u/nonsociaI

I just took the dogs outside and looked across the street at the community pool and thought it'd be totally ridiculous to hop the fence and do a cannonball lol. It's the middle of the night and that's no sane thing for a 30yo adult to do, and it's also totally a dick thing to do. I'm sure it's against some rule and I'm sure there are cameras and I'm certain a 30yo grown man would get arrested for it, or at least a ticket. But damn it'd be nice to be 15 again and just do it for the sake of being a dumbass teenager doing dumbass shit. I'm thinking about being with my friends at that age and them just watching my stupid ass hop that fence and laughing. They probably would've thought it was hilarious and it would've been a cool story. Adult life can feel so ordinary sometimes. I know breaking the law and doing something silly isn't the solution, but I do miss the leeway you get for being dumb as a kid and I wish I took advantage of it just a little more

Idek know where this would even belong lmao because it's kind of a mix of non-social, social anxiety, and introversion, but I've just become such a shut in I don't do anything, I don't talk to anyone, and I have such a terrible memory that everything before my 20s is now really fuzzy. I barely remember my past and the last several years have been so uneventful that I've become COMPLETELY uninteresting. If I did one of those cringe ice breaker activities and I was told to name 3 interesting things about myself I'd have nothing. Nothing really worth talking about, anyway. I play video games, I like star wars, and idk poutine is my favourite food, but I can't eat it because dumb reasons. Thanks for coming to my sped talk

I try to engage with people online because that's genuinely the only space I can, but it's so ding dang difficult. I'll log in to a game I don't like to at least be kinda near people, but no one really talks and when they do I just get scared and don't engage. I'm a 30 year old grown ass man who never learned how to socialize properly. It makes me feel like a stupid kid. Even making these posts on reddit scares me a little. This shit is whack, man

But I also hate people lol. I like being around and talking to good people. I just don't really interact with people. Sometimes waiters and cashiers, but that's really it. I've never really been very good at talking, unfortunately. The best I can do is info dump things I like and fake basic conversation like I appear to actually be a friendly and social person. It's very much a well crafted facade. I honestly don't know how I talked my way to where I'm at in my life now lmao. But yeah. I miss good interactions with nice people and I miss having friends

I suck at it. I don't have people I can really talk to. Which is weird because I should be able to talk to my people, but I can't really? I don't think anyone gets me. Maybe my buddy because we're pretty alike, but he's a dad now. Kid, career, wife, life, and so on. No more time for talking. I have also built a life around being hard to keep in touch with. A couple friends I rarely talk to, family I love but spend years between conversations, and a partner who I wish I could talk to more. I want to be able to have those endless conversations that go on and on with no direction and no breaks. Drop it for hours to days and pick it back up the next time. I just want to talk to anyone. But I can't start a conversation. I can barely hold a conversation in general. I never know what to talk about or the right things to say. I have an uninteresting life and I have uninteresting things to talk about. And yet I do want to talk. I just want to talk and enjoy talking. I tried to use omegle, or the alternative at least. Apparently omegle is dead now lol. But I can't muster the courage to just start a conversation. I have no idea what to say. Yo hey hi hello fuuuuck you are all so standard and boring. I want to be interesting, and I'm not. I'm just me. Suck at talking

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I'm high BTW my fuckin bad bros lmao

Welcome, gamers. I live in an awkward as hell timezone, so I'm hoping to find some chill homies to log in late on weekends. HST and PST preferred, but night owls from EST and such are welcome too. I'm 30M and a bit of a socially inept, silly, and quiet introvert. That would make more sense if you knew me better.

I play whatever I feel like at the time with a preference for pve and coop. The only pvp games I do play are rivals and sometimes valorant. Roguelikes are my favourite and I have a small addiction to open world survival crafts. I would genuinely play games like RoR2 or roboquest anytime I'm asked and I'm available. We can talk about games more, if you're interested, since I have 500 on steam and 500 more sitting in my wishlist lmao.

I'm looking for chill gamers. No hating or raging. Ragebaiting in all chat is acceptable, but I'm not too interested in complaining. Chill vibes and fun games. Lmk if you're down, gamers. I'm free tonight and this weekend