im thinking of the worst case scenarios, the thing hasnt even happened, and it wont because its so silly i cant even say but its causing extreme stress and i feel my life is gonna be over and im crying badly for no reason.
and i just cant focus on my studies, sometimes i think im okay and dancing to my fav songs then the other minute i start bawling my eyes out its really tough, i dont feel like eating anything, we both cried sm on call last night he even hoped for a future reconciliation but i asked him to not keep any hopes as we could've easily been in ldr for 2 more years with very few irl meetings which we both werent ready for he hopes i'll move to his city but its 0.1% of a chance.
i miss him so much we loved each other, survived 6 months of ldr w hope but that hope started to fade away recently. i will miss him forever, i will love him always.
broke up mutually due to 4 months of ldr, future uncertainties and both of us not wanting to waste even a minute more as we both have very imp exams but this morning i see a new follower in his 300 followers list on insta, he does follow a bunch of friends, acquaintances and mutuals but this thing is killing me for no reason.
he cried on call yesterday while breaking up, i’ve always trusted this guy that he loves me and cares for me and he has always put efforts, even hopes for a future reconciliation even if it seems almost impossible, he hopes me to call him just once thats how much he adored me and wanted me but distance was taking a toll on us both.
now as an anxious avoidant i saw this new girl and my mind wont stop thinking, i’m thinking things like did this guy really leave me for someone else, how can he have time for a new talking stage when he literally told me his exams are coming up, i feel sad even without any solid reason, i am damn sure he didn’t cheat, i trust him and there was a lot of love between us but this one thing wont leave my mind.
one cant have a talking stage this quick right? i cant stop overthinking its just one person he does follow harmless female friends whom i have had no problems with ever. i dont wanna feel discarded. im just coping thinking its just a person who already followed him and reactivated their account recently. sigh.
broke up mutually due to 4 months of ldr, future uncertainties and both of us not wanting to waste even a minute more as we both have very imp exams but this morning i see a new follower in his 300 followers list on insta, he does follow a bunch of friends, acquaintances and mutuals but this thing is killing me for no reason.
he cried on call yesterday while breaking up, i’ve always trusted this guy that he loves me and cares for me and he has always put efforts, even hopes for a future reconciliation even if it seems almost impossible, he hopes me to call him just once thats how much he adored me and wanted me but distance was taking a toll on us both.
now as an anxious avoidant i saw this new girl and my mind wont stop thinking, i’m thinking things like did this guy really leave me for someone else, how can he have time for a new talking stage when he literally told me his exams are coming up, i feel sad even without any solid reason, i am damn sure he didn’t cheat, i trust him and there was a lot of love between us but this one thing wont leave my mind.
one cant have a talking stage this quick right? i cant stop overthinking its just one person he does follow harmless female friends whom i have had no problems with ever. i dont wanna feel discarded. im just coping thinking its just a person who already followed him and reactivated their account recently. sigh.
20F first time in ldr here.i didnt fight or even talk about this to him, and he is a great and affectionate guy. i think im being a bit too crazy.
he had unfollowed her few days back before going to the club and he went there for a college friend's party. now this girl i saw her stories and she was present there at the same day and she isnt even in his college and has no mutuals from my bf's college, i never asked my bf how does he know her and never mentioned her (but i had been stalking her profile for god knows what reason). my bf had video called me when he was drunk that day from the club's washroom and also told me how much he loved me and he drunk called me for the first time like this, is this all too fishy or im just overthinking, ive always trusted him but this time i feel a bit off. also that girl goes to clubs pretty often is this all just a coincidence, because i dont think so but i deal with massive anxiety and paranoia as ive been cheated on before as well, i know i shouldnt be comparing my past with present and im trying not to, but sometimes i cant help it, so i just need some opinions on this.
20F first time in ldr here lol.
he had unfollowed her few days back before going to the club and he went there for a college friend's party. now this girl i saw her stories and she was present there at the same day and she isnt even in his college and has no mutuals from my bf's college, i never asked my bf how does he know her and never mentioned her (but i had been stalking her profile for god knows what reason). my bf had video called me when he was drunk that day from the club's washroom and also told me how much he loved me and he drunk called me for the first time like this, is this all too fishy or im just overthinking, ive always trusted him but this time i feel a bit off. also that girl goes to clubs pretty often is this all just a coincidence, because i dont think so but i deal with massive anxiety and paranoia as ive been cheated on before as well, i know i shouldnt be comparing my past with present and im trying not to, but sometimes i cant help it, so i just need some opinions on this.
and sadly i dont have any proof, its just in my memory how he used to touch me, made me perform certain acts on him, nobody in my family knows about this but i believe my mother has always had a hunch that the guy is suspicious and if i tell her she will believe me.
is there ANY way i can take some action against him? even though he was a minor too back then? i am still traumatised and remember each and every incident
btw he is also heavily involved in dr*gs he consumes and maybe trafficks idk much but ive heard there were things found in his bag multiple times, idk i just want his ass arrested and beaten up i just want him in fucking jail
mere papa abhi office se ghar aaye aur he is a very chill man ok but aaj he kept asking me serious tone mein ki sara revise hua ki nhi and i said yes (nahi hua sara revise) and he said negative nhi krna and zyada ques nhi chhodhna bhai he wants me to not leave more than 5 ques😭😭😭abe mai test me 15 chhodh aati thi ab kya karu😭😭😭agar 2025 jaisa raha to chhodhna valid hai ya nhi fuck my life