I just need to talk to someone
Before I start, I would like whoever responds the first validate what I’m feeling you know share what you think and then if you had advice to give then you can give it, but I am just so frustrated
I found out I had autism (Asperger’s) February 18 this year ( had adhd diagnosis since 2025) also in the beginning of year I was on guanfacine XR which took me into hypoarousal and then from there to be honest I was hopping around to different psychiatric and peas or doctors because I just felt like no one really knew how to help me and even now I’m with a psychiatric MP and she has dealt with a lot of emotional dysregulation and children and so I hope that she can help me and guide me but it’s just been such a frustrating process because now it’s been all up to me really and just researching
I’m in graduate school now. I have been since May. I only work two days a week as a clerk and a labor and delivery department, but it’s so loud and noisy and my nervous system has just been out of whack. I think I’m definitely burnt out. I am now on the guanfacine only in the evenings I take .5 2 times once early evening second late evening we are going to add in the stimulant but right now my nervous system is kind of volatile so we’re waiting, but I’m just so frustrated because now I’m burnt out
I’m also frustrated because I have no one to talk to about this. My family doesn’t understand completely. My friends don’t understand my community and church. Don’t really understand it. Very few people that do understand and they themselves are going through a lot and I also just feel like a burden when I’m talking to them and there’s very a few people that just understand experience of having autism and ADHD in my life and it’s been such a isolating experience feeling burnt out and no one to talk to you about it with really
I’m just so incredibly frustrated and exhausted and just want it all to stop. I don’t wanna have any of these conditions no more. It’s really put me in this corner where not only am I still juggling all the different demands of life but also emotionally struggling to process it cause I don’t have people where to talk to really I did find a recent AUDHD therapist. And I hope to start with her soon, but I don’t make enough money. My mental health has a bit strong enough for me to be able to work a lot especially with school too. The first fee I’ll have to pay is $130 which I plan to try my best to pay my next paycheck
My birthday is next week and I just know I’m already gonna cry that day. I’ve never felt this isolated in my life and I kind of wish I could go back to when I didn’t know even though before it wasn’t much better I was still depressed for days back to back and then I would come out of my shell and that would happen like 2 to 3 times a month in the past but I’m not depressed necessarily right now I am kind of. It’s just all the executive dysfunction the sensory sensitivities from just having audhd and shifting psych medication, making me like a Kermit in a in a shell.
I don’t know. I just need to talk to somebody and I feel like I’m not alone.