u/liammeates

I consumed about 12 grams half the bag imof 25 gm dried Amanitas I bought but I didn't feel much affect. Maybe ai felt a bit more relaxed but it wasn't anything obvious. Any thoguhts

It's like I feel this shame sometimes because I am spiritual and have spiritual longing for truth and to live a meaningful life , to heal from trauma, but yet I'm so messed up, confused , destructive in ways and inauthentic in ways . Part of me says but that's ok and other part says I should be healing or be healed by this stage I'm 37. It's strange becuase if someone said this to me I would say give yourself some grace but I struggle to give myself the grace. It's like I'm trapped by seeking healing tjay doesn't come because I'm looking at it to from the wrong lense. I just feel this huge sense of unworthiness. It's hard to explain. Does anyone have any thoughts inights on this?