I have Dyslexia, Dysgraphia and Dyscalculia and these triple Ds have been the bane of my existence (rant)
I was diagnosed with the "triple D" and low-average intelligence when I was 15, then re-evaluated again at
19. Last year, a friend told me I might also have ADHD (his dad has it), and honestly sometimes I fucking wish I didn't have any of this shit because it's only ever brought me pain. Doesn't matter if it was in school or now in my adult life-it's always fucked me in some way. My family knows about my condition, but they don't really get what I go through, and that just fucks me even more.
I work in a professional kitchen, and I fucking love what I do. Cooking has been my thing since I was a kid. I had my struggles (still do), but I pushed through, finished culinary school, and worked my way into all kinds of kitchens-from Chinese spots to bistros to fine dining.
I love it. But I hate admitting that I'm slow, and learning a new menu or recipes is fucking hard for me, which makes my job tough as hell. Even outside of work, l struggle with a lot of shit, and while I try to not let it drag me down, sometimes it just fucking breaks me.
People assume I'm dumb, lazy, or just plain stupid-but I'm not. I'm passionate about the shit I love. I'm just depressed, and I don't mean it in that throwaway way people use the word—I really fucking am. I don't want to be rich or anything. I just want to be financially comfortable and actually happy. That's it. That's all! fucking want.