u/theemmyk

I need more beans in my life. 💨

I believe the floor in the photo is hand-painted, but I'm looking for something similar (design and colors). Not sure where to start. I am flexible on materials (lino, tile, etc).

I believe the floor in the photo is hand-painted, but I'm looking for something similar (design and colors). Not sure where to start. I am flexible on materials (lino, tile, etc).

Does anyone know of a local animal shelter that accepts donations of clean, used blankets and towels?

For context, in December 2023, at the age of 44 (almost 45), I was diagnosed with IDC in my right breast, ER+, PR+, HER2-. Negative genetic testing. I had a lumpectomy about 6 weeks later with clear margins, no node involvement, but focal LVI. The LVI was/is my main source of anxiety about recurrence. I had radiation that supposedly addressed the LVI (wide tangent, whole breast). Oncotype was 6, so no chemo. I've been on Tamoxifen since April 2024. My prognostic stage was 1A. Tumor was mixed lobular-ductal, 2.2cm, grade 1.

I have generally felt anxious but lucky these past 2+ years. However, recently, I am having really terrible feelings of regret. I have very dense breasts with cysts, so I have been getting mammograms starting in my mid-30s. I had one in the Fall of 2022 where they told me to come back in 6 months. I was not familiar with any medical portals, so I didn't look at the report until years later (after my cancer diagnosis). It was BIRADS 3 (likely benign). I hated my mammogram center in 2022, so I was planning to find a new one, closer to my house. I put off that 6-month follow-up, getting my mammogram a year after my last one, this time at a new mammogram center. I can't help but think that, if I'd gone to that 6-month mammogram, I wouldn't have had to deal with the anxiety of LVI. I tell myself that they wouldn't have necessarily even caught it at that 6-month test, but at least I would've been on top of their recommendations.

I think what triggered these recent feelings of regret was my dog. She smelled my cancer breast the other day, just for a second. My dad's cats had aggressively smelled my breast cancer, pre-diagnosis, so I am paranoid that my dog has smelled it growing again. I have a mammogram in a few weeks (my annual), and I had my breast MRI (also annual) in February and it was all-clear. These screenings do offer me comfort because I feel monitored, but every 6 months, before each scan, I am, of course, anxious.

I really can't believe that I have to spend however many years of my life with this anxiety. It feels so pointless, yet unavoidable. Do you have similar feelings of regret? How do you get past them?

I’m in North Hills. I can’t find any fires or anything.

Oddly, AQI is at 48, which is “good.” Doesn’t smell good.

What are they doing in the Rescue Dogs sub? I can only assume it's to promote going to breeders.

It’s bananas. The rescue subs are full of pro breeder commenters. The TOP comments now are pro breeder. I hate people.