u/poptartsarefire

I wanted to read the ACOTAR series last fall. A random girl at the bookstore donated the set to me. I lost interest halfway through the second book so I donated it to someone at a local woman’s charity.

Now I have an interest in reading it again but can’t afford to buy the first book again. My mom (who is also on a very tight budget like me) gave me the money to get a copy.

When I gave those books away I was at the time actively researching and participating witchcraft and spiritual stuff. But God still saw what I did and put a tab in it for later and provided my mom with enough extra money to get me a new copy.

I’m very new to all this spirituality stuff, but the other day I had a dream about my brother dying. I texted him right in the morning and asked if he was okay, having a feeling something big happened to him. He said he was fine and I said okay, well I’m here if you need anything.

Today (I had the dream Wednesday night and texted him Thursday morning) I found out that he got fired from his job.

I am bewildered at myself because my dreams, while always having been very creative, are now giving me some sort of intuition about the people in my life. About a year ago I kept having a dream about people in my life getting pregnant and I dreamt my boyfriend’s sister in law got pregnant. A month later I bought a baby onesie from the store because I just had this unexplainable feeling someone was going to get pregnant. Now, that same person is expecting in the fall.

Is this coincidence? Or is it some sort of intuition?

I’m getting a heart monitor to check and make sure it’s just harmelss PVCs. It started a couple weeks ago and hasn’t stopped. Basically my heart just flutters or skips a beat a couple times every hour. If possible though as my doctor believes it’s a non-problem I would like to explore different crystals that might help. It could be stress, or it could be my adhd meds but I’ve been on those for years. I also have asthma so it could be that. A crystal to help calm my heart and heal these flutters would be great. I’m new to all this so I’m not quite sure what to choose. Any advice?

I will continue to get medical intervention if my problem gets worse

I’m 22, and the past two days I’ve been helping a family member watch their 3 kids and they’ve been very deregulated so today I feel a bit overwhelmed and deregulated. Because of this I am cranky and I told everyone that. I ended up getting in a small fight with my mom and then I didn’t want to pickup my antidepressants and my boyfriend took me there anyways and I said I don’t want to get in I just want to go home and he said I’ve been complaining about kids not listening and now I’m acting like a child too. I went in and got them after he said that and he dropped me at his house before he went out to run another errand. He said “you left your meds in the car” and I said I don’t care and he was like “UGH oh my GOD” and went and got them then brought them inside and left.

I fucking hate being compared to a kid when I’m having a meltdown. I’ve never had one quite like this and I don’t know why. I’m just so fucking upset. Everything feels so overwhelming right now and I won’t get into it to spare you guys but I know I’m not being the best right now but Its hard to control when you’re having a meltdown. I am trying to cry and let it out and regulate but I’m having a hard time. I just feel so cranky and upset and I don’t know why and I thought maybe you guys would understand

I know I’m in the wrong and I’m being annoying I just didn’t want to go pickup fucking meds im tired of taking all these meds i just want to not move and relax.

K pop, rock music, mangas, anime’s, books, CDs, movies, games, HELPPPP 😭 😭

There’s so much I want to watch and read and play and there’s not enough time in the world. I literally am unemployed rn and have nothing but time for another month, but I’m still worried I won’t get through it all. So many artists with so many albums, so many k pop groups and concerts to watch, so many games to play, mangas to read, and of course I have to watch the anime with the manga, and there’s regular reading of course, WHERE WILL I FIND THE TIME RAHHH

I have a “TBR” of movies, games, books, etc. and I want to get through them all so badly but I feel like I never will. I’ve even made separate playlists for the different genres and a google doc where I keep track of each album I like and add to my Spotify. Because what if I forget the artists or albums I like? I can’t have that.

There’s just so many amazing things in the world I want to see and learn it all, I want to experience every song and read every book, I want to taste every sweet, grow every plant. But there’s simply not enough time. I don’t know what to do.

It’s important to own books, and movies, and CDs. It’s important to OWN hard copies that can’t be taken away from you.
I bought 5 CDs today, each were on sale for only $10, which is a steal! I got some MCR, slipknot, and deftones! I was so excited and my boyfriend doesn’t understand. He said they’re irrelevant and obsolete.
I said but you OWN it, nobody can alter it or take it off Spotify at any time, it’s YOURS. But he said oh CD players can break and phones are easier and yada yada.

I’m not saying I’m going to hoard CDs. But isn’t it nice to have a small collection of your favourites? I’d say anywhere from 25-50 CDs is the perfect size. I still use my phone too, but.. physical media is not obsolete. His mom said the same thing, why did I pay $50 for something I can listen to for free on my phone? I don’t know why I’m so upset.

My whole country is on fire right now and you can’t even go outside it’s so smoky, and I’m so upset that people prefer convenience over doing things the old way. That’s how we ruined the earth in the first place

Now I feel guilty for spending my money and I feel like an idiot.

I want to become a better person. I want to grow, I want to be more in tune with my soul and my life, I want to make magic happen.

I’m not looking for some “fix all” recipe that I can cast and suddenly I’m perfect and my life is perfect. I’m more looking for ways to grow that involve witchcraft such as meditating or self love recipes. I’ve only been doing witchcraft for less than a month so I’m inexperienced and low in supplies. But I believe that through divination and true connection to myself and the universe I can start to grow as a person and see improvements.

I want to graduate college without giving up, I want to stop lying to get attention because I want reassurance I’m cared about, I want to be able to hold a job, to hold myself accountable. I’m trying very hard and have done the things I need to do outside witchcraft (meds, doctor, etc.) but I feel this heavy feeling on my heart telling me to dig deep into my spirituality and… I don’t even know. Fuck it all sounds so cheesy 😭 something is telling me to make magic. That magic is real… I believe it can be. Can’t it?

Hey!! I’m trying to embrace my nerdy side more and I’m wondering what “nerdy/dorky” things I’m missing out on! I’ve started watching anime- I really like the ones that aren’t just sexualizing women lol. I am watching Assassination Classroom and Kill Blue. I’ve finished AOT and I’m watching JJK.

I watched the amazing digital circus, and now that that’s over I’ve lost a topic lol. I’ve also been reading classic novels, and reading/watching content regarding horror and gothic themes.

I’ve started collecting Pokemon cards, I got a Nintendo switch lite and got a couple Pokemon games as well as stardew valley and FNAF.

Edit: I also started collecting monster high dolls and Sanrio things. I have become obsessed with trinkets. OH and LPS, I’ve had those for a while I love them. OH OH and I’ve been getting into yaoi again for the first time since I was 13 lol. Junjo romantics anyone?? I want to get into Yuri too, I’d LOVE some recs

What other nerdy things am I missing? I’m ready to Nerd Out 🤓

I’ve done a lot of bad things recently. There’s specifically one person I love who I’ve been wronging. Not on purpose but because it benefitted me. I have taken things, and I have treated myself poorly, and I have ignored others and treated this one person as well as myself with no respect. Now I feel my karma is coming back to me. I haven’t been practicing lately, but I am still very spiritual. And I believe that what you give out, the world gives back. And not only have I been giving myself and someone I love crap treatment, I’ve now started to become crap. I complain, I don’t take care of myself, I’m lazy, I take from others, I’ve become a glutton, I’m sitting on my phone all day, making irresponsible purchases. The list goes on.

While I’ve taken the initiative to be put on a waitlist for a therapist as well as have started new meds, my soul still feels crumpled up. Like it’s black and tarred and stepped on by my own actions. I’m not good at witchcraft, I’ve only done a couple spells and it’s still new to me. But I need to release myself from this blockage in my soul, I don’t know what it is. I want to be better. I was getting better, and I’m spiralling down again.

I believe in justice and I know that’s what I am getting. How do I reset my karma and free my soul of this heavy burden I’ve put upon myself?

Thank you..

I’m 21 and new to the punk and goth scene. Right now I’m just a person with a nose piercing and black hair but to me I’m loving the vibes. I’ve been listening to skeleta by ghost since it came out- secretly, because I was raised Christian. But I recently left the church and I’m listening to his other albums and Im completely obsessed! My current favourite is “Elizabeth” from their first album.

I’d love to hear your favourite songs, some ghost facts I might not know, and recommendations for other similar bands!

P.S. maybe Satan wasn’t the bad guy Christianity made him out to be? Thoughts? 🤔

I learned to play rainbow six siege with my boyfriend a week ago and we had a couple fights because he would get frustrated with me.

We kept going and I’m just trying to enjoy playing and I messed up because I couldn’t get the buttons right. He goes “I’m proud of myself for not getting frustrated at you because inside that was horrible to watch” then one of my teammates said “my team members are on the slow bus” like for fucks sake some of us work and have school and just want to play for fun. It’s so frustrating. This is why I stick to one player games because people are so rude.

Then I got frustrated and stopped playing and my boyfriend is mad because he thinks I’m frustrated for no reason.

Just because someone isn’t good at video games doesn’t mean you insinuate they’re mentally disabled or something. And my boyfriend laughed when the person said that because I am disabled. FML. Now he’s playing with his friends and I’m silently fuming because I could be at home in my own bed in peace rn but I have a committed and loving relationship with a straight man. Sometimes it’s very frustrating. More frustrating than someone learning to play a stupid game.