The day I lost you,
I lost me too.
You didn’t just go away,
You took me with you.
I didn’t realise how much you protected me by just being there,
I thought I was simply strong, intimidating or unapproachable, but that was never it.
You simply didn’t let anyone bother me.
Your pestering was always to push me to embrace my peace.
I didn’t realise how much I needed you.
You were my sole supporter, my caregiver, my strength that i never realised.
Today I stand alone, surrounded by wolves, trying to eat me alive.
How you always helped without me uttering a word and yet today my pride has been wounded seeking help and getting none.
Not once you said ‘I’m doing too much’; all I always heard ‘Its my responsibility, my love for you’.
It frustrates me that how much I was protected that when today I see the real world, I feel anguish.
You made me believe the world is beautiful because of the people, a kind soul can only believe that.
Today, as an adult I say you were wrong, I never want to be you, you needed more protection and yet you were the most resilient, most kind.
Oh, that beautiful smile. People say I got it from you, but how do I tell- your smile had purity in it.
You felt true happiness and smiled at people with kindness, not out of politeness.
I heard people saying my voice is beautiful but how mesmerised was i whenever i heard you laced with concern.
I go through gallery, desperate to hear you again, the desire that will never be achieved again.
So much to say, so much to do, so ambitious, so angry, so very lost, so much in need of you.
I miss you and I love you.

Hello everyone,
I’m looking for a good therapist, remote since I don’t live in India.
I had one before but she was really the worst kind. That therapist gave me anger issues and she clearly didn’t know anything.
She was simply greedy and always forgot whatever we talked about. It’s like she didn’t care about my well-being and would ask me to spend money.
She would tell I need a session every week and 2-3 sessions and yet she would always forget everything.
It went like that for a year and she stopped once I lashed out at her.
In fact she is the reason why my depression got worse and I even went suicidal.
I saw her as my last hope but she was just taking advantage of me. She even wrote a review under my name on her website when in reality I never left a single review. I was simply being scammed and every time I realise that, I get more angry specially at me for being so dumb and come off as so weak that people think they can take advantage of me without facing any consequences.

So i really am looking for a genuine good therapist who wouldn’t be too expensive.
2k/session is something I can afford since i’m an International student and need some guidance as of now.

Thank you for any suggestions.

I'm currently doing Msc Economics in Germany as an International student and this is my 4th semester.
From past 3 semesters, I could only get 5 credit points.
Last semester was my breakdown, I studied throughly, did everything and answered every question properly yet i couldn't get 30 credits that I aimed for.
Now i feel exhausted mentally and physically, my work place is extremely toxic, every now and then there is some issue with my workplace. My со-worker is extremely problematic and misogynistic who believes taliban is good and women shouldn't work after 6. He even once verbally attacked me while he was having a conversation with the manager over some political conversation.
He apologised and cried but regardless I feel sick. I also feel sick seeing how my manager and the owner didn't even take stand. This was 100% infuriating.
I want to change my workplace but at the moment I can't due to visa restrictions.
Now i feel i'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted.
I feel I'm still where I was two years ago with zero progress.
Is there anyway to give me advice, I need to study and don't wish to give up on degree but I feel its a waste of time since nothing is working regardless how much efforts I put and how hard I work.

I really have no other plan, a lot has happened in my life and this was my last chance to myself which i’m failing too.
I really just want to die like really badly want to die and lowkey if someone tried stabbing me, i’d take it without hesitation but I certainly want to kill myself.

I'm currently doing Msc Economics in Germany as an International student and this is my 4th semester.
From past 3 semesters, I could only get 5 credit points.
Last semester was my breakdown, I studied throughly, did everything and answered every question properly yet i couldn't get 30 credits that I aimed for.

Now i feel exhausted mentally and physically, my work place is extremely toxic, every now and then there is some issue with my workplace. My со-worker is extremely problematic and misogynistic who believes taliban is good and women shouldn't work after 6. He even once verbally attacked me while he was having a conversation with the manager over some political conversation.

He apologised and cried but regardless I feel sick. I also feel sick seeing how my manager and the owner didn't even take stand. This was 100% infuriating.
I want to change my workplace but at the moment I can't due to visa restrictions.
Now i feel i'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted.
I feel I'm still where I was two years ago with zero progress.

Is there anyway to give me advice, I need to study and don't wish to give up on degree but I feel its a waste of time since nothing is working regardless how much efforts I put and how hard I work.

I’m currently doing Msc Economics in Germany as an International student and this is my 4th semester. From past 3 semesters, I could only get 5 credit points.
Last semester was my breakdown, I studied throughly, did everything and answered every question properly yet i couldn’t get 30 credits that I aimed for.

Now i feel exhausted mentally and physically, my work place is extremely toxic, every now and then there is some issue with my workplace. My co-worker is extremely problematic and misogynistic who believes taliban is good and women shouldn’t work after 6. He even once verbally attacked me while he was having a conversation with the manager over some political conversation.

He apologised and cried but regardless I feel sick. I also feel sick seeing how my manager and the owner didn’t even take stand. This was 100% infuriating.
I want to change my workplace but at the moment I can’t due to visa restrictions.
Now i feel i’m mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted.
I feel I’m still where I was two years ago with zero progress.

Is there anyway to give me advice, I need to study and don’t wish to give up on degree but I feel its a waste of time since nothing is working regardless how much efforts I put and how hard I work.