u/victim_complexxx

My boyfriend has deleted all his social media (NOT at my urging, on his own accord), and repeatedly using this as proof he’s not looking at anything. All he still has is TikTok and YouTube. Recently discovered he is STILL accessing porn- after finding it through people’s bio links on these apps. It feels so hopeless to try and date as a 20 year old when every man my age struggles with this addiction. The temptation is everywhere and I’ve just grown so resentful of phones and the internet. Every app is flooded with porn stars advertising their pages and there’s no where you can be that it’s absent. It’s insane to want my partner to not exist online- this is one of the worst addictions because of how accessible it is. I feel like he’ll never move past it. We have a borderline deadbedroom and he can’t understand why it upsets me so much he does this. I hate the person this has made me into. I hate porn. I’ve begun to hate other women. Mostly I just hate myself.

Young and sad, mostly looking for company and maybe to vent a little *edit: I’m 23 I had my birthday last week and forgot LMAO*

(F 23 / M24) He’s got a 🌽 addiction that I think affects our intimacy (he doesn’t think so). The frequency he uses it has decreased, but today on my lunch we made plans to be intimate tonight. I came home from work and he pretty much completely ignored me. I checked his app activity and of course- as SOON as I left to go back to work he took care of himself. I said something about it and he just got mad. We talked it out a bit and he said he felt bad, and that he did it because he wanted to last longer. Immediately after he began limping around saying his leg hurt. Randomly wincing and making a point to remind me it hurt.
He went to the store and spent an hour and a half there, but I met him outside to carry in groceries. He didn’t have anything? Like 2 bags. I asked him what he’d been doing because he was gone so long and he told me he sat in the parking lot for an hour before going in. Then he came home and cooked a really late dinner (he never cooks) and wasted another hour and a half. Now it’s 30 minutes past my bedtime and I’m still sitting here waiting. And nothing. Not even making out. Idk why I even got my hopes up. I had told myself not too and did anyways. I feel severely inadequate and frankly disgusting. I can’t compete with the internet. My man doesn’t even want me. I feel like half a woman.

(HLF 23 / M24) He’s got a porn addiction that I think affects our intimacy (he doesn’t think so). The frequency he uses it has decreased, but today on my lunch we made plans to be intimate tonight. I came home from work and he pretty much completely ignored me. I checked his app activity and of course- as SOON as I left to go back to work he jerked off. I said something about it and he just got mad. We talked it out a bit and he said he felt bad, and that he did it because he wanted to last longer. Immediately after he began limping around saying his leg hurt. Randomly wincing and making a point to remind me it hurt.
He went to the store and spent an hour and a half there, but I met him outside to carry in groceries. He didn’t have anything? Like 2 bags. I asked him what he’d been doing because he was gone so long and he told me he sat in the parking lot for an hour before going in. Then he came home and cooked a really late dinner (he never cooks) and wasted another hour and a half. Now it’s 30 minutes past my bedtime and I’m still sitting here waiting. And nothing. Not even making out. Idk why I even got my hopes up. I had told myself not too and did anyways. I feel severely inadequate and frankly disgusting. I can’t compete with the internet. My man doesn’t even want me. I feel like half a woman.