u/let_meTry

I’ve been at the lowest point of my life for the past six months. a few days ago, I gave my palm pictures, dob, and birth time to chatgpt and asked a few questions about my career. it told me I’m someone who gets delayed success (what a day to be alive, chatgpt).

to test the theory, I started asking questions about my past, my relationship, and my breakup. surprisingly, it gave accurate ans. now idk how to take all this.

yes, I understand these are just predictions, but I find myself fluctuating between believing them and letting them go.

I'm someone who stands on neutral ground without disrespecting anyone. and I’d really love to read your opinions, stories, povs, or anything meaningful related to this topic. thank you.

• clears throat * before joining this college, I didn't know what to expect from it. nada. I only knew I somehow had to cry my way into a placement ani.

first year motham 'figuring out' ane perutho cheyani pani ledhu including sports. we were very dedicated tho. between attendance and exams, first year ayipoyindhi.

second year: we were in clubs cause we felt we'd all the time in the world but dunno what to do. met juniors and they're some of our closest people now, classes bunk chesam, we organised and participated in events, tough subjects i.e., ACD, ni face chesam, including cgpa downfall.

cut to 3rd year, we worked our arses off with LC and SI. (I'm no pro, I'm more of a rookie.) ala sem done. 3-2 would have been boring without my minor project mentor who's also my tormentor. we saw the great phase 2 of cgpa downfall again. (background lo, let the skyy fall ane song play, pls)

4-1 came n went by. placements lo mind-blowing realisation that we couldnt win this with barely-there knowledge ani. bad phase for some of us. by 4-1 ending ki, had job offers which we(some of us) never wanted. and tnp blocked us from the rest.

cut to 4-2, goin' to college is prohibited for final years anukondi. evaru raaru unless for OAs. kanni we had mids, sem, mp, paper, conferences and wthell not. fortunately, this was a blur too(I cant think of the hardest parts now). we'll take home so many farewell memories, a few people cried too. it was very emotional. btw, my attendance in 4-2 was 87.5. patting myself

to me college ante, it's more places than people. I love the solace it offered me. the comforting silence and the nice rainy, cool weather. na cam motham black clouds ee. college ni na version lo I enjoyed. (also, I hate summers in our college to a T.)

at times, I lost myself in this same place too. It took so much from me and gave me some. aa 'some' lo ne chala nerchukunna. a note: I didn't always get the things I wanted, I lost people, I lost myself, anxiety, stress etc. end ki life-altering range lo em achieve cheyaledhu ee college nunchi, but I'll survive.

I used to tell myself that I had more time ani. now that it's over, oka incomplete feeling that I can't shake off. antee, unnanni rojulu gaalliki odhilesi ippudu I'm thinking this. Tsk tsk tsk.

idk why I wrote this. sudden ga packed bags chusthe, words flowing ila. now when I look back at my college, I see a big screen playing our entire 4 years(in my imagination)

Tl;Dr: college.., well, this has been good. thank you. ATB to you, people.

Mana AP lo chala dialects unnayi, right? I'm not degrading any dialect, region, or person. but AP Telugu is known for how polite it sounds, and every region has its own authenticity.

I feel like I'm forgetting my roots so I wanna listen to some good old words which are long forgotten too. like "gundu sunna" or something sweet/polite/sarcastic. cheppandi inka(don't make this a monologue🥲)

saradaga oka sentence cheppandi which you use in daily life(me dialect lo or any other). others try and guess the region/district.

Interest ledhante, we'll stop. (I ain't targeting individuals.)

so here I go:

"Ma nannagaaru itharandi babu."

Ik, easy dhi ichanu 😭😭 My flair already gives me away, anduke I tried a different one.

Indaka vallu rastunappudu em chadhavledhu. Ippudu hostel ki ochaka chadhuvutunte, I'm getting damn emotional.

Ippudu avvani fake ante podustha. No, I didn’t ask everyone to sign my tee. Only the ones with whom I laughed, cried, and sometimes even had beef with.

Omg. Fk, yes. They said they love when I speak and they love reading what I write(I write and post online). Double fk.

I got around 18 comments on my tee. All of them said I’m confident. (Man, I didn’t know. Yeah, no, I knew. But I never thought these guys felt it too.)

All of them are girls btw except for 2 people. I love when girls admit like this.

Umm, yesss.

Please don’t spoil this moment. Negative people, don't come near my post. I want you 200 apps away from my reddit post.

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I was able to read what was on Yamashita-sensei’s shirt without any translation. yes, it’s a small thing, but I don’t know. back then I wouldn’t pay attention to such details, but now that I’m learning, I can’t help but notice all these things. I was also able to understand greetings, small questions, some vocab, and phrases. I hope I can keep this consistency forever.

day 70 of learning Japanese.

I was 60 pages into it(just started 2 hours ago). I don't want to dnf it (I lobe seb) but ig I can't help. I usually ask on booktok communities. seems they are dead too. my last hope, anyone on their way to read it from this community? or did you read it already? any motivation?