I am not your daughter, I refuse to be your son. (About parental abuse/trauma, trans related trauma)

I am not your daughter, I refuse to be your son. (About parental abuse/trauma, trans related trauma)

This piece is about reclaiming who I am without her, and saying it out loud through art.

I made this piece in about 30 minutes, it's about my mom and my relationship with her. When I came out to her as a boy (I'm nonbinary now) her abuse worsened because I wasn't growing up to who she thought I'd be. I later became disabled, and it got worse, and yeah.

I'm still living with her, still trans, still disabled, and I'm about to go on Testosterone. I love myself, and I love that I dont belong to her, and that that is my choice.

Symbolism:

Dog (in general): Dehumanization through how she treats/treated me

Borzoi body: Vunurablility, sensitivity and yet very expressive and artistic.

Czechoslovakian Wolfdog: Defense, strength, fighting back and not shying down about who I am.

Dog body language (defensive, playful, scared, in pain): This is so complicated. I'm playful at heart, but when I made the dog display a defenseful position it's because of the way I'm rebelling through art. But I'm hurt, and scared, truly. This trauma seeps deep, unfortunately.

Wings: Growth! I'm myself, despite everything. I'm going on T soon, I'm moving out, getting my driver's license! I love myself, and I'm becoming free :)

The colors have no symbolism, I just though they were pretty and powerful!

Thank you so much for looking at/appreciating my art! It's a bit scary sharing it on my internet lol.

u/sugarpiie — 1 day ago
▲ 2 r/POTS

Tips on making a rollator quieter

Hello! I have POTS, and a rollator. Until I'm comfortable using the rollator, I'm using my cane out in public.

The rollator is Drive brand, it's the blue kind with the seat, bag, and adjustable height. I got it from an estate sale, and the joints have some dirt in them. And it works fine! It's just really, really loud.

Have any of y'all modified yours / know how to to make it quieter?

Thank you in advance!

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago

Aids for fragile muscles / joints?

Hello!

I haven't been diagnosed with anything that would explain this, and I'm not hypermobile, I think. My muscles get very sore after little exertion, like getting up, standing or walking. My joints hurt when moving them, putting pressure on them, or seemingly randomly. I have a cane and a walker, but does anybody else use something for this? I've been thinking of getting a body braid.

Also subluxations. There's not much I can do, especially for the ones in my ribs. Any advice for that?

Thank you in advance!

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago
▲ 15 r/FND

I know I shouldn't have to do this, but I do. I have undiagnosed chronic pain that doesn't come from FND, and I've been using a cane for about a year, but it's never been all that helpful. It's not enough support, and it only affects one side of my body, even though my pain is full body. Like most medical professionals that have been informed on FND, he believes that mobility aids are bad for people with it. He lets me use my cane because I'm not safe without it, but I just got a walker and it is SO!! HELPFUL!! I can't even begin to describe how much less pain I'm in, and with my POTS I'll have a place to sit down. My mom hates it, and she's at the appointments, but do any of y'all have experience explaining to a doctor that a mobility aid can be a good thing? Maybe I could try telling him how much my life has improved on it, and that I have a lot more energy and mobility, and a lot less pain (which is the point of the therapy.) I could also tell him I'll monitor it and not always use it, probably just for going outside (not to school.) Any other advice? Thank you in advance!

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago

I'm under 18 and my mom is trying to force me into family therapy with her, even though I've told her I don't want to. I know she's just going to blame and scapegoat me and victimize herself to the therapist, and I really can't deal with that on top of everything else she's putting me through right now. I've told her that if she forces me to go her I just won't talk or engage at all, and she's still trying to make an appointment. My therapist is wonderful and she knows I don't want to go to family therapy with my mother, yet my mom insists. I don't want to make my therapist go, and I'm not sure how to free myself from it either, and I can't drive away since she controls my car. What do I do? Do any of y'all have advice?

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago

I've been off school this past week, so I've been walking about 30-40 minutes per day outside my house. Walking to and from the train and around the city I live in, etc. But now my joints are so inflamed and my muscles are so sore it severely hurts to walk or sleep. It's mostly my hips and shoulders that are painful, and this is the first time this has happened to me.

I'm not diagnosed with anything that could cause this, but I have chronic pain and my joints are normally very sensitive.

Do any of y'all have anything you use for joint pain / inflammation? I've run out of pain meds and moving only makes it worse. Maybe a heat pad?

Thank you in advance. :)

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago

I just got a 2010 Subaru Outback and I want to modify it to make it as cozy as possible. I don't care about the amount I'll sell it for, since it was pretty cheap already and it'll either end up being very cheap or a hand-me-down either way. It functions great, and it just got all fixed up by a mechanic.

I'm thinking fabric on the front two seats, fabric on the interior roof, possibly some pins and other decorations, a CD holder, nothing that'll hurt anyone in a crash.

And I want to set up a bed in the back for camping, in the trunk bed I'll put food storage and cooking supplies, as well as oil or anything else you might need if your car breaks down.

Any tips for where to get started? I know where to get the materials, just not how to assemble everything together. Also any general car advice would be appreciated because this is my first car. I'm also obviously looking at YouTube tutorials and winging it, but I don't think advice from here will hurt, thank you!

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u/sugarpiie — 2 months ago