u/lilacecxho

the moment we opened our eyes, we were always together.

even following eachother at school, its like fate knew we would always be together.

with every glance, a melody plays in my head and makes a wish that its still you.

at first i didn't know what this feeling meant as friends.

but now i realize, you're still my music's essence. every strum of the guitar you echo the storm in my mind.

how am i supposed to say it?

if my feelings had grown deeper?

should i let it be, or let my feelings grow deeper?

what happens now?

IM SO MAD AT MYSELF.

why is it that whenever i see my crush i run away.

i try to confess but the words get stuck in my throat and i end up looking like a dummy. (´；ω；`)

HES SO CUTE ARHEHAH tips on how to grab ur crush attention!!!!! (* >ω<)♡♡♡♡

everyone thinks im too happy or unknowing to problems. because i keep mine hidden. but it hurts, yk? i don't have anyone. no one knows how sad it also feels to feel this alone again. I've curated a version where sadness doesn't consume me to my friends.

someone once me told that "a sunset may represent and end but gave me hope for a better tomorrow with the person i love." i think its beautiful honestly.

what do you think it really means?

HII GUYS this is kinda long so..

do my friends hate me? dislike me? i have no clue.

I'd like advice on what to do !!

so this happened recently, ill try to keep there names

broad as I can (though they don't use reddit haha) but this is a specific story so.

hi. just call me riri. so basically ive been friends w these 3 girls (hat,kriss and klair) for about 3 years now. we were classmates together last yr and we were VERY VERY CLOSE. HONESTLY tho ive been friends with klair first for about 4 and a half years? anyway this year i didn't become classmates w hat and kriss which kinda sucked and put a strain on our friendship or wtv. but we were still close. and klair? still close with her too but those three have other close friends with two girls named jerbi and tric. all of them had been friends for 5-6 yrs? so more than me. tho kriss had been friends w them for 4 yrs yet they alr consider her in there fg. i tried my best this year to be friends with jerbi and tric. jerbi and i have been friends for about 4 months? (HELP ik its not that long) and tric? well.. still kind awkward w her but shes really friendly w everyone and is nice!!! so the problem is they have there on groupchat w/o me i js tot I'd be apart of there friend group by now and they hung out without me and posted about that shi. at skl? were so close tho even online. we text often and stuff but i genuinely thought we'd be closer than i thought.

SOME CONTEXT BELOW:

ok i know its a no brainer. "obv riri they wouldnt invite u bc ur kind off not that new or they didn't know and had that group chat for a long time!" you may be right honestly, but why does it hurt so much? my heart races (or drops? idk) whenever i see there stories on ig together. huhu i never expected to be hurt about something trivial. and another thing "why didn't you just ask to be added or invited?" isnt the FIRST RULE in friendships not to ask? also ive hung out w them b4 and had no problems w them. they seem to.. (i hope atleast) enjoy my presence? because they dont seem weird around me, we have gossips and laughs. but also hat, jerbi and tric are lowk a trio also. they gmeet or call alot but i couldnt bother to even ask to join bc it feels wrong.. and klair? i have a feeling she hates me. idk why but whenever i try to join there things, they were doing a transition for tiktok and i wanted to join and yeah i did but klair suddenly said "okay were doing it now!! and.. with riri." like in a awkward but condescending way but NOBODY even seemed to notice her tone. it made me feel hurt bc did they ever consider me in there group?.