I think I have a BED
Hi all. I'm 24f, almost 25. In the recent months I've come to the realization that I may have a binge eating disorder. I have been gaining weight steadily for probably a year and a half. I moved states with my boyfriend 2 years ago, when we got here I was 165lbs. I'm 5'11. Now, I'm 189lbs.
I don't have much of an appetite during the day, but around 7 PM I cannot get enough. Just one thing after another until I am so full that it is uncomfortable. Every time I walk to the kitchen I feel so guilty but I literally never stop myself and I don't know why. I'm so unhappy and insecure lately, I've been trying to do better. Forcing myself to eat during the day, and trying so hard not to let myself in the kitchen past 730PM.
I struggle with body dysmorphia, I'm constantly torn between nitpicking myself in the mirror and not being able to look at all.
Genuinely, I need help. Please. I am trying so hard to change things for myself for the better but I need guidance and tips. I'm so stuck and lost.