u/randymarsh31691

Eski pixar filmlerini çok severim ve 2000ler animasyonlarını, yine de gözümden kaçmış olabilir birkaçı. Miyazaki, makoto shinkai, heidi ve güzel çizimli bol ağlatan romantik animeleri de severim.

Sessiz sakin ruha iyi gelen her türlü filme de açığım.

​A year and a half ago, my ex and I suddenly broke up while I was away. We had a very close, 4-year relationship. We had an argument during the day, and when I contacted her again that night, she suddenly told me, "We will never work out, I'm breaking up with you." At first, I was shocked, but to be honest, I also felt relieved. She had multiple personality disorder and various other mental illnesses. She was someone who engaged in self-harm. For years, I prevented her illnesses from hurting her, but during our last two years together, things kept getting progressively worse. I found myself running after her problems instead of focusing on my own life. I loved her so, so much; she was like the brightest entity in the universe to me, and I cherished her like my own baby. Anyway.

​After we broke up, she put a lot of distance between us. For about a month, I kept asking her if she was sure. At one point, she actually suggested getting back together, but since I couldn’t trust her, I refused right away. At the end of that month, she hacked all of my accounts, posted terrible things about me online, harassed my family, and so on... I was completely stunned. A monster had emerged from within her. Still, I blocked her everywhere and tried to keep my distance. I thought we had broken up while still loving each other, but she just kept attacking me.

​About a month or two later, her new partner—someone she had met near the end of our relationship—sent me messages full of threats and harassment. They sent messages telling me to die and to kill myself. Once again, I was in shock. I had never cheated on her, nor had I ever harmed her; how could the person I loved and trusted the most treat me so terribly?

​After that, I tried to stay away for months. She broke up with that new partner, and around that time, I received a follow request from a fake account. Realizing it was her, I blocked it immediately. I stayed away as best as I could because I was scared and didn't want to get hurt.

​Then, as my birthday approached—about a year and a month after the breakup—I suddenly started missing her with every fiber of my being... I saw on one of her social media accounts that she celebrated my birthday by posting "love." I was shocked. Now, it's about two months after my birthday, and I'm still thinking about her a lot, missing her, and constantly remembering the old times. At the same time, I feel an intense rage—like, why did she do this to me? I had cared about her more than I cared about myself. It was a warm, four-year relationship.

​My mind is completely conflicted, and my faith in love has been deeply damaged. I don't know what to do. There is no going back to someone like this, but the other day I couldn't hold back; I unblocked her and sent a message asking, "Why did you treat me like this?" then deleted it a few minutes later. We had childhood dreams together; I wanted to see her grow old... I had truly done everything I could.

I studied philosophy in English and want to extend my studies in the field of MFA film. I am currently in a non-EU country, what schools would you recommend? I have 2 short films, photographs, essays and graduation thesis on cinema. Thank you.

Hey there,

I am an introvert. ​I’ve spent years looking for that one person who is meant to be in my life, my destiny. Now, I’m searching for a true life partner to walk this path with.

​I have a bachelor's degree in Philosophy, and cinema is my absolute passion. I love traveling, exploring the world, and I’m a huge fan of documentaries. I always want to try new things and experience what life has to offer, but at the same time, I deeply crave a home filled with trust, safety, and warmth (yes im a Gemini and Cancer person!)

​Looking ahead, I want to have children someday, and I dream of raising them to explore the world just like their parents.

​On the casual side, I love South Park, old Nickelodeon shows, art, Iron Maiden, museums, reading, manga&comics, anime, games and I have a deep interest in spirituality. I'm looking for someone I can create art with, share deep conversations with, and build a meaningful life alongside.

​If this resonates with you, please find me!