
I am not your daughter, I refuse to be your son. (About parental abuse/trauma, trans related trauma)
This piece is about reclaiming who I am without her, and saying it out loud through art.
I made this piece in about 30 minutes, it's about my mom and my relationship with her. When I came out to her as a boy (I'm nonbinary now) her abuse worsened because I wasn't growing up to who she thought I'd be. I later became disabled, and it got worse, and yeah.
I'm still living with her, still trans, still disabled, and I'm about to go on Testosterone. I love myself, and I love that I dont belong to her, and that that is my choice.
Symbolism:
Dog (in general): Dehumanization through how she treats/treated me
Borzoi body: Vunurablility, sensitivity and yet very expressive and artistic.
Czechoslovakian Wolfdog: Defense, strength, fighting back and not shying down about who I am.
Dog body language (defensive, playful, scared, in pain): This is so complicated. I'm playful at heart, but when I made the dog display a defenseful position it's because of the way I'm rebelling through art. But I'm hurt, and scared, truly. This trauma seeps deep, unfortunately.
Wings: Growth! I'm myself, despite everything. I'm going on T soon, I'm moving out, getting my driver's license! I love myself, and I'm becoming free :)
The colors have no symbolism, I just though they were pretty and powerful!
Thank you so much for looking at/appreciating my art! It's a bit scary sharing it on my internet lol.