I am the wrong type of ugly and it sucks
Obviously I'd prefer not to be ugly at all, but if I had to be then being disfigured is better. There may be some additional trauma but that's nothing I'm a stranger to. I would rather be disfigured ugly compared to regular ugly. At least then when you're made fun of, people are shamed for doing it. Jobs are still harder to get but at least you have a rightful case for discrimination. When you're just regular ugly life is fucking terrible. People always claim "looks don't matter, what's on the inside counts," etc but reality says otherwise. Unless you've had people point and laugh at you for existing. Seen the look of disappointment in someone's eyes upon seeing you in-person for the first time (job or online friend). Tried applying for jobs, having a good banter until a video call or in-person interview. I've applied for gigs where they needed someone to practice makeup on ghosted me after I showed my face. My hairstylist can't post my picture to her page because the comments just become an insult competition. Every time you wear something nice its "that outfit looks great" not "you look great." Fucking degenerate old men come up to me and think because I'm ugly I'm easy and will let anything touch me. You can have the same behavior as someone else, but because they don't look like shit you're a bitch and they're not. I'd rather get pity from being a burn victim than be treated like a leper and pariah simply because I have bad genes and my family is also ugly.