u/mayolishh

yo, good day, anyone recently ordered to mexico? i ended up using ups as the carrier and still waiting on customs, been almost a week and my neurotic ass is getting worried lol

hm, i don't know if i can express my feelings as correctly as i'd like but pretty much what the title says, yes?

as in, when you're sad, very sad, like there's a knot in your throat, your chest hurts, and all you can do is stare at the wall, wondering why you must feel this way, and, as expected of an avoidant, without a way to receive comfort through it.

no hugs, no gentle words, no understanding to be seen or heard, just yourself and the emptiness that never fully leaves.

i know this will pass, a good night of sleep will help, but it's so painfully lonely, to wait, to try and be patient instead of whatever alternative there might be, like having a stroke of luck and going completely insane and finally stop caring so much hahah

hello hello, i bought a console with the electronic check option and, well, it has dead pixels on the screen, which weren't there on the product page, so i submitted a partial refund appeal since i still want it (planning to fix it myself)

it's been around 4 to 5 days since the appeal has been transferred to negotiation with the seller and i haven't gotten any updates, has anyone here gone through a similar experience? how long did you wait and how did it go?

who else hates themselves? like, their whole selves. i do, i really do. i hate everything about myself, the way i look, the way i move, the way i think, the way i speak, the way i will never be anything else but me.

i guess i'm too overwhelmed by the fact that nothing will ever change for me, ever. is it because i think it's too late? yes, kinda, i mean, i've been this way for most of my life already, and this general dislike over what i am began ever since i was a child, and i don't see it changing.

on a good day? i'm indifferent over me, but i've never genuinely liked myself. there's just nothing to like.

my form is too twisted, irregular, wrong. my mind is too bitter, too angry and spiteful, lazy too. i couldn't even give myself the grace of labeling myself as someone "good", because i am not good. i hurt people, i can't even excuse my existence, and i am just a waste of space and time in general.

i am selfish, i am slow, i am rude, i am insufferable.

and you know what? maybe it is fitting that i would end up so mentally damaged, so isolated and depressed. in the end, there is something right about my whole situation, that i can understand.

back from the mall, you can only imagine how the experience went. on vacation, payday, all that.

only a million fucking reminders of how different and disgusting i am. i simply cannot help how bitter i feel towards everyone and everything. i wish i didn't have this face, i wish i didn't have this stupid useless brain.

i don't want to leave my house ever again

ello girlies, have no one to share this with so now i have to make it everyone's problem !

any of you fucked your dildoes so hard you genuinely start bleeding? like, there's blood on my pee LOL should i be worried ?? it doesn't hurt buuut maybe i went a bit overboard ?!

i'm so fkin envious of girls who look pretty without makeup, or just normal, i look like a fucking thumb without eyeliner !!!!!!!! worse? i got curly hair, the ugliest kind of curly hairrrrr and i only look good when i straighten the front !!!!!!

i started swimming classes and i can't wear any makeup and gotta wear a swimming cap that makes me look stupidddddd fuck everything !!!!!