u/mashedpotatoez17

I was manifesting my sp for a few weeks and everything was going great until today he told me he was gay, like everything was going great and I thought my obssession subs had worked and then he just mentioned it casually in conversation 😭

I paid for 3 day international bump on one of my items, the money has been taken from my vinted balance but when Iook the item it doesn't appear as bumped and the amount of views are the same.

And then when I press the button to bump that item it appears that it has already been bumped, but the effects are not being applied.

Is this a glitch?

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Everyday I eat one single meal, and then immediately after purge it until i physically can't. I know this is bad, and I know I have to recover.

The thing is, after purging I feel so much prettier, I feel almost euphoric. I can't really describe the high I get from purging. I feel snatched and I just feel cuter overall.

Maybe it's me romanticizing my eating disorder but I just feel much better.

When I purge it's as if I can feel the calories leaving my body.

I love food, but not calories. So I eat a delicious meal and enjoy the flavor and then puke it out. I had already kinda realized this but today I went to a Japanese restaurant, the food was so good and I enjoyed it so much. When I was done I went to the bathroom and purged everything I had eaten. When I was done I went to rinse my mouth and when I looked in the mirror I looked so good I had to take some selfies, which is something I rarely do.

Be honest, what the hell is wrong with me 😭

I have been severely self-conscious since I was around 9, sucking in my stomach, secret workouts, diets that lead to nowhere etc. I tried telling my mom about it but she brushed it off, encouraging me to lose weight since I had always been overweight.

Eventually that lead to heavy restriction, excessive weighing and exercise and I thought I had anorexia but felt too fat to actually be it.

Now what I do is OMAD but after every meal I purge until I can't anymore, my toilet permanently smells like vomit. I don't think I have BED because I don't binge and I'm not sure if I qualify for bulimia.

I don't think I'll ever be skinny enough, rn I'm aiming for 35kg.

I know I should try to get better but tbh I don't want to, I find so much comfort in being sick that I don't think I'll ever recover.

I've been to therapy but I'm very introverted and I find it hard to trust so I basically just lied to my therapist until she declared I was fine.

Imagine you've been in this subreddit since you were 13 and now you're 19, and soon to be 20, would you have to leave the moment you turn 20? even if you're like a top 1 commenter or poster on this subreddit/well known, or do you guys not really care??

I don't want to recover.

I've struggled with BED, anorexia and bulimia since 2024. I went from 68kg to 43kg As a fat kid I always struggled with body image and could never seem to lose weight so I felt so happy to be skinny. I tried talking to my parents but they brushed it off.

I recovered from my EDs with some body issues in 2025, gained weight and felt fine. And then I relapsed about a month ago.

I now eat one meal a day (about 500kcal) and then immediately purge, after that I drink water and tea until my next daily meal and purge. I also work out everyday, sometimes even twice daily.

Since I've relapsed I've lost 6kg, I know it's not healthy but the weight loss is so satisfying, and all the compliments.

I don't want to get better, I want to continue to lose

weight until I reach my lw from 2024, my cw is 57kg

I find comfort in my own sadness, I know I self-sabotage, I purposely search for sad videos and listen to sad music because I'm so used to the melancholy of it all.

So today is my 29th day doing OMAD, the meal I choose to eat is lunch, usually I try to eat something packed with protein and fiber. I weigh myself every 2 weeks and today was shocked to see I had lost 10.6 lbs in such a short amount of time. Especially since other kinds of "diets" and restriction hadn't worked for me in the past, I didn't have high hopes.

I will continue OMAD until I reach my goal weight of 90lbs, any tips that aren't "drink water"??

So today is my 29th day doing OMAD, the meal I choose to eat is lunch, usually I try to eat something packed with protein and fiber. I weigh myself every 2 weeks and today was shocked to see I had lost 10.6 lbs in such a short amount of time. Especially since other kinds of "diets" and restriction hadn't worked for me in the past, I didn't have high hopes.

I will continue OMAD until I reach my goal weight of 90lbs, any tips that aren't "drink water"??