u/nighthinker0

Hi, I’m a 23-year-old cis-woman from the Midwest, and am looking for a strong connection with a man. My preferred age range is 24-31. Pictures are important to me, as I have been catfished in the past. Please keep that in mind.

My MBTI is INTJ and I am a Libra. I am 5’1 and about 125-130 lbs. I am mixed race.
I have an associates degree in Psychology, and I am still a student, studying for my bachelor’s in Psychology. I’m not religious (atheist) and am left-leaning. Additionally, I lean towards “no” when it comes to having kids, but I’ll consider it if I like you enough, in the future, and if it’s a maybe for you as well. I do not smoke, or do recreational drugs, but I don’t mind if you smoked, away from me, or drank non-excessively, as I do enjoy wine and sake rarely. Please no drugs.

I’m told that I’m “mysterious”, so I will do my best to open up! Additionally, I am an old soul and quite lonesome.

(Some of) my interests and likes:
Porcelain dolls
Additional vintage things
Lace
Music
Some games
Fashion + makeup
Art
Movies
Silly things
Bunnies and cats
Space/the universe
Of course Psychology (personality), and sometimes Philosophy (specifically existentialism and nihilism piques my interest).
Nature
Tea and coffee
The Clair senses

More info: looking for a man who leans towards the more “gothic” (not particularly entirely gothic, I suppose alternative) side or is an old soul as well. Right now, I’d prefer if you are from the USA. I have dated those from overseas and it is not all that suitable for me, unless you’re willing to travel. I don’t mind the idea of intimacy, but I’ll need that connection. I do like romance, I’m just not a PDA type of gal. I don’t like facial hair. I’m attracted to tall, white dudes. Not following societal norms by being in touch with their “femininity”, such as emotions and introspection, and are more outgoing than I am. I am quite reserved.

Thank you for reading, reach out if you feel suitable and comfortable!

I’ve gotten to the point where I’m terrified to say my name and show my face online, it feels unnatural. I have this thought that someone will use my image for nefarious purposes. I don’t even want my university to see me (online). I swear, when I was at the optometrist and got my name called, someone I saw who was also there added me on Facebook just by my unique first name. I don’t know if it’s true. If I’m in person, I am relatively okay, but online? It’s really bad… I’ve been trying to online date but I am petrified to show them my face so I end up deleting everything quickly. I’m scared someone will recognize me and show my parents, even though I’m a full adult. When I was 19 or 20, I sent explicit photos to an online boyfriend (who I’m still not sure was really who he said) and everyday, I assume my life will end. What if someone recognizes me and plasters me everywhere, in group chats, on private accounts, to shame me???? What if I say something embarrassing online and I get posted on a gimmick account and stalked?!?!? The world is so digital, I’m scared I will be in the background of some influencer’s video or meta glasses and called ugly or strange. I think even if it’s good, I don’t want someone to try to track me down to celebrate me… I sometimes think people with binoculars are watching me in my home even though it’s very unlikely, but I have my moments. I sometimes feel cursed. No one seems real nowadays, but not like in extraterrestrial way… Am I going crazy or too hyper vigilant???

Hello, my porcelain doll collection has gotten relatively bigger than I thought, and I’m having a hard time finding a bookshelf for them. None of them seem secure enough or wide enough. Anyone have any bookshelf recommendations??

Hi, I’m a 23-year-old cis-woman from the Midwest, I am demisexual, and am looking for a strong connection.

If these interest you, my MBTI is INTJ and I am a Libra. My preferred age range is **24-28**. I am 5’1, about 125-130 lbs, and of mixed-race. I have an associates degree in Psychology, and I am still a student, studying for my bachelor’s in Psychology. I’m not religious and am left-leaning. Additionally, I lean towards “no” when it comes to having kids, but I’ll consider it if I like you enough, in the future, **and** if it’s a maybe for you as well. I do not drink, smoke, or do recreational drugs, but I don’t mind if you smoked, away from me, or drank non-excessively, as I do enjoy wine and sake rarely. I will tell more if you’d like to know more!

(Some of) my interests: Porcelain dolls and additional vintage things, lace, music, some games, fashion, art, movies, silly things, bunnies, space/the universe.

More info: looking for a man who leans towards the more “gothic” (not particularly entirely gothic, I suppose alternative) side or “dark academia” side. Right now, I’d prefer if you are from the USA. I have dated those from overseas and it is not suitable for me. I don’t mind the idea of having sex, but obviously I’ll need that connection. I actually prefer if you have some experience. I do like romance, I’m just not a PDA type of gal. I’m attracted to tall men. Being more dominant towards me (different from controlling), but also not following societal norms by being in touch with their “femininity”, such as emotions and introspection. More outgoing than I am. I am quite reserved.

Thank you for reading, reach out if you feel suitable and comfortable!

I didn’t really make a public announcement, but I made my bio “Taking a break, contact me at x” and then I thought, no one cares honestly. No one really contacts me anyways unless it’s about themselves, I barely have a social media presence to begin with. If I were to delete my profiles, who would follow a new one? I don’t have friends. My siblings don’t really talk to me unless I’m around, I’ve always felt like the black sheep older sister anyways. My parents don’t really talk to me, dad, stepmom, and birth giver. After going off to college a few years ago, they just sort of wrote me off and I ended up at my aunts. I feel like a joke to everyone, no one takes me serious. I expressed these thoughts to my aunt and all she could say was “you’re helpful…” I don’t think anyone will care if I disappeared.

That’s when I realized… I need a break from social media because of doom scrolling and constantly checking to see if someone at least texted me once. How truly pathetic. That’s all.

A bit of a vent, just learning about these communities. I feel little sexual attraction, but I’m open to having sex. If I were to lose my virginity, I’d want it to be with someone who is more experienced, on the asexuality spectrum (demisexual), along with that emotional connection that I crave. It’s completely necessary for me to have an emotional connection because I will otherwise feel robotic, disconnected, and disgusted.

HOWEVER, trying to find someone suitable has been extremely difficult for me… I ended my relationship earlier this year (with someone who was biromantic + demisexual) because I realized that I wasn’t actually attracted to him anymore, we lost our emotional connection due to distance (overseas), therefore, my sexual attraction turned into disgust. A few months later, I made a dating profile and I honestly felt grossed out not even a week into it. I challenged myself to keep it up for a month and it didn’t go well.

I’d get a SHIT TON of matches, but as soon as I told guys about being demisexual, they’d block me or ghost me hard core. It makes it even more obvious that dating apps are for hookups. It doesn’t help that I don’t do recreational drugs, smoke, or drink. Moreover, It’s also wrong of me to say, but in additional to being on the asexuality spectrum, I’m having a hard time finding others on the spectrum attractive or someone who’s on the spectrum with some sexual experience, preferably someone who’s more dominant and self assured. Lastly, to make a long story short, I feel like I’m too serious presenting and reserved. So I think being who I am is limiting my options too much and it’s messing with me. I feel like Nina from Black Swan.

It feels like I’m broken and confused about my identity. I feel like I know what I want, but I don’t think I’ll be able to find it. I’ve been dealing with heavy depression, I’m also quite sheltered for my age (23). Sometimes I get in my head about feeling behind in life. I guess I’m hoping I can experience something that will change my life but I don’t feel hopeful at all. I want to live in someone’s skin, that’s how badly I want an emotional connection. Lately, it makes me want to die.

I’m in the process of learning more about myself and of spirituality. I’m trying to get connected to this undiscovered side of me. I’m not sure if I calculated right… Oct 15, 2002. I got 11/2, and I’m not entirely sure of its significance. What should I know? What should I expect? I tried looking it up on Google and it just leaves me super confused, since I’m just now learning about it. It feels like endless tangents. I refuse to use ChatGPT for this.

I found and was lurking on my online ex out of curiosity using a fanpage from YEAAAARS ago that I never told them about because I forgot about it. I didn’t follow them, nor did I like anything from them due to their account being private. However, I noticed their profile picture was different because I genuinely believe they catfished me, so I screenshotted it and went about my day. The next day, I was telling my best friend about it and they told me to go back to see if I can find any other pictures (which I knew I couldn’t because my ex is a private account and I was too scared to request them) and I couldn’t find their account at all. So I went on my actual account and couldn’t find it either. My best friend was able to find them and requested them, so I’m convinced that Instagram notified them about me somehow and I got blocked along with any other future or existing accounts. My ex doesn’t know my Instagram because I deleted my account and went on a social media break for a long time and came back under a different username that doesn’t have my name in it AT ALL. How is this possible????