u/pop-idle

idk if it's my skeptical nature or something, but many people say "thanks for joining" or have invites that are like "please join"...

is there some sort of gain from people joining you that i'm unaware of, or are people being genuine?

i'm new to this app, my account is free and will likely remain that way forever, so i'll never know what it's like to have others join you

why is it that the people who claim to help you are always the most unrealistic about how you are and how the world fuctions? why is it so often (what i can only think of describing right now as) blind positivity? or thoughtless acceptance?

"you don't know how it'll go" "go on walks/exercise" "journal" "you just have to change your attitude" "this is just how things are"

like they don't seem to want to take into account how mental health affects your capability to do things, or what you've told them your experience is and why you think the way you do... or to even just convince yourself to get up, and how ridged the world's systems are. where things like your capability to remember things and the lack of passion everyone says to find heavily affects how you're supposed to function according to the systems. nothing makes sense for someone like me, even before i got to this point...

whether it'd be to learn something new, or going to work at your job, whatever it is. how there's a time limit on things as well. people say "it's never too late" and things like that, but the reality is that the age you get into something does often matter heavily for your success (even more picky depending on what it is), not your capability or potential. the ofc money plays a big part in this too. the classes you'd have to pay for.

human life takes more than it gives, and what it little it gives isn't even promised.. how are you supposed to find value or passion when you have nothing in a world that expects you to have something to get anything?

does anyone get frustrated seeing people you thought you were close to abandon or drift away from you for a romantic partner?

repeatedly knowing that because i will (probably) never be in a non-platonic relationship with someone, that i am therefore inherently more disposable. less important

this isn't something i've seen people say yet. it's usually neurodivergent people liking D&D instead.

for me, it's social issues (which may be self-explanatory already, or maybe not, since i'm seemingly an odd one out even here). i have trouble liking and or meshing in with most groups, even if i am able to tolerate it for a while. the last group i played with about 2 or 3 years ago where i was an owl in was the only one genuinely had some fun with, but i still got socially overwhelmed(?) and left.

my friend and an acquaintance (met from my first ever dnd sesh) who are neurodivergent like D&D, and felt so weird to see my friend in particular have a way better experience than me, in the same group with the same people. mesh into it so much faster, enjoying themselves. cause i was in the group first and invited them after, so seeing how much easier they found the scene was interesting.. but it may have something to do with my lower social drive... i seemingly am generally less socially motivated and affected than a lot of people (and apparently have a extra weird in-between atypical life, making it so there's not a lot of things that can be related to/understood). it makes it seem like most neurodivergent people will enjoy D&D, cause i don't see anyone who is neurodivergent talking about how they don't like it