How to gather courage to play Silent Hill 2 (remake) again?

How to gather courage to play Silent Hill 2 (remake) again?

It's just that so much has happened in my life and looking at the time I completed it on release, I felt so nostalgic while playing the game.

I started missing my school days, the time I was with my brother playing SmackDown: here comes the pain. I create fake scenarios of my school girl friend sitting next to me watching me play my favorite game Resident Evil 4 (2005), when there's cold air coming from the window and it's almost evening.

Playing that game, with that atmosphere reminds me so much of what I have been through and how far I have come and it hurts a lot but I still want to experience the game and the emotions it gives me.

I lost my mom, my family and my foster family (my maternal uncles abandoned me). Seeing James struggling to find Mary makes me remind myself of my mom and my uncles' son (my brother) whom I had the best time with.

I just don't wanna put too much pressure on myself, still I want to gather the courage and play the game all by myself (last time I played with a friend and almost broke down).

I know Boys don't cry and stuff but I don't know wanna tears comes very easily to me and I just can't hold it up.

TLDR: Want to enjoy silent hill 2 but it reminds me of the family I once I had and now I don't, so how to gather courage to play it anyways.

PS: I posted another post a while back but I don't know why it got delete by moderators probably because I used a silent hill poster and stuff.

u/thestrongcoder — 10 days ago

Q20i Cushion replacement

It's been 1.5 years since I have been using my Q20i and everything seems to be great, only from the past 3 months I have seen significant wear and tear on the cushion and now it's completely done I guess.

I found earpad cushion replacement but I can't find any replacement of the headband, also the earpad cushions are so freaking expensive costing 1000 rupees (i bought the q20i for 5000 rupees only).

Could you all suggest me some links from both of these cushions!

u/thestrongcoder — 10 days ago

Soundcore Q20i cushion replacement

It's been 1.5 years since I have been using my Q20i and everything seems to be great, only from the past 3 months I have seen significant wear and tear on the cushion and now it's completely done I guess.

I found earpad cushion replacement but I can't find any replacement of the headband, also the earpad cushions are so freaking expensive costing 15 dollars (i bought the q20i for 49 dollars only).

Could you all suggest me some links from both of these cushions!

u/thestrongcoder — 10 days ago

My battery health dropped to 98 percent in 5 months

Should I worry I really use it in the worst way possible 😭

u/thestrongcoder — 18 days ago
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8 ball or Snooker anyone?

I love playing 8 ball but I am not finding a single person to play it with, if there's anyone who would love to play 8 ball do lemme know.

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u/thestrongcoder — 2 months ago
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Pizza delivery after 11 pm except Domino's

Do you guys know any other delivery partner and outlets that deliver pizza after 11 pm, i have seen many people getting pizza from other outlets after 11.

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u/thestrongcoder — 2 months ago
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Need to change my profile pic on LPU Touch

I have such a horrible photo on my lpu touch app, I need to get it changed before I get my ID.

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u/thestrongcoder — 2 months ago
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Chess players here?

So as I was in the reporting area, I saw people playing chess and I played with a few of them myself and I was wondering if there are some chess players who wanna hang out and play chess.

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u/thestrongcoder — 2 months ago
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8 ball Society or Club

So I basically love playing 8 ball (or snooker) and I found Unimall gets to have one and it can't be running on his own if you people won't play it, I just wanted to know if there is someone in this reddit who plays it.

I would love to connect with all of you and I am considering creating a club (or group of our own) in which we can meet, play and enhance our skills.

So do lemme know if you guys play it and I'll add you up in the newly created group.

u/thestrongcoder — 2 months ago

I miss him

I miss my brother and yes he is alive, happily married and I guess he forgot me too but I miss him and I can't do anything about it.

I miss dancing with him on bhangra, I miss playing video games with him, I miss letting my mama and mami go sleep on terrace while we stay up at light in room and Play PUBG on emulator. I miss watching movies/web series with him after making the whole room go dark.

I miss how he was my first google and every question goes through him before any book, encyclopedia or internet, I miss how he kept my curiosity alive and I miss all the card and board games we played together.

I miss the quizzes he used to ask and then train my brain to find those answer off wikipedia, he made my first gmail, he thought me coding, i just miss him.

I miss how he used to annoy and make me cry and then take a photo just to make me laugh cause he knew I don't want to look bad in a picture.

I miss how he accepted me for who I was and never judged me once, I miss how secretly he loved me more than anything but never showed, I miss how I was the most favourite of all the brothers and I just can't stop missing him.

I was listening to the song that he used to listen while he sit on computer and code whilst I enjoy watching him wating chips and I cried so hard I just didn't knew what happened but it just happened. I never intentionally hugged him ever when I used to get afraid from horror movies like "The Ring" I used to hug him and he embraced me back.

Sometimes when we sleep together I just cuddle him to sleep.

I am leaving my city for University in 3 days and the only thing I want is to see him once like at least once and talk to him but I guess the brother I used to miss is long gone and what left of is his body so I guess I need to accept the fact that the person I used to miss is long dead.

I still want to hug him and tell him how much I loved him, if I knew he would get separated when I was a kid, I would have cherrished the time he was with me even more.

He was my mama's son but I always felt that he treated me like his own blood brother, I don't have my mom and dad so what was left to be called as a family was him and him alone and he left me at the most vulnerable time of mine, his family fought and got separated and now all I am left with is my nani and she is all about herself and chote mama ( my big brother was of bade mama).

They bought a new home and ditched us and I am not sad about it that he is happy I just wish I could see him more, or once, I'll be happy seeing him around.

It's been 3 years of them ditching me and I am earning by myself, bought a laptop to play games on, bought card and board games, bought every single thing that I used to do with him but I guess I won't be able to buy a brother, a person who would love me this unconditionally like he did.

First my mom, then my best friend and later my very own alive brother. "Jo hota hai acche ke liye hota hai", I am trying to examine this situation thoroughly kya accha hai isme.

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u/thestrongcoder — 3 months ago

Struggling to get past 1500

So here's the thing I have been playing for more than 10 years and I just can't get past 1500 no matter what I try, it just can't be a mere coincidence. I find random people on telegram who are friends with me and look like normal people with their daily life ongoing and have 2000+ on chess dot com.

What am I doing wrong, what are the things I can read, watch or do to improve myself, I am really depressed not because of my rank but because of the same mistakes I keep on doing which kept me held between 1400 to 1500.

Please help me and do lemme know too if you faced the same situation as well.

u/thestrongcoder — 3 months ago

Finally plat in both 😭

I really found a nice guy in my friend list who sort of became a great companion in dual, that was the hardest part. Playing with random people in dual is like betting, sometimes you get good sometimes you get worse.

PS: Also I play on my iPad and I don't know much of the mechanics just play as my heart seems,.is there anybody who can teach me how to do stalls on iPad.

Please please please I'll forever be grateful to you!

u/thestrongcoder — 3 months ago

Thinking to visit a psychologist

I don't know what is happening to me but I am sleeping a lot, I slept at midnight, and woke up at 5 pm. I just feel like I have no purpose in my life, everybody around me seems to have work that they are doing except me.

I am so free when people call me I just go with them, when I try calling them they tell me let's fix a time first before meeting it's not the case with me.

I just can't connect with people or at least I try to but it just doesn't happen. I don't want to meet people but when I do I don't want to leave them just want them to stay with me as long as they can.

I am not at ease at all, the world around me keeps on falling and I am leaving this life without any purpose, it just feels like I don't deserve happiness so I just crave cheap thrills and pleasure from movies and rubbish stuff.

I am trying to be friends with kids near my home but it's just I don't know I know they can't stay with me all the time as well.

I am leaving varansi for my college on the 3rd of August and this just doesn't feel right, if I go with this state of mind, I really want to fix all this.

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u/thestrongcoder — 3 months ago

Pizza 🍕

I want to experience the best pizza in Banaras, where I can get it. Money is not the concern I just want to experience the best pizza Banaras has to offer.

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u/thestrongcoder — 3 months ago