ADHD diagnosed @ 28. Methylphenidate feels weird. Need guidance.
I got diagnosed with ADHD around 20 days ago.
I knew I had it, I was reading about it for more than 3-4 months, took different tests and aced all. (Not the one I’m proud of).
Initially, it everything started to make sense.
I never thought that the doc will prescribe Methylphenidate in just one visit but maybe he understood me and thought it’s the best. Started with 18mg sustained released.
When I took it for the first time, I felt normal.
I was normal, like most of the people are. I wanted to finish all my pending tasks, do chores, wanted to help my spouse, everything that a normal person does. I went to the gym, which I was avoiding for 15days. It felt great. I thought if I was given this 10
Years back, how much more I could’ve achieved.
Cut to today, after 20 days, I don’t know if I want this medicine anymore. I’m back to where I was. Few days back, I felt so anxious in the evening that I’d feel like the world will crash down on me. Now I don’t feel that push that I felt at the beginning. Now, I think I’m back to square one, the place where I started, where I was, always. It’s like the medicine stopped working. Also, I think I feel delusional sometimes. The thoughts now never stops and are even stronger.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I have around 4 pills left and my next visit was scheduled for tomorrow. I don’t know what all should I tell to my doctor. What if he stops this and my condition becomes worse than before?
Anyone with similar experience or any suggestions, please guide me.