u/nemikuwu

Tomorrow I go to an ED facility. I am 20F and have been dealing with an ed for around 10 years now. I have been through cycles of BED, AN, Bulimia, Atypical AN, etc. I do not want to go but my mom is telling me to. I should want to recover but I don’t want to. TW talking abt weight kinda >!I am not underweight or low BMI I am only on the lower end of normal. I feel like i’m not sick enough.!< I don’t know what to do. I feel so much and nothing at the same time. I know I should go but i’m so scared. I just am venting. I had to defer college another year and I feel like i won’t go anywhere as long as I have this disorder. I so scared and I don’t know what to do to motivate me to want to recover. I have no motivation to recover despite knowing I won’t really go anywhere as long as i’m with this disorder and I just feel so lost. I feel like I should by now know how to cope with it as if it’s like breathing or blinking. But I don’t know how to. Sometimes it better and sometimes it worse, but I feel like right now i’m fine but everyone around me is worried. I feel like i’m screaming into a void, I really am stuck and don’t know what to do and expect tomorrow.

Hello, I am 20F with AN and I am going to be starting recovery next week at an inpatient facility. I'm not going 100% willingly (yet i'm really tied of this disease and so part of me is going willingly) and i'm feeling a lot and nothing at the same time. What do you do at inpatient besides eating I guess? I mean I understand there is therapy and what not but what else is there to do? Do they offer activities outside like a museum visit or arts & crafts in residence? At home I am really struggling with boredom as i'm out of my primary home so I don't have friends right now to do things with. I’m not even really going outside as it's also very hot at the moment. I really find 0 interest in anything. I've found watching shows, listening to music, reading, etc is all very boring and tiring. How do you go about this in recovery and inpatient? Just feeling very lost so any advice, words of wisdom, even just a comment of i'm not alone would help. Thank you.

Hello, I am 20F with AN and I am going to be starting recovery next week in an inpatient facility. I'm not really going 100% willingly (yet i'm really tied of this disease and so part of me is going willingly) and i'm feeling a lot and nothing at the same time. What do you do at inpatient besides eating I guess? I mean I understand there is therapy and what not but what else is there to do? Do they offer activities outside or in residence? At home I am really struggling with boredom as i'm out of my original home so I don’t have friends right now and not even really going outside as it's also very hot at the moment. I do like to walk around woods at my house if I have the energy but otherwise I really find 0 interest in anything. I've found even watching shows, listening to music, reading, etc is all very boring and tiring. How do you go about this in recovery and inpatient? Just feeling very lost so any advice, words of wisdom, even just a comment of i’m not alone would help. Thank

Hello! I made a post a few days ago asking what line I should get. I’ve come to the conclusion of a CitiZ in Limousine Black! I’m very excited about it coming and was wondering how do you guys like your CitiZ? Any tips & trick I should know about it? Also any pod recommendations would be great! I’m new to the coffee world and really enjoy cappuccinos, flat whites, macchiatos , & iced lattes! 😊 I like sweet & strong and usually only have one coffee a day / everything other day unless it’s exam season! 😅

Hello everyone! Im new to the coffee world & am thinking about getting a nespresso machine, however I am stuck on three machines. Vertuo Pop+, Vertuo Next Premium, & Essenza Mini. I enjoy macchiatos, flat whites, lattes, & espresso. I am wondering which machine I should get? I also have realized not all flavors in the Original pods you can get in Vertuo pods and vise versa. I really enjoy Ristretto Italiano & Firenze Arpeggio. But I can see those are not available in Vertuo pods, are there any Vertuo pods close to those original pods in those flavors? Thanks for any information and advice! 😊☕️🩷