u/spinningpeanut

It feels like you can't win no matter what. You're hurt by awful men for being a woman. You're hurt by awful women for being a man. I'm both, I'm neither. I don't think any of this is fair. I don't know how to handle any of these. I couldn't handle it as a woman very well before and got angry. I don't even have it in me to be angry, just depressed. Back then it was fine to be angry and fight back. I can't fight back anymore. I only have the energy to cry. I've never been more alone.

I felt like I had to switch insurance companies because the secretary at my PCP said they wouldn't be covered under my insurance. I thought that's awful I'll switch to a different plan so I can keep coming here.

So I switch. The department in charge of health insurance at my work helped me with that, I had no information to compare plans at this point in time. I had no information. I had no help in understanding what I was doing.

So I have several prescriptions I need to take. All of them are $400-$2000 each on this new plan no matter where I take it. If I had known this I would have just stayed with the basic plan my job offered as it actually covered the costs of my medicine. I'm completely distraught. I'm asking them to switch me back but I have a feeling they can't. I'm not going to be able to take any of my medicine for the entire year if this winds up being the case. I'll have to file for bankruptcy every three months to afford it.

I wish someone told me what to expect. I wish there was information off season I could've viewed to find out the best plan that would actually work for me. If I had known what was going to happen to me I would never have switched. I would have paid the nearly $200 in chunks with my PCP for the occasional visit. I can't afford any of my medicine now. I'm lost. I'm disturbed. I'm disabled on top of it all so I feel like I was taken advantage of in a desperate situation where my brain barely functions enough to pretend I can work full-time with reasonable accommodations.

I'm sorry that this is a wild vent. I hate this system so much. I just want to be able to afford my healthcare... I don't know what to do. Even good Rx has me paying hundreds of dollars for my medicine. I can't afford to live anymore. I'm priced out of life now. I don't see the point in continuing to live if this is what I'll have to deal with.