
How to gather courage to play Silent Hill 2 (remake) again?
It's just that so much has happened in my life and looking at the time I completed it on release, I felt so nostalgic while playing the game.
I started missing my school days, the time I was with my brother playing SmackDown: here comes the pain. I create fake scenarios of my school girl friend sitting next to me watching me play my favorite game Resident Evil 4 (2005), when there's cold air coming from the window and it's almost evening.
Playing that game, with that atmosphere reminds me so much of what I have been through and how far I have come and it hurts a lot but I still want to experience the game and the emotions it gives me.
I lost my mom, my family and my foster family (my maternal uncles abandoned me). Seeing James struggling to find Mary makes me remind myself of my mom and my uncles' son (my brother) whom I had the best time with.
I just don't wanna put too much pressure on myself, still I want to gather the courage and play the game all by myself (last time I played with a friend and almost broke down).
I know Boys don't cry and stuff but I don't know wanna tears comes very easily to me and I just can't hold it up.
TLDR: Want to enjoy silent hill 2 but it reminds me of the family I once I had and now I don't, so how to gather courage to play it anyways.
PS: I posted another post a while back but I don't know why it got delete by moderators probably because I used a silent hill poster and stuff.