u/wildmoosey

I've been a regular 1g+ daily user since 2020, save when I was in the psych ward for a few months. Part of my reason for wanting to stop smoking is once I have one it never feels like enough. I could be higher, I have felt better- if I just have one more bowl I could maybe get a glimpse of those moments where I was 18 and a tiny smoke would throw me into giggle fits.

It doesn't make me feel anything other than normal now. Even when I realistically have so much THC in me, I feel nothing but the comforting haze.

I feel so fucking stupid for saying im going to quit for years now and never following through but I just decide to have one more and try and reach that comfy stoned over and over and over again

I don't fit in at NA groups because everyone is recovering from much harder drugs and talk about stigma around use and legal consequences and some are Canna Sober. I don't fit in at AA because I am not an alcoholic. My problems are cannabis, nicotine & caffeine. I've wasted hundreds if not thousands on expensive dispensary shit and munchies binges because I'm stoned. I've dropped out of school, once I start I cant stop. I keep spiraling with it over and over. I live in Canada in a place where its super accessible.

I don't even know if Im capable of being fully sober at this point. Why can't I stop? It feels so pathetic to be crippled by this plant that helps so many others.