u/leonam71

Hello friends, I am pregnant for the third time (6 weeks and 3 days very early) after a 20 week stillbirth last June, and a blighted ovum miscarriage this March. I have had betas drawn and they’re looking nice, I also had an early ultrasound on Tuesday at exactly 6 weeks. Little thing was there, measuring two days ahead and a nice heart rate of 117. That was reassuring. I’ve however started to have a lot of anxiety and really almost start spiraling because I’m so nervous. I haven’t had a ton of symptoms (yet), other than being very tired, increased hunger, and some boob pain, but the boob pain has stopped completely all of a sudden and I’m convinced this means something bad is happening despite having a reassuring visit on Tuesday. How do you cope with nervousness and anxiety? It is really unbearable for me, and I feel like I’m constantly waiting for something bad to happen, because well, it has twice so far. I’m really hoping this works out and this baby makes it earth side - but I’m really struggling badly. Any advice is welcome 🙏

After what felt like forever waiting for an early viability scan, finally went today and was able to see a little nugget on the screen with its heart beating away 🙏🙌🤞🏻 I had my eyes closed and the tech asked me if I’d like to take a look, I opened them hesitantly, and there they were. Little heart flickering and measuring two days ahead. This is going to be so hard after a 20 week stillbirth and a blighted ovum, but man, I’m feeling relief right now🥹🥰

Hello all, I am here after 2 losses. My first draw was 6/16 and my second draw today 6/22. Do these numbers appear to be appropriate? I feel like I’m so anxious I am spiraling - even if there’s no need to!

6/16 549 mIU/mL

6/22 3905 mIU/mL

Edit: I am 4 weeks 6 days today.

One year ago today, I received the worst news of my life. Our baby had passed away and I would have to deliver at 20 weeks and 1 day. He was born peacefully sleeping on June 12th at 11:00 am.

Today I found out that I’m pregnant, again, for a third time. Stillbirth, blighted ovum, and unsure of what’s to come now. Surreal and unsure of how to feel. I feel thankful and happy but holy cow wow, I didn’t expect this. One year later..

Next Friday will be one year since I said hello and goodbye to my son, Landon. Stillborn at 20 weeks and 1 day. Most days are “normal” again however sometimes I really find myself sitting in it. I feel like nobody really understands this until they’ve gone through it.

Wake up, get ready, go on about my day but Landon is always on my mind. From sun up to sun down my baby is on my mind. What he looked like, who he looked like, fingers, toes. Who he would have been. Milestones we’d be at by now. Everything all at once.

Sitting at my desk job working away, but my mind wanders off and all I can think of is how my body grew and nurtured this precious being for 5 months. Grew a whole human and then something let us down. I zone out and all I can think about is how I’m back in that hospital room begging it was me and not him so he would have the chance to live and experience life. How am I supposed to do this? How could I go on? And somehow, almost a year later… I realize I did it. When I really thought there was absolutely no way.

I go home to my husband and our dogs where we laugh and joke and chit chat, but yet the silence is so loud. Landon’s bedroom sits empty and not used. Everything was ready for him. We were ready for him.

I look at myself in the mirror and sometimes I don’t recognize who I am anymore. Until everything went bad, it was the happiest I had been in my entire life. It was blissful. And then it was just….. over. On a random Wednesday, my life was over.

7 months after losing Landon I found myself pregnant again and as scared as I was, I was also excited. I had a second chance at this. It ended up being a blighted ovum. Why is this so hard?

Once again I look at myself and can’t even recognize the girl staring back at me. I feel like I gave myself false hope with how my life would look one year later, and it actually looks the same other than switching jobs and finding the desire to live my life again.

I don’t really know what I’m getting at, I guess I’m rambling, but you really never know what someone’s “normal” really looks like. Everything seems fine, I’m in a routine, I laugh and smile… but all day during this “normalcy” I’m really just missing my baby and the version of me that’s gone. I’m scared for what my future holds. I’m scared I’ll never mother a living child, but I’m thankful for the opportunity to know how strong that love is, all because I have the chance to love Landon.

This is my new normal and I’m living it the best I can.

He has truly changed my life and I miss him each and every day ❤️‍🩹

Hi everyone ❤️ Back to the drawing board after a blighted ovum in March this year and my 20 week SB in June 2025.

For those of you who have experienced multiple losses, are there any tests or things you’d suggest looking into? I’m seeing a very proactive OB and we’re trying to get to the root cause, but I’m exhausted and honestly not sure where to go from here.

I’ve gotten pregnant naturally twice within 7 months, but both pregnancies ended in different losses.

Recently I had my 7 DPO progesterone checked this cycle and it came back at 16.0 ng/mL. My last progesterone test in September 2025 was 10, so I’m hoping this is an encouraging sign. My TSH is within range and my Vitamin D is looking good as well.

Right now I’m waiting on APS testing and karyotyping results, but I know those will probably take a few weeks to come back.

I’ve also been trying a few supportive things this cycle like small diet changes and adding inositol in hopes of a healthy sticky pregnancy. I know progesterone numbers can vary, but after loss I find myself analyzing every little thing.

Curious if anyone has had similar progesterone levels or experiences, and if there’s anything else you found worth looking into or testing for

TY 🩷

Hi everyone ❤️ Back to the drawing board after a blighted ovum in March and my SB in June. I had my 7 DPO progesterone checked this cycle and it came back at 16.0 ng/mL. My last progesterone test in September 2025 was 10, so I’m hoping this is a good sign.

I’ve been trying a few supportive things this cycle like small diet changes and inositol in hopes of a healthy sticky pregnancy. I know progesterone numbers can vary, but after loss I find myself analyzing everything. Curious if anyone has had similar levels or experiences. Hoping my double rainbow comes soon 🤞🏻