u/pigeonlover6

guess who’s had a full belly the last three days. ME and guess who actually enjoyed eating a meal for the first time in I don’t even know how long? MEEEEEE MEMEMEMEMRM I don’t know why or how but I have been doing suddenly amazing with my arfid (been getting stoned to help as well sometimes so I can get the munchies lmao) but i’ve been ACTIVELY SEEKING FOOD OUT and WANTING to finish it I can’t explain why or how long this might last (hopefully forever??) but suddenly food is not as evil feeling right now and I don’t know what to say or do about it but I LIKE IT and I have had a really hard time with food the last few months so to have these few days even feels like i’ve just won at life lmao idk i’m happy though and I rarely feel like i have control over my arfid in ANY sense so I really, really, really am so relieved to have a break

I know that that is probably to be expected but also GUYS I had my BEST food day in genuine years today!! not only did I have 3 full meals, I had a shit ton of snacks consistently thru the day and actually wanted to eat!!!! crazy to feel the difference lmao I was not expecting this but the munchies are an amazing motivator omfg and I feel so full

does anyone else find being stoned helps their lack of interest?? i’m amazed with myself

been underweight basically my entire life because of arfid but am getting increasingly insecure - m so scared I look sick or ill or malnourished and i feel so alone in this. does anyone else feel this way? I don’t know how to look at myself normally I just see where i look wrong and I feel so . so. alone. in this. I really don’t know what to do i feel like such a freak :(

I know I need to gain weight i just can’t but lookin like this is driving me crazy :(

I just found this I am kinda emotional lol i feel understood way more than I have ever before in regards to my arfid

it feels so isolating to have arfid because no one can understand the fear n avoidance. The fact people like me exist omfg 😭 I love you all

I can’t stop reading them and crying because it’sNOT JUST MEE!!!

i’m really having a hard time with food rn, I can’t get myself to eat what I need to and seeing this place exists just gives me a lot of hope for what I can accomplish and makes me feel so much less alone

I don’t know how to phrase this so i’m just gonna say shit but I 19F have always been very aware of other peoples feelings on a very personal level-
I’ve had some difficulties with my mental health since I was 12 as i’m a very anxious person and one thing I have noticed stay prevalent is my inability to separate someone venting to me from me feeling those feelings they describe - it’s like when people tell me how they feel or what they’re going through and instead of my brain hearing it my brain FEELS it which is normal but it gets so intense that I spiral myself into panic attacks because I can’t fix it for them and take it away. I also struggle A LOTT with (don’t know how to explain this at all so bear with) like trying to predict peoples feelings about me and how they’re interpreting me and if even one minuscule unimportant thing (e,g Not making enough eye contact) can make me feel such a strong sense of I need to get out of their space now they’re annoyed i’m making it worse bla bla -

dont really know how to not feel this :(

edit: rereading this makes me feel silly lmao I mean like I just am overly aware and conscious of the minds of people around me and can’t seperate my feelings from other a lot of the time idk (empathetic feels like a kinda incorrect word for this post to me but I don’t know what else works 😭)