u/sagelffff

In 7th grade, a new girl joined my school and ended up in my math class. I was a loner at the time I only really had one close friend and she didn’t share many classes with me. I noticed right away that she was getting picked on a lot. Like me, she came from a poor family and didn’t have many friends. We connected quickly and became close. I introduced her to my only other friend, and the three of us started hanging out together. One weekend, the three of us went to a sleepover at a mutual friend’s house. We stayed up late doing typical 12 year-old sleepover things. Eventually we started playing truth or dare. Someone dared me to kiss one of the girls. I said no I wasn’t comfortable. But then the new girl and my friend started kissing each other. That night felt like the beginning of things shifting between us. Not long after, I slept over at the new girl’s house. I had done it before, but this time was different. She told me to go into the bathroom and close my eyes. I did. I heard someone come in, and then she kissed me. After that, she started undressing both of us. I told her I was worried her mom was awake, but she said it was fine because she had locked the door. That was the first of many sexual encounters. Over the next several months, we did things no 12 year old should experience. She would initiate often. When I told her I wasn’t bisexual, she would get angry and try to convince me that I was. Years later, through therapy, I came to understand that what happened to me was a form of child sexual abuse (CSA). I also learned that she had been a victim herself she told me she had been assaulted by her mother’s boyfriend.

I guess I’ll start from the beginning.

Around the age of 13, I made my first Twitter account. It was a fan account dedicated to the Magcon boys. At the time, I was completely obsessed with them and followed everything they did online. As I spent more time on Twitter, I noticed other fan accounts constantly commenting under their tweets. A lot of these accounts would say outrageous, shocking, or sometimes sexual things because it got attention from both other fans and the boys themselves.

There was one girl in particular that I followed who was known for doing this. She would leave the most ridiculous and attention grabbing comments under their tweets, and it seemed to work because they interacted with her and followed her. Wanting the same attention and validation, I started copying her behavior. I began making similar comments, trying to be funny, shocking, and noticeable.

Eventually, the girl noticed that I was imitating her, and we ended up becoming friends on Twitter. We would message each other regularly. I was around 13 years old, and I believe she was about 16. Over time, our interactions moved beyond just being fans. We started trolling random people on Twitter simply because we thought it was funny. Looking back, there was really no reason for it. We enjoyed getting reactions out of people, and sometimes our tweets would go viral, which only encouraged the behavior.

That was really the beginning of my trolling. What started as trying to fit in and get attention gradually became something much bigger. As time went on, I became more comfortable saying outrageous things online. I stopped thinking about how my words affected other people and focused only on getting reactions. Eventually, it wasn’t just strangers on the internet anymore. I started trolling people I knew in real life and saying things online that were intentionally shocking, offensive, and inappropriate.

At the time, I didn’t think much about the consequences. I was immature, wanted attention, and honestly thought being provocative was funny. The internet culture I was surrounded by seemed to reward that kind of behavior, and I got caught up in it. What began as copying other people eventually became a habit.

Now that I’m older, it really bothers me when I think about some of the things I said. Many of my comments were disgraceful, embarrassing, and completely inconsistent with the person I am today. I look back and feel ashamed that I could be so careless with my words and so willing to say things just for shock value. The fact that I was young explains some of my behavior, but it doesn’t erase my regret.

I’ve talked about this with my therapist in much greater depth because it continues to weigh on me. A lot of my guilt comes from knowing that I can’t take back the things I said. While I understand that I was a teenager who was heavily influenced by the online environment around me, I still struggle with the fact that I participated in behavior that I now find hurtful and unacceptable. It’s something I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on, and it’s one of the reasons I try to be much more thoughtful about my actions and the way I treat people today.

I’m just wondering if people are ever gonna keep the same energy for Lex the way they do for all the other girls. For the past few seasons y’all have been dragging Dolly and Summer nonstop over jumping, spitting, throwing drinks, and doing extra stuff in fights, but now Lex is doing the same exact things and suddenly it’s excuses after excuses.

Everybody kept saying Lex needed to separate herself from the trio because her friends were “making her look bad,” but ever since her and Summer fell out she honestly faded into the background. The only time people started talking about her again was when she fought Circo over a situation that literally had nothing to do with her. Other than fighting, what does Lex really bring? No memorable personality moments, nothing she says goes viral, she just pops out when it’s time to fight somebody.

And let’s not forget she spit on Fania after everybody spent seasons acting like spitting was the worst thing ever when other girls did it. She also claims she’s against jumping, but still jumped a girl herself. So at this point, what exactly makes her different from the people y’all constantly criticize? Because according to the standards y’all use for Dolly and Summer, Lex should be getting called out the same way.

The truth is a lot of y’all pick and choose who gets held accountable. When darker skin girls do certain things they get labeled aggressive, ghetto, dirty, or “doing too much,” but when a lighter skin girl does the same thing people either excuse it, ignore it, or suddenly think it’s iconic. That’s why people keep calling out the double standards because they’re obvious.

As someone who’s been watching reality TV since I was really young, I honestly don’t think Baddies is going to be one of those shows people are still quoting, rewatching, and talking about 20 years from now the way they do with shows like Flavor of Love, Bad Girls Club, or The Challenge. Those shows had iconic moments because the content felt organic and the cast actually had personalities, storylines, and real interactions outside of just fighting. With Baddies, the entire formula revolves around constant drama and violence to the point where it feels forced and repetitive. Fighting isn’t something that naturally happens anymore, it feels expected every episode. That’s why I think the show has little replay value. Years from now, I don’t think people are going to look back and find nonstop random fighting entertaining or nostalgic. What made older reality TV so impactful in pop culture was that the people felt like actual regular people viewers could relate to. There were funny moments, friendships, conflicts, growth, and memorable personalities. Baddies culture feels exaggerated, unrealistic, and honestly kind of harmful at times. It mostly appeals to younger audiences because of the fast, over the top content, but eventually people are going to get tired of seeing the same thing over and over again.
I genuinely think the franchise only has a limited amount of time left before viewers start experiencing fatigue from the nonstop chaos and repetitive content.

Is it just me, or is anyone else over the same fake drama and constant fighting? I just watched Bad Boys and wasn’t entertained at all it’s literally people arguing and fighting for no real reason. It feels like Zeus keeps recycling the same content under different names. At least Joseline’s Cabaret had some kind of competition, and Scotty’s show is bringing something a little different. But these newer ones like Bad Boys and Baddies Gone Wild are honestly just unwatchable… straight brain rot.