u/whitewashedseniortia

Lalo,

My friend the goofy one. The one who I call My future husband....

I've been here for a while now, thinking about you. Wondering what happened. Wondering how you're doing. Honestly, I really believed you would've messaged me by now.

You haven't.

So tell me something real.

Tell me I'm not alone in how I felt about you. Tell me you think about me. Tell me you miss me. Tell me that some part of you still wonders what would've happened if we'd both been a little braver.

Tell me you want to start over—not necessarily jumping straight into anything, but maybe finding our way back to the friendship we had before. Tell me you finally chose yourself. Tell me you've come to your senses. Tell me you're sorry about Mother's Day weekend and that you wish you could make it up to me.

Tell me it's some truly, madly, deeply type shit.

And I'll tell you something real too.

I'm sorry I wasn't brave before. I'm sorry for pushing you away when maybe what I really wanted was for you to stay.

And yes... it was me on Reddit. Writing to you. My friend. My future husband. 😂 It was me who said, "Why so silent? Cat got your tongue?"

Because the truth is, the first time I saw you, I was stopped dead in my tracks. I still think you're the most beautiful man I've ever seen.

And after all these months of not talking, somehow... it's still you.

When I close my eyes, it's you. When I hear certain songs, it's you. Especially when "Back to Friends" by sombr plays.

I still think about you.

And as crazy as it sounds, I'd still choose you. Over and over again.

Not because I think you're perfect. You're absolutely not. 😂 But because I'd rather have something real, complicated, messy, and meaningful with you than something easy that doesn't make me feel anything at all.

I'm ready to be brave now.

I want the truly, madly, deeply kind of love.

And I want to know if you're ready for that too.

So...

What do you say?

Maybe we stop being afraid of what this could be.

Maybe we both finally get brave.

XOXO- JAI

Lalo,

My friend the goofy one. The one who I call My future husband....

I've been here for a while now, thinking about you. Wondering what happened. Wondering how you're doing. Honestly, I really believed you would've messaged me by now.

You haven't.

So tell me something real.

Tell me I'm not alone in how I felt about you. Tell me you think about me. Tell me you miss me. Tell me that some part of you still wonders what would've happened if we'd both been a little braver.

Tell me you want to start over—not necessarily jumping straight into anything, but maybe finding our way back to the friendship we had before. Tell me you finally chose yourself. Tell me you've come to your senses. Tell me you're sorry about Mother's Day weekend and that you wish you could make it up to me.

Tell me it's some truly, madly, deeply type shit.

And I'll tell you something real too.

I'm sorry I wasn't brave before. I'm sorry for pushing you away when maybe what I really wanted was for you to stay.

And yes... it was me on Reddit. Writing to you. My friend. My future husband. 😂 It was me who said, "Why so silent? Cat got your tongue?"

Because the truth is, the first time I saw you, I was stopped dead in my tracks. I still think you're the most beautiful man I've ever seen.

And after all these months of not talking, somehow... it's still you.

When I close my eyes, it's you. When I hear certain songs, it's you. Especially when "Back to Friends" by sombr plays.

I still think about you.

And as crazy as it sounds, I'd still choose you. Over and over again.

Not because I think you're perfect. You're absolutely not. 😂 But because I'd rather have something real, complicated, messy, and meaningful with you than something easy that doesn't make me feel anything at all.

I'm ready to be brave now.

I want the truly, madly, deeply kind of love.

And I want to know if you're ready for that too.

So...

What do you say?

Maybe we stop being afraid of what this could be.

Maybe we both finally get brave.

XOXO- JAI

Lalo,

I have hopes that one day you'll wake up & realize that this was all real. I meant everything & I mean everything not once did I fake my feelings for you. I know I had pushed you away. & for that I'll always be sorry. You didn't deserve for me to project my past traumas onto/into what we're building.

I seen a post.

It said

Well just keep lying to yourself.

I believe that you dont know how to accept real love. That's not necessarily your fault either. You were given conditional love by people who were/are supposed to love & care for you no matter what.

Im sorry you feel that way. 😔

*~~L~~*

This is for you.

Forgive you? I don’t even understand why you think you’re the one who needs forgiveness.

I see you. I see how deeply you think and feel. I know you struggle with your mental health, and I know alcohol and other things make it harder. But none of that ever made me stop knowing that you love me—even when you acted in ways that almost pushed me to hate you.

Better yet none if this has made me stop loving you or love you any less.. please just accept my love. 😥

If I’m being honest, I think part of you wants me while another part of you hates yourself. So you create distance, or chaos, so that if things fall apart, it proves the story you already believe. It gives you a sense of control. It makes it hurt less because it’s familiar.

But not everyone is out to use you. There are still people who love without conditions. Real love isn’t transactional—it’s not “I’ll do this if you do that.” And just because someone is family doesn’t mean they’ve shown you what real love looks like. I know that’s hard, but it matters.

There’s nothing to forgive. I don’t need apologies—I need accountability. I need you to grow. Treat me better, yes—but also treat yourself better. When you can honestly face what got us here, then we can actually move forward.

I’m not walking away from this. Marriage or not, I’m not here to run. But I think you believe you’re too much, or too broken, so you push me away before I can “leave” you. You project that fear onto me.

I wish you could see what I see—everything, not just the worst parts. When you kiss me, I feel you. When you hold my hand, I feel how real this is for you. I’ve seen it, not just now, but from the beginning. You want this… you’re just afraid to let it be real.

Are you really so afraid that you can’t accept the love standing right in front of you?

Right now, the only person truly hurting you… is you.

Yes, I’m hurt too. Leaving you broke me—but I had to take care of myself. I needed my medicine. That’s it. I don’t understand why your mind went somewhere else, like I was with someone. Is that coming from your past? From what someone else did to you?

I get those thoughts too sometimes. But I made a choice to trust you. Sometimes we have to let things go. Sometimes we have to choose trust, even when it’s hard.

And honestly… I don’t think you trust yourself.

I love you. I am in love with you. I see you—without all the noise, without all the chaos.

So please… don’t run. Don’t hide from me. Don’t hide from yourself.

Just let this be what it is. Let yourself be loved.

Because I’m still here. And I’m willing to go the distance with you—if you can meet me there.

For anyone else reading tonight. This is for one specific person only. My person friend & future Husband

I know you know this is my account.

So whatever you & i need to do to fix whatever is happening let's fix it. Im willing to put my pride 😤 my selfish way of thinking, my fears aside. To make this work. & yes I understand that it's gonna be hard. ( tbh my mind just went somewhere now not intended for this place but hey I cant help it. Sorry not sorry 🤭🤪 )

I love you im in love with you. Don't quit on us don't give up on what we have what we are becoming what we will. Im telling you. I just can't be someone else's I don't want to be someone else's. I want to be yours. I am yours truly madly deeply.

Another reddit user wink 😉 wink

Said something about a slow burn. Well don't let this fire die 🔥 I need you. I want you.

*~~XOXO -~~*

*~~J.~~*

It's chosen. I choose you, I choose you a 1000 million times as many times as it takes. I didn't expect for this to happen and I know you didn't either, but it did, and here we are apart for some stupid fucking reason. You know how to get hold of me. Just come sleep with me, just sleep.Maybe kiss.I wanna wake up with you in the morning

L

This is for you.

Forgive you? I don’t even understand why you think you’re the one who needs forgiveness.

I see you. I see how deeply you think and feel. I know you struggle with your mental health, and I know alcohol and other things make it harder. But none of that ever made me stop knowing that you love me—even when you acted in ways that almost pushed me to hate you.

Better yet none if this has made me stop loving you or love you any less.. please just accept my love. 😥

If I’m being honest, I think part of you wants me while another part of you hates yourself. So you create distance, or chaos, so that if things fall apart, it proves the story you already believe. It gives you a sense of control. It makes it hurt less because it’s familiar.

But not everyone is out to use you. There are still people who love without conditions. Real love isn’t transactional—it’s not “I’ll do this if you do that.” And just because someone is family doesn’t mean they’ve shown you what real love looks like. I know that’s hard, but it matters.

There’s nothing to forgive. I don’t need apologies—I need accountability. I need you to grow. Treat me better, yes—but also treat yourself better. When you can honestly face what got us here, then we can actually move forward.

I’m not walking away from this. Marriage or not, I’m not here to run. But I think you believe you’re too much, or too broken, so you push me away before I can “leave” you. You project that fear onto me.

I wish you could see what I see—everything, not just the worst parts. When you kiss me, I feel you. When you hold my hand, I feel how real this is for you. I’ve seen it, not just now, but from the beginning. You want this… you’re just afraid to let it be real.

Are you really so afraid that you can’t accept the love standing right in front of you?

Right now, the only person truly hurting you… is you.

Yes, I’m hurt too. Leaving you broke me—but I had to take care of myself. I needed my medicine. That’s it. I don’t understand why your mind went somewhere else, like I was with someone. Is that coming from your past? From what someone else did to you?

I get those thoughts too sometimes. But I made a choice to trust you. Sometimes we have to let things go. Sometimes we have to choose trust, even when it’s hard.

And honestly… I don’t think you trust yourself.

I love you. I am in love with you. I see you—without all the noise, without all the chaos.

So please… don’t run. Don’t hide from me. Don’t hide from yourself.

Just let this be what it is. Let yourself be loved.

Because I’m still here. And I’m willing to go the distance with you—if you can meet me there.

For anyone else reading tonight. This is for one specific person only. My person friend & future Husband

I know you know this is my account.

So whatever you & i need to do to fix whatever is happening let's fix it. Im willing to put my pride 😤 my selfish way of thinking, my fears aside. To make this work. & yes I understand that it's gonna be hard. ( tbh my mind just went somewhere now not intended for this place but hey I cant help it. Sorry not sorry 🤭🤪 )

I love you im in love with you. Don't quit on us don't give up on what we have what we are becoming what we will. Im telling you. I just can't be someone else's I don't want to be someone else's. I want to be yours. I am yours truly madly deeply.

Another reddit user wink 😉 wink

Said something about a slow burn. Well don't let this fire die 🔥 I need you. I want you.

XOXO -

J.