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I took therapy from a psychiatrist in my city and in the very first session he prescribed me Escitalopram (brand name on the strip appears to be Rexipra-5)

I have been dealing with a lot since almost 1.5 years tbh and finally gathered courage for therapy first ever time in my life.

I am just 21F should I actually take these medicines? I really am scared please guide me.

What if this has some side effects on me. I mean am genuinely scared.

Edit: Took one tablet today but idk if I should continue it further.

Yesterday, the mirror asked me a question again.

A tiny vitiligo spot appeared on my nose

and I broke down.

I screamed. I cried.

Because suddenly, the little girl I used to be came rushing back,

the one who searched for judgment in every stare,

the one who hid herself under full sleeves in summer,

the one who thought a pair of shorts was a privilege she could never have.

I’ve lived with vitiligo since I was six.

And for years, my life became a cycle of hope and heartbreak.

Every treatment felt like the beginning of a miracle,

like the first drop of rain on dry land.

My parents tried everything they could within their means,

holding onto hope with trembling hands,

and every time something failed,

a small part of me wondered,

“If not now, then when will I finally be enough?”

Five years ago, I finally learned how to breathe inside my own skin.

Slowly. Gently.

Like someone learning to dance again after surviving a storm.

I stopped seeing my patches as something to apologize for.

I started believing that maybe I deserved confidence too.

And now this new spot on my nose,

it feels like being pushed back to the beginning again.

But maybe beauty was never meant to be flawless.

The moon has scars too,

yet people still wait all night just to admire it.

Maybe these white patches are not stains on my body,

but proof that I survived years of battles no one could see.

People worship sunsets even though they are made of uneven colors.

Nobody asks the sky to stay one shade.

So yes, I’ll probably cry again.

I’ll probably stand in front of the mirror and question myself again.

I’ll probably have to rebuild my confidence piece by piece again.

But this time, I know something I didn’t know before,

vitiligo may have changed my skin,

but it never had the power to take away my light.

(I reposted coz earlier it wasn’t readable ✨️)

Thank you:)

Hi guys my bday is in next month and I am 20F and I want a watch not from fashion brand and my budget is max 7k and I want medium dials with metallic band. The purpose of the watch is for professional use sometimes for some special meeting days at office or for my college yk not everyday wear but professional use is the aim.

I am so pissed at women watches having small dials. And I am getting confused.

Please help me out.

Thank you :)

Hi so the thing is I am 21F and having vitiligo since I was 6 years old over the years tried everything but couldn't cure it. And I observe myself that my hair fall has increased ganji hone lagi hu. I have right knee ACL operated last year and

Today what happened was while I was doing skin care i observed vitiligo spot on my nose very light but it is there if you observe with focus.

I and my mom made sure ki face ya hands pe kabhi na dikhe since left leg and belly has vitiligo spots even I have one light just how I got on nose same I have on eyes but it isn't much visible because of my specs as it's very light now it is making me extremely insecure bout myself that nose spot now coz it is really noticable I can't stop crying that I'll look ugly.

I stopped every medications homeopathy everything 5 years back being tired I'll resume now but that spot idk how to work on it.

I have always been insecure in dating and everything coz guys have not been very confident bout my vitiligo now this will increase my insecurities 😢

I(21F) have been in relationships since I was 14. One was LDR 5 years long then after it ended in just a month I dated someone for 2 months. And that situationship (same city) was so much more to me felt more for that guy than the previous one coz I was being treated right and I never knew I deserved to be treated so well plus the feelings were genuine and it was very old school way. But then he chose to focus on career and it ended. I have cried months and months to move on from from him. Now i don't know if I'll be able to feel for someone else the same way I did for him coz I have talked to many guys in past 2 months thou I have moved on its been 7 months to that situation ended but emotionally I have become numb I am not able to like anyone and attracting guys who are just physically into me. It's like it does affect me everytime attracting a wrong guy but I have felt such extreme emotions when that situationship ended (I still have feelings for that guy but it's just he doesn't want me then i have accepted) that ab vo bura feel hota hai when i attract wrong guys but itna extreme nhi.

And why have I become desperate to be with someone it's so so wrong. I am not able to be single idk why... and because of this I am attracting wrong guys (wrong as in just not what I am looking for, they just want something physical ya casual I ain't that type). How to overcome this desperation? I want to become fit workout i am such a lazy person can't focus on it and cribbing about the desperation of being in a relationship.

I do have a full time job rn and will pursue another degree ahead too. I ain't distracted career wise just incase someone advices to focus on career.

I(21F) seriously am done with this guy(26M). We broke up last year after 5 years of being together. The reason was he wanted to break up since July 2024 but didn't have the courage to tell it on my face as i lost my father in September 2024. But his loosing interest and no acknowledgement towards my efforts and even almost nil emotional support after me being through something so tragic, led me to end that relationship around march 2025 after giving so many chances. As i am the only child of my parent I started working part time with my degree to atleast manage my expenses on my own and don't be a burden on someone. But he lost his job around November 2024, After that I used to send him monthly 2k to 3k for his expenses so that usko ghar se kam mangne pade paise. I earned 20k that time and had to manage my college fees and ghar ke bills too. In all of this I was emotionally drained tbh and he didn't bother to talk to me saying I am too stressed in finding a job and don't feel like talking. Still i was there for months supporting financially. Even after the break up he still was begging for the money and I did that so many times just a week back i gave 3k to him coz I was tired of his constant begging and my friends have told me to not to give him money but mujhe literally daya aa jaati aise kisi pe bhi koi itna maange toh. And I saw yesterday his story on insta where he reposted his gf's story wherein he gave her flowers and she posted story of them. I was first jealous as to I loved sunflowers and in 5 years he never gifted me but her. But i avoided saying no nazar enjoy. Then at 1 a.m today he texted me she is angry at me and I'll loose her. I said dude toh mai kya karu? He said bas Bata raha hu... I was like whatever I have no interest but I asked him how much he spent on her for the flowers and gifts till now. Coz around 20k to 25k is pending to pay me and he hasn't done it once. I have literally 9rs in my account rn and he be cribbing bout he'll loose her dude career bana le karza toh chuka.

His response to that was ki "she was there when I was in huge debt my parents didn't support but she did" and mind you she treats him like a doormat. And when i asked bout money he said earlier when in relationship i gave, the dynamics were different I was his gf, I should talk bout after the breakup I spent on him fair enough I did all of that out of love but break up ke baad bhi kareeb 14k I gave him.

He once called me in the morning I was in a lecture after the things ended it was fresh break up and said i did loss of 2 lakh in stock market and his dad will scold him and if I can help him in any amount I had 4200 in my account and the moment he said this i sent him 4k without double thinking. And when I asked that evening that how he did that fk up as he is really not this careless to which he said I had no rights to ask him bout this i ain't his gf.

Now the conclusion to the whole yapping of above is how do I ask for money from him. He lives in Mumbai and I in ahemdabad. Please advice...

Idk how to explain this but weirdly noticing some toxic patterns of me(21F) lately. I was in a relationship with a guy where I was a minor and he wasn't it was for 5 years. It was good just that I was forced for some sexual intimacy being a minor which was the only toxic part of that relationship thou didn'tdo more than just make outs. Otherwise he was good and really emotionally understanding but later he started loosing interest and we ended it mutually.

Then after a month I met a guy lets name him (V) whom I was knowing since 8 months we met irl as he was from same city as friends we met then we vibed and he asked me for a date ki like it's just a date why are you overthinking and I even told that I need time to think am old school that ways. And i didn't think much said yes. We dated for good 2 months and then I was getting attached and asked for an official relationship and he said he is not settled in career fair enough. But we had something so amazing that yk It took me ig 6 months to move on. In these months I have begged and did what not to be with him i have cried so bad as if my world would end without him. But i didn't stop until he unfriended me or unfollowed me from social media. Why was I like this?

Then I talked to a guy on reddit he (K) was nice but he just wanted physical relation and lied that I am not desperate it can wait but he talked only when it was about physical intimacy and I wanted emotional bond to even have physical intimacy with someone hence I told him clearly so many times that I am not someome who can fulfill your wants please not to talk to me blah blah blah. He Still didn't understand. Then we decided to meet the past Saturday but as he was MIA for 2 days without informing or texting me saying I don't talk to people samne se blah blah blah. I said if you didn't feel like talking you could have informed that I don't feel like talking let's talk tomorrow atleast have this in you. But he said sorry and nothing else no efforts and he was expecting me to meet him Saturday to make out which i was not ready for hence I went to a my friend's place as it was so long I met her. I informed him that sorry I need time to be comfortable with you to even do anything physical with you coz you haven't tried even once to make me feel comfortable for it. And he started taunting me for how he had one night and I chose night stay at a friend's place over romance. Idk what to react I blocked him and unblocked him on monday and saw he blocked me from everywhere. And I called him so many times messaged him. Why did I do this ?? When i knew that he is not right for me.

I feel trash by getting blocked by guys I mean there is a fault in me ik but idk how to work on this. Or not to feel bad bout it. It made me loose my confidence and self worth.