u/warmingmilk

So I used to have ana when I was younger but considered myself recovered.

I gained loads of weight through binging and medication and am now obese.

It's like I have gone back in time, my mindset about food is extreme if anything it is much worse so I haven't eaten anything since the x and any drinks must be below x calories.

I was admitted into the psych ward for other reasons that I won't go into here, but they had to send me to the main hospital for severe dehydration (I was not drinking at the time but now I am) and high ketones.

I saw the dietitian today and she says she recommens an ng tube and my psychiatrist and other doctors say they agree, I don't know when they will do it but I am scared, I have never had one before.

What is an ng tube like? Any input about my situation would be helpful.

I am not planning to break my water fast any time soon I would just like to get some opinions.

I have seen many people say to break your fast with bone broth but I really struggle with trying new things so what are people's thoughts on breaking a fast with plain miso soup?

So I will start from a little early on from where I am now.

I have been to psych wards before last time before the current time I was in for 5 months and then I got sectioned (3) against my will for going off my medication that I was getting horrible side effects from.

I no longer had any hunger and no motivation to eat either so I have no eaten since the 15th which I think is fine, y'know people water fast. That is when they started to threaten to send me to the main hospital.

After a while I started to struggle to drink (I know its unhealthy but I was really struggling at the time and suicidal from being on the ward) then on Saturday or sunday they sent me to A&E and I was rushed to resus for severe dehydration and high ketones. They first injected me with haliperidol against my will just because I was a 'psych patient'.

After that they moved me to another ward and now I am in the acute short stay, the first night I was in they called 5 big security men to hold me down while they gave me glucose for low blood sugar and high ketones, then when I was distressed because of what they did to me they force injected me with lorazepam.

I have been refusing medication and I still won't eat but I am cooperating with staff by drinking.

The psychiatrist that is working with my psychiatrist from the pysch ward told me if things don't improve soon they will do ECT on me.

I am so scared, they don't understand the hunan brain so what if they make everything worse?

I would like to hear others who have been through ECT please.

How do you not get low blood pressure ? Or is that just part of the experience?
Also do you exercise at all while fasting?

Anyone tried it what's it like, my starting dose is 800mg.

Anyone do long term water fasts with diabetes?

If do what problems did you face and do you have any advice?

I am currently in a mental health hospital under section 3.

The other day, I got so overwhelmed in the communal area that i begged to go in my room, they said they couldn't let me because I was too much of a risk and they don't have enough staff to watch me.

This lead to headbanging, they restrained me for over 2 hours and injected me against my will twice. After that I passed out from the drugs and I was informed by the staff that when that happened a make patient kissed me on the head without my consent.

Being here is horrible, it makes me want to die.

Been sectioned again they want to put me back on clozapine but I don't want that poison in me but it is hopeless I am afraid, they are going to forcefully inject me again just like last time.

They already forced a blood test against my will even though the advocate said they couldn't do that and every day they inject me with 'insulin'.

This is making me so suicidal I am really struggling guys.

I burnt myself with boiling hot water and it has blistered a lot. I am currently in hospital against my will.

I feel so stupid now, I just wanted some relief from the situation (I have also been dealing with being injected against my will which also triggers my rape trauma). I just want to die but they won't let me, I tried a ligature the other day but they came in, cut it and stopped me.

I hate myself, why do I do this? It is so ridiculous like it didn't even help me die so what was the point? Anyway in a lot of pain and refusing pain medication out of fear of being poisoned. Just feel really self negative.

I am in hospital under section 3 and I asked if they could forcibly do a blood test against my will and he spoke to tge nurse and said no, then this morning they did just that, I feel betrayed and that the advocate lied to me on purpose so they could get me when I least expect it. I am si scared, they put things inside of me when they did it, I know it, I feel like they want me to kill myself.

Don't know if this is related but eating is so hard at the moment I am just not hungry, I have been barely sleeping so you would think that I would be hungry, and what is worse because I am refusing my diabetes medication my blood sugar has been all over the place so they forcibly inject me with insulin against my will, but if I don't eat my ketones get really high and they say I could go in a coma and die if I don't take the insulin so they forcibly inject that, I just can't win...

Hello so I am currently in hospital under section 3, last time I was sectioned I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and they say I still have this diagnosis and that is what they want ti 'treat' me for.

However I really trust my mother and she thinks I don't have schizophrenia and that I hear voices resulting from being autistic and trauma. What do you guys think, try and trust the doctors or your mother.