like any recommendations or reading lists on Socialist aesthetic analysis. I've mainly just read economic and political works, and as an actual artist( a poor one though) I think i should probably look more into it.

I really need to know so I don't accidentally give myself false consciousness or something.

So I keep getting recommended posts from that sub and I personally don't really care some of it ranges from actually good criticisms of the mainstream of the linux community to then just AI techbro mossadsoft capitalist bootlicking. The point is that I never fucking interacted with any anti-Linux communities before even seeing that sub haven't even looked it up, reddits algorithms deliberately recommend shit to piss people off. The aforementioned criticisms i agree with is that Linux users can have elitist tendencies, obfuscate actual problems with the OS or certain FOSS software, spend more time shit talking windows more than explaining the benefits of their software/OS, pretending that Linux is as user friendly as mac-OS or windows(literally linus torvalds in some AMA i recall literally said explicitly one of the main issues with Linux was how it was kind of unusable for anyone who isn't really good with computers) even mint requires some terminal usage which you know isn't too bad for us but the average person can't even really navigate file directories which actually isn't a moral condemnation of them because some people just use their computers to play video games or do work, etc

I live in a rural area, the kind that has five-hundred churches but no gym, library, etc. I got bullied all throughout my time in school. So making friends IRL is a no-go for the time being. I got like three online friends but they aren't online too often and I feel very lonely and bored most of the time. I've tried asking them if they knew anybody I could talk to, but they didn't have any suggestions. One time one of my friends invited me to a discord server but I just found it alienating and besides him everyone else kind of wanted nothing to do with me, uh besides that one person recommended dating apps but i heard that those really suck.

I live in rural hell and i don't own a vehicle and closest town with jobs is like two hours away on foot. I'm trying to get my first job. Walking alone would add a extra four hours to my work day would it be worth it. Some places might be even three hours away, so that would be six hours.

So this is my current plan for weight loss. 18 y/o male, last time i checked my weight is around 230 pounds and my height is around 6'4. From what I understand I'm overweight but not obese. My plan is to lose like 30 pounds. I've started a form of intermittent fasting through the 16/8 method with a eating period from 12 pm to 8pm. I try to include protein in every meal i eat in some form. I'm on a vegetarian diet so my main forms of protein are like eggs, beans, rice, spinach, and peanut butter. I drink 1-2 cups of black coffee, and I'm planning on walking 2-3 hours a day and including some strength training by doing fifty curls on each arm with a twelve pound dumbbell that I own. Any issues or modifications i should make, I'd also like to see if I can get an estimate on how quickly i could lose my desired amount of pounds.