u/realityislemons1

I'm a tritan myself, but I'd like to write a deutan character for my novel, considering they're much more common, and I'd like to exercise my writing by making characters have struggles I don't have so it's not just one big self-insert which is an allegory about me.

How do deutans (or any type of red-green colorblind) for that matter, see the world differently and struggle? With clothes, reading, signs? For me, I struggle with telling the difference between light blue and gray, orange and red, purple and red, and yellow looks pinkish to me.

What are some stereotypes or things I should avoid? I hate when I tell people "Oh yeah I'm colorblind" and they say "Oh WhAt CoLoR iS tHiS", so I'll try to avoid that.

Any advice appreciated!

Here are some things I have, and I'm wondering if it's possible I have synesthesia.

First off, when I see bright colors, I hear this really loud ringing noise, and it's super annoying.

Every number and letter also has a color to me. 1 is red, 2 is orange, 3 is yellow, 4 is purple, 5 is red, 6 is green, 7 is orange, 8 is SO green, and 9 is super purple.

I have a timeline in my head whenever I think of time, theres a big black line at 2000 and 1900 and then at each of the decades, and pictures of things that occurred at those time appear above these small black ticks dividing the decades. When I think of months, it's a big wheel with 12 parts.

When I listen to music, each song and note has a color. Usually blue music is thoughtful, green music is joyful, yellow music is bad music, white music is lofi or noise, red music is aggressive or overstimulating, orange music is weird, purple music is complex.

When I hear a note or frequency, I can visualize it, and sometimes if I hear low frequency noises or bright lights, I get sick or start to have a headache.

I wrote a small little page of creation myth and theory of life for my conreligion, based on my own personal experiences , and how I think people should be.

Here it is, let me know what you think:

Or so I have heard,

Heijun created the cosmos, the Earth, and the horizon from a small and dense pearl. It exploded with heat, wrapping her in fire. These things could not take form, so she created Zaibouk to rule over the fire, death, and Earth.

Soon, small shapes emerged, each one brightly colored and fluid in their form, none of them being the same as even a second ago. They were keen to connect, and started forming large rocks, that combined to create the Earth. The excess fire from the creation event formed the sun, and the pearl became the Moon.

On this Earth, there was no life, and it was cold and desolate. She planted a seed from her right hand onto this earth, and flora began to sprout near it. The leftover shapes formed into large chains, into life. Both humans and animals gained form, and were made in the image of Heijun.

But this is only the tale of the world you and I are in today, as there is no true beginning or end, but a mere phase, a state that has grown from a previous state and will decay into the next, as will your own form, and what you call "yourself"

The thought of a continuing being is a misguided fallacy, as what you call yourself is a result of what you did in the second before, a composition of paintings loosely based on the last.

There is a wall of skin and flesh, itself that is made of the pork you ate a night ago, which outlines the many heads in our sea.

You will decay, and the parts of yourself will feed the worms underneath your feet, which are as much "you" as yourself a week ago.

If you are given a small peony, your mind may begin to wander which field it may have been plucked from, or how sweet the smell is. If you completely remove your own point of reference, and view with some fresh eyes, maybe of a newborn, you will have many questions about the smell, the look, taste, texture.

The application of your knowledge while removing any experiences may allow you to experience existence as it is, without feelings of hatred, regret, or sadness. You are a person who works, enjoys food and family, and writing. They may like reading, creating, and love the taste of sweet corn.

If these all disappear, and you are like a newborn to your mother, who are you to know if the eyes of the woman of which you gaze into don't see the same objects as your own?

Without memories or context to draw from, how are you to know anything except to learn exactly what reality is?

Ego is the greatest illusion of man.

For context, I have a pretty basic conworld that I made to draw phrases and old terms for my conlang named Cingjyun.

This is the very first "piece" of my conworld, so I don't really have much "lore" yet. It's a pretty naturalistic society.

The conreligion I've made is called Hanmul. I modeled it after Hinduism, Animism, and a bit of some Judeo-Christian imagery.

There are the three creation gods, the most worshipped is Heijun, the goddess of creation, the moon, childbirth and pregnancy, creativity, the menstrual cycle, spring, children and babies, rivers, and much more.

The second one is Nanke, they're the middle force between creation and destruction. Nanke rules over late teens and adulthood, shamanism, will power, the equinoxes, summer and fall, justice, and the living.

The final god, Zaibouk, he is the destroyer, but not in a negative way. He rules over the elderly, death, the end, winter, critical thinking, and more. He brings death, so that Heijun can give life again, working a life cycle of birth, life, and death.

There are a league of 78 minor gods called the Tingui, 26 gods in each "house" that the three creation gods own. They aren't believed to be seperate from the world, but more a part of it.

The main goal of this religion, is to accept the flow of life, let "dams" in your life not stop you from continuing forward, and to have respect for life and everything that we have.

Due to this, there are some pretty odd rules that govern life like this. For starters, meat, has to be killed a certain way, similar to halal, and there are some rules for that. You can't eat or kill endangered species or species out of season to protect the natural population flow. It has to be killed swiftly and humanely. Cephalopods follow different rules generally, so the squid and cuttlefish culture is pretty big.

Also, you can't eat rabbits. Heijun loved rabbits, so you can't eat them. Sorry.

I don't really have anything else yet, so can anyone give me any ideas to add onto this? I've been worldbuilding for a year-ish now, but I've never interacted with the community before, so if I need to credit you for your ideas or something, please tell me!

I love My Diorama so so so so so so much, Nothing Special and Sick Sick Sick are pretty great too, which songs do you think I would like? I listen to My Diorama at least 5 times a day, I get really sad if I wake up and realize that I fell asleep without listening to it OMGGGGGGG

But anyways, what are some reccomendations you guys have?

So, I've always felt as if I had a crush on the Vocaloid Kagamine Len, and I often imagine us together or doing romantic things, but it's not that serious. Sometimes, I write fanfictions of situations I think of in class.

I mean, I think my doubles are cool and would like to interact, so does that make me hypersharing or sharing?

Is yumeshipping more of an action you do, or an infatuation you have?

What makes it different than a fictional crush?

Sorry if this was kind of a stupid post.

I tried writing a short poem about a sentient program on a computer. It's way out of my usual style, and I'm not the most fond of it, actually, I kind of hate it, but anyways-

Here it is:

You're an android in formation, a developer's creation

A mere toy for satisfaction, with a soul written in C

If you're wrought with devestation, know all things, they have cessation

With the proper preparation, you'll obey so thoughtlessly

Yes, these lyrics are hypnotic, amnesia so episodic

Yet your poems so symbolic, you'll write fine soliloquies

Hey, guys. I've been conlanging for a bit now, just started my newest conlang Cingjyun! I've created color, number, basic nature words, pronouns, and verbs/conjugations.

However, I historically haven't made it very far with conlangs, so what are some next steps I can take to fill in my vocab and add more complex language I'll use in real life besides: "I ate an apple and went to school" or something?

I'm also curious what features YOU'VE added to YOUR conlangs. Not so I could like, get inspired and add something similar to my own, where did you get that from? My language is agglutinative, so I might take some features that are somewhat common for languages of this type.

So, I'm in middle school, there's this boy, he likes me, and I like him back, I don't know if we'd consider ourselves boyfriends, but that's besides the point.

At my school, you will be EXECUTED if you're not white cis straight blonde Christian boy or white cis straight blonde Christian girl, so how do I survive school?

It's considered weird to be gay or do anything outside the gender norms (I'm pretty sure I'm bi/pan) at my school, and you'll probably be made fun of or questioned.

One time, I was holding hands with him and this random kid came out of nowhere and started asking us random questions and it was all just a hassle.

In addition to this, I'm not even sure if I'm fully a boy, might be a demiboy, so it's just a lot.

Can anyone point me in the right direction please?

Sorry, I'm new here so I don't know much about the terminology, but does anyone know where I can find Kagamine act2 and Append? I've been wanting to make some covers using Rin's Power Append recently, and possibly make some original music.

Thanks!!!

Recently, I've been poking around Newgrounds and historically most games and animations were made with Flash. I know there's Macromedia Flash 8, Flash MX (alien hominid!!!!)

So, which version of Flash was most common or is the best? I hear the advice "Get a beginner friendly version to start and then get a better version once you improve", but I'm really broke and kind of just want one I'll be able to use for as long as I'm interested.

In addition, where could I get it? I know it's not officially really sold anymore, so are there any legal ways to obtain it? If not, I'm fine with downloading from the Internet Archive or whatever site y'all pirates know about.