u/serlineal

Little friends is the current aghanim of Enchantress. It makes all nearby creeps attack a unit with bonus attack speed and move speed, but also, most importantly it roots a hero for MINIMUM of 2 seconds from decent range (very likely it's at least twice as long if a creep wave or a camp or two are nearby), which is also undispellable. Creeps attacking the target aren't negligeble either, in early game they're pretty strong and can melt hero. In some situations this spell is a winters curse on 20 seconds cooldown.

So, is it rushable? I check pro tracker and people often just go boots into aghs and win from offlane/mid, but this hero isn't really great at securing areas without aghanims, and even with untouchable needs some vision and front lane to work. Have you seen anyone successfully master aghs enchantress, and really, how strong is it?

My whole life, as long as I can remember myself, I always "knew" that life is not meant for me.

1. I had absolutely no vision of me ever working or having a profession. I never really knew what my father is doing for work, and my mother was never really interested in my doing anything, she was barely surviving herself. In fact, she was severely depressed and tried to kill herself once. So I never really had any role model for a working adult that I trusted. It was an incredibly foreign idea, it just wasn't something I was able to visualise, to a degree to this day (even tho I'm working a shitty job right now, it's remote so it doesn't really register as real).

2. I never really imagined myself having a real relationship. It just wasn't a thing. I think I made some kind of pact with myself very early on, that I would never commit to a relationship, because relationship was of my parents was just a complete disaster. I think as far as being 10 years old, I've already sworn never to repeat this. And I didn't. But as a result, I'm extremely lonely and isolated. Same with dating and just casually experimenting with talking to girls and meeting romantic needs - it's just something that felt like it wasn't for me. Like it's fine if everyone else did this, but I just can't. Isn't that wild? Like I just cut that off.

3. I was extremely hostile to "how things are" since very early age. You know how a regular person is mostly at peace with the general idea of choosing your major and university after school, of having kids, of going through interviews, of staying loyal to your country, of going to the army, of being just fine with just living yourlife with a spouse and a cat? I resented all of that. I couldn't cope that it's what life is. I couldn't cope with how everyone seemed COMPLETELY fine with everything listed above, like they all anticipated it and were basically fine. I couldn't believe it and alienated myself even further. As you can imagine, this led me nowhere.

Just how early must have my household messed up? I don't remember being different. I always longed for something magical, for another world, for eternal escapism. Pan's Labyrinth is my favorite film because (SPOILERS!) >!girl dies as a 12 year old and goes to fantasy afterlife where things are better than her shitty spanish civil war garbage reality.!<

Now that all of my childhood coping is wasted and I've lost ability to connect to fiction or my inner world because of depression or whatever else, I'm left with nothing. I have to literally rebuild myself from scratch, basically I haven't progressed since being 12 years old. I can't tell what I like and what I dislike what's right or what's wrong, how do I feel, what do I love, who do I want to be with. I'm not even scared, I don't really feel fear, just emptiness.

I don't know what point I was trying to make. Can anyone relate?

I'm not actively anti-something I guess, just trying to gauge whether my experience is outlier or not. Because all of the people I know who I've directly asked about taking SSRIs report either something extremely vague over the long long time which is almost impossible to quantify, or just general numbness, which might be good if you're in intense emotional pain, but it's the opposite of what I'm looking for personally.

edit: i think i worded the title in the wrong way. what i meant is people who take SSRI to actually fix depression, not people who try to recover after SSRI-induced anhedonia

This might be quite specific considering the sub, but I'll give it a try.

I gathered quite a few online acquaintances I semi-regularly talk to in an attempt to "become social" and solve having the void. I suppose I also had periods where I feel less resigned to be who I am and try to engage with people just to test the waters, learn more about my reactions and myself, etc etc. What I've found out, is that I'm actually not a bad person to talk to. I'm inquisitive, fairly attentive, generally comfortable, basically I haven't got a blatant deficit there I think. But despite having quite lengthy chats over the years, I never really... feel connected, even if the person shared half of their life story. I don't really fall in love, don't feel like we're close friends, don't have that "we've been through a lot together" kind of feel. I know online relationships aren't quite the same as IRL ones, but I've easily spent more concurrent time with them than with any IRL people I had any sort of friendly relationship with. And yet... nope, doesn't click.

Maybe I've started or learned to treat people like puzzles to solve? Maybe I take place of some kind of quasi-therapist in these relationships? Like I ask them stuff, learn about them, sometimes emotionally support them via text (cognitive empathy helps a lot), but in the end of the day, I'm just a function, and they're just a function to me, and the entire world which was supposed to be about feelings and connections and deeper, better stuff is just about functions now. I hate it.

Steam deckbuilder fest is still ongoing and I wonder if there any good games where you play draft format. Hearthstone arena is still the best draft format I've played, nothing scratches the itch quite like that, but I've sunk a couple of hundred hours in Mewgenics / STS and it felt similiar in terms of trying to build synergies and balance your picks. I suppose all roguelike games are about drafting in a way, but I suppose I like "discover" mechanic from HS and card game mechanics in general. Any suggestions?

English is not my main language, but what I'm trying to convey is that I never really felt like I belong to normal people, who are worthy of love, good things happening to them, attention, fulfilment, jobs and money even. When anything good happens it processes as if I'm being kindly ALLOWED to have it, because nobody else took it, not because I deserve anything. I never felt like I should even consider going to a good uni, to try to join "good" friend groups, I never even dreamt of having good things, only passable or utilitarian. And this mental block is self-imposed, because when I meet decent people they are suprised I feel this way. It's just like I'm playing life on a guest account.

A bit of an odd title maybe, but I find myself recently being so crushed at the mere sight of people who weren't neglected / hyperprotected as children just being, idk, normal. Just having the tools to be a regular person. I've never felt like I was fully human, I've never had that core that allowed me to just be myself and develop further. I've had some metaphorical rags and sticks and stones and my personality is barely held together by those. So when I see people just being... people, I see how far behind I am, how I'm basically not real, since the difference is too staggering. It's not that I could catch up, but was slightly off, I never even stood a chance it seems like. I just hate being this wrong and being reminded of it over and over just by looking at people who aren't tormented by this shit.